My Heartless Husband

chapter 32

Adonis

As the time passed, i continued to feel miserable, pain and loneliness. I'm just distracting myself from working because otherwise i might go crazy thinking about Eliza, it's so funny what's happening to me right now. Even me, i don't know what's happening to myself, i just feel i missed her.

Lagi kaming nagkikita ni Eliza lalo na kapag may meeting dahil magkasosyo ang kumpanya namin ng magulang niya at ng akin, lalo na ngayong si Eliza muna ang namamahala sa kompaniya ng ama niya kaya siguradong hindi malabong hindi kami magkita.

Napahilamos ko na lang ang palad ko sa mukha ko, nandito ako sa opisina ko pero yung utak ko lutang. I just leaned back on my swivel chair and took a deep breath.

I just took a deep breath again then i got up and left my office, i told my secretary to cancel all my meetings and appointments when i passed her table then i got on the elevator good thing i was the only person, i closed my eyes, then I massage my forehead as my head hurt just as the elevator opened and when i opened my eyes, i stilled when j saw the person who had been inside my brain all day.

Mukhang nagulat din ito ng makita ako pero kaagad din itong nakabawi at pumasok sa loob ng elevator.

It was uncomfortable and awkward atmosphere that enveloped the two of us inside the elevator.

"Ahm" tumikhim ako para basagin ang nakakabinging katahimikan na bumalot sa'ming dalawa,"how are you?"

Segundo muna ang lumipas bago nakasagot si Eliza,"good, how about you?"

Lihim akong napangiti ng mapait, ayoko namang sabihin na hindi ako okay dahil sayo."Likewise"

Muling nabalot ang katahimikan sa'ming dalawa at balak ko sanang magsalita ulit nang bumukas na ang elevator at bumungad soon ang boyfriend ni Eliza, kaagad naman itong linapitan ni Eliza.

Lumabas na ako ng elevator at aalis na sana ako mg magsalita ang boyfriend ni Eliza.

"Hey, I'm Yaser Silvain" Introducing Eliza's boyfriend to me then he extended his palm to shake hands.

I accepted his handshake and introduced myself,"I'm Adonis Sullivan"

Yaser Silvain? Sounds familiar, did he owned the Silvain Industries? Maybe but I don't care.

Matapos kong makipag kamay kay Yaser ay nagpaalam na akong aalis, ayokong magtagal at panoorin silang maglambingan.

Malalim na lang akong napabuntong hinga saka sumakay sa kotse ko at pinaandar iyon patungo sa paborito kong bar.

"Negroni" I said to the bartender when I entered the bar and sat on the counter stool.

There is still a day outside but I don't care, I want to drink and get drunk. I don't know why I suddenly feel like this. I have no idea what is happening to me.

What the fuck Adonis? Get hold yourself and don't fuck up!

Mapait akong natawa ng maalala ang mukha ni Eliza na tumataqa kasama ang boyfriend nito.

What's that bastard's name again? Yaser, right his name is Yaser.

Napailing na lang ako at inisang inom ang negroni na inorder ko nang mailapag 'yon ng bartender sa harapan ko.

"One more" sabi ko ulit sa bartender. Kaagad naman siyang naglagay ng isa pang shot ng negroni at kaagad ko itong ininom,"one more" I could feel the bitterness and pain in my throat but I ignored it, my brain was focused on Eliza, I kept blaming myself why I don't have Eliza anymore if I hadn't been stupid before,"more," If only I hadn't been blinded by my love for Katarina, I would have been with Eliza now, not that Yaser."One more," Why did I prioritize a useless woman like Katarina over Eliza, now im feeling miserable and lonely."more "

The bartender put another five shots of negroni and placed it in front of me, but before I could pick it up and drink it, another hand took it in front of me.

Kunot noo kong binalingan ang kumuha ng inumin ko at ma's lalong lumalim ang gatla ko sa noo ng makita kung sino 'yon.

"How did you know i was here?"

Kielton give me a "duh" looked,"maybe because I'm the owner of this bar"

Napa 'tsk' na lang ako at kinuha ang negroni shot sa may kamay ka niya at ininom 'yon, nang maubos ko yon ay nag 'one more' pa ako sa bartender nabnasa likod ng counter at akmang ilalapag niya na sa harapan ko ang shot glass ng pigilan yon ni Kielton.

"So, what's the problem?" Tanong ni Kielton at itinabi sa gilid ang shot glass na may lamang negroni.

I sighed and shook my head,"nothing"

Kielton chuckled,"guess what, it's Eliza right?"

Hindi ako sumagot at nag-iwas tingin,  paano niya nalaman? Manghuhula ba to nuong past life niya?

Kielton chuckled even more,"silent means yes, so she's your problem? Can't get over? Jealousy?"

Kunot ang nuong binalingan ko si Kielton,"hindi ako nagseselos"

"Then what?"

I sighed, "honestly, I don't know. These days I felt like miserable, lonely and annoyed to my self and I keep blaming myself" I smiled bitterly."Maybe this is my karma, I've been a coward before, I deserve this"

Sa dami kong kasalanan sa kaniya siguradong ito na ang kapalit ng mga ginawa kong kagaguhan noon. Karma sucks!

"Do you love her?"

Natigilan ako sa sinabi ni Kielton. Love her? Do I love her?

"Maybe, I don't know yet, I'm still confused by my feelings" I took a deep breath after I told Kielton,"all I know now is that I blame myself for why Eliza and I divorced."

Nailing na lang si Kielton,"is that why you are getting drunk now because of your 'confused feelings' for Eliza?" Kielton tsked,"even if you drink all the alcohol here in my bar, you still won't get an answer for your confused feelings asshole!"

"Fuck off" I just said and ordered another shot of negroni.

Kielton shook his head and left and let me drink, i don't know how many times i've sighed while drinking a negroni.

After the fifiteen shot of the negroni I felt dizzy so I stood up and was about to walk out when i got out of balance, luckily i grabbed onto the counter.

"Fuck!" I cursed and forced myself to walk out of the bar even though the people around me were spinning.

Kahit pa pasuray-suray ang lakad ko ay nakarating pa din ako sa kotse ko saka sumakay, binuhay ko ang makina at papaandarin ko na sana ng may kumatok sa bintana ng kotse ko.

It was Kielton. I rolled down the window

"Why would you drive drunk, do you want to get into an accident? you bonehead!" Kielton hissed,"get out of there and sleep in the vip room, I don't want to visit the hospital for you"

I just laughed at what Kielton said but I still turned off the engine and got out of my car, Kielton helped me back inside the bar and up to its vip room.

"Love sucks" naiiling na bulong ni Kielton nang makita ang kalagayan ng kaibigang nakahilata na sa kama at natutulog na.