Letters to Lucy || Quinn Fabray

10.5 || We Are Okay

Lucy,

We are okay.

I haven't written to you since last August, when I was just starting Sophomore year.

It was a hard year.

I haven't written since then because I had nothing left to say. And I felt embarrassed. I was trying to move on, but since we are okay now, I never really did.

We're starting over, I think. Not fully. You still have to show me that you won't leave again, at least not without a goodbye.

I've come to another realization while writing these letters: You started going by Quinn around December of 9th grade, but I still refer to you as Lucy in these letters. Well, that's because I'm not writing to Lucy Quinn Fabray, just Lucy.

"Quinn" is like a new version of you. You're still in there, and you're still you, but you look different and sometimes you're mean to people. You're confident.

I'm writing to the Lucy I remember, because someone has to. Yes Lucy, you are unhappy and unconfident, but you've also never left my side and I love you.

I have not gotten to know Quinn enough to love her. Maybe I will someday.

But for now, I'm figuring out where Quinn ends and Lucy begins.

I hope we can get to know each other again.

Maya