Anatomy of love ✓

=13= 𝔸𝕟𝕒𝕥𝕠𝕞𝕪 𝕠𝕗 𝕝𝕠𝕧𝕖

That image made me want to vomit.  How was he able to do that?  I thought he would be different...

After seeing him leaving the apartment with her I decided it was time to go home, I would throw all his stuff on the street, I never want to see his face in front of me again.

— I'm already going.  -I said goodbye to the girls going to the door, it didn't take long for the elevator to go up and enter it.  When I got out of the lobby I could see the two of them heading to a car on the other side of the street.

I got in mine and drove home as fast as I could, I just want to get there and never have to leave.

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— Yes, Miss Wolly, I think her letters were wrong, another asshole has appeared on my list of failures!  - I said to myself throwing his clothes inside his own suitcase.
— How Muggle You Were Jennifer, HOW MUGGLE YOU WERE!  -I yelled, slamming the wardrobe doors.
— That's what you can try to be nice, you only take her ass, even more when you fall in love!  -I sat on the foot of the bed, already with my makeup all smudged.

I wouldn't cry for him, he was Ben!
The person I least want to see right now is him, let alone cry thinking about him.  I got up still with tears or at least trying to hold them back.  I pulled her heavy suitcase out of my apartment and put it in the elevator.
I went down to the lobby and left it with the doorman, making it very clear that I don't want him here anymore.

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The other day I had to take a long shower, I couldn't hold back and cried all night, the fact that he doesn't understand that I really like him and that I would risk trying anything makes me angry.  He's the kind of guy who "doesn't care about anything" just knows how to enjoy the moment.  And this morning what made me cry the most was him leaving the party with her.

— Friend?  -I heard the front door open and Leah's voice coming closer to the room.

— I'm getting dressed!  - I said a little loud already leaving putting my shirt on.

— Oh, what happened here?  - he laughed pointing to the area that was my room.

— Nothing much, I'll fix it later.  -I shrugged my shoulders and went with her to the kitchen.

— Where's Ben?  I didn't see you guys leave the party yesterday.

— We didn't go out together.  -I swallowed my own words.  —He went out with Altman.

— Wow, I didn't know… Sorry.

— Okay, as he said, "we didn't have anything".  -I smiled falsely because those words still hurt me inside.

— Did he say that?

— Yesterday before we entered the apartment, I yelled at him and went outside to get some air.  Then when I came back he was already there on the porch with Altman.

— Okay, but now explain to me why the fuss with Altman, have you seen them together before?

— No, but just because he spent more time with her, it made me angry, I'm really in love with him Leah... - I covered my face with shame and I wanted to cry.

— Hey, you don't have to be like this, he'll never know if you don't tell him, right? -She hugged me and I laid my head on his shoulder.

— How do I say this now?  He sure as hell slept with her.

— How about we go to work, and on the way you think about it.  -I took my bag and we left.

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In the hospital thank God I hadn't run into him until now.  I wasn't so sorry anymore, but I didn't know what my reaction would be to seeing him.

— Hey Jenny, what kind of face is that?  -Unfortunately I found Jo in the cafeteria.

— I'm still sleepy.  -I rubbed my eyes drinking my coffee.

— Did you hear that we're having free consultations today?  You and Ben are in charge.

— Which?  No, I'm not in the mood today.

— Hi Jennifer.  -Ben arrived in front of us, looking away from me as much as possible.  I ignored him going back to Wilson.

—Who invented this today?

— Bailey.  -She shrugged his shoulders and left to look for her.

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— Can't Bailey be someone else? -I asked her for the tenth time.

— Lopez stop complicating my life, aren't you and Ben together?  What's the problem with spending a few hours helping people in need?

— No, we both have nothing!  -I turned around to see him looking at the living room window, why was he even there?

— Could you leave the couple's bickering out of the workplace?  I need two responsible doctors here!  - she ordered hitting the table.  I turned around leaving the room, Ben came after me wanting to say something.

— We can talk?  -Before answering Ben, he pulled me into an empty room.

— I don't want to talk to you, so don't speak to me!  -I put my finger on his face already huffing for talking to Bailey.

— We can have a conversation without these freaks of yours.  -I rolled my eyes seeing him lean against the wall.

— I don't think so, leave the madwoman here and go fuck Altman.  -I mocked.

— Ben, we can talk... - We looked at the bedroom door and Teddy was there, did she hear what I said?  Screw it.

— Yeah, go benjAmIn.  -I made a face and he followed her.  Poor thing, another deluded one, actually, poor thing, she stayed because she wanted to, that bitch without salt.

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I waited a while to not run into them in the hallway and went back to my work, at this point my tongue was almost popping out of my mouth, I wanted to spread the word to half the hospital that Affkeck was a tremendous son of a bitch.  But I held back because I was Wilson's friend and of course, I had the sense to not later call me a neurotic ex.  So I decided to go after Meredith, she always gets the best surgeries.

— Where's Ben?  -Meredith asked me as she watched her cell phone entering the elevator.  I followed suit, as she was going to check on Ellis at daycare.

— I don't know, I didn't put a collar on him. -I crossed my arms.

— God, you're a princess, but sometimes you embody Fiona. - laughed making me crack a small smile.

— No, but seriously, I don't know where that jerk is.  -I said and the elevator opened, Ben and Altman got in, was she really clinging to his neck?

— Uh, got it.  -Grey seemed amazed seeing the two, and I was standing next to her.

— Olivia Rodrigo crying seeing me now.  - I mocked looking at the blurry reflection of the elevator door.

— Like this?  -She spelled it out with her lips and we were all silent until the elevator stopped on our floor.

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God, I was so busy these weeks.  last night i danced for the people of arizona lol it was perfect and crazy at the same time.  sorry for the delay, but I promise that today I'm going to oysters a lot more <3
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~Mandy