♥︎ 𝐑𝐔𝐍𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐘 ៸៸ vent book

...𝒅𝒊𝒅 𝒂 𝒅𝒐𝒈 𝒆𝒂𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒉𝒐𝒎𝒆𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒌 𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒊𝒏?

ok i thought maybe this would be dark but nope so there's no trigger warnings for this <3 (EXCEPT for at the a/n there is a mention of self-harm so i cannot stress it enough please be careful if you get triggered by that) this is a vent sorta based off moment by vierre cloud (yes ik it's a remix of a new kind of love by imogen heap btw !!) and this one post covid fanart of stan and kyle i saw not too long ago :) (FULL CREDS TO EMILYARTSTUDIO-S ON TUMBLR !! https://emilyartstudio-s.tumblr.com/post/679815052441911296/with-love-ig-patreon) btw i could've sworn i remember stan n kyle's dialogue being like "i just want everyone to leave me alone" and "we'll leave you alone once you get your poop (yes i mean the swear word but since i dont like to swear i changed it) together" but i still relate to stan massively both ways LOLOLOLLL

"Hey sweetheart." A familiar voice said after closing the door. The owner of that voice only watched Sam look out the window, no response. He couldn't help but feel his heart break a little at the sight. She really wasn't feeling good.

He let out a sigh and headed over towards her bed, sitting down next to her and looked out the window as well. He sneakily wrapped his arm around their waist.

"You didn't show up to school again. Me, Stan, Kyle, and Cartman were worried sick for you." He paused for a moment, thinking of the excuse they made last time they didn't show up and chuckled a bit. "What happened, hmm? You were doing so well...Did a dog eat your homework again?"

Sam stayed silent and didn't reply and just continued looking out the window, Kenny looked over at her face and noticed the sad look in her eyes.

"I just-" They finally looked over at the blonde haired boy next to them, as much as they didn't want to worry him, they knew there was no point in making another excuse again. 

"C'mon, you can tell me anything. We're super best friends (winky face ;)) after all." He sweetly smiled as he held her hands in his own. 

...But despite him being her boyfriend and super best friend plus the fact they've known each other since forever, why did it have to feel so terrifying to tell him stuff? But not only him, that went for her close friends Stan, Kyle, and Cartman as well.

"I just- I feel so sick, I don't wanna feel like this anymore...I feel so scared...I just want everyone to leave me alone, Kenny..." They said quietly, looking down avoiding his gaze.

It was still loud enough for Kenny to hear, though. His smile now turning into a sad one. "I know..." He pulled them into a tight hug.

a/n (another trigger warning again, there is a mention of self-harm here)

so earlier i never ended up watching south park when i went to my room like i said i would what i ended up doing was having a full blown breakdown and self-harmed i've just been struggling very badlyt with dissocation thanks to my stupid cptsd and it's terrifying 

more than anything penelope and egon feel like this rose tinted cheeks lyric: "I know I'll be okay...No, I won't." 

bc at this point they really don't know anymore and they feel terrified bc of it but god forbid penelope pussycat and egon spengler ever talk about their feelings without being ridiculed for it and being told ''yOu fesTer tOo MucH oN neGatiVe tHinGs!1!!11!!" (mainly my mom who tells me this but at least she somewhat took me seriously this time n said we'll see how i'm feeling in a few days so...we'll see what happens then...i guess...im just so tired of struggling with my mental health) amirite? ecks dee

...that's why i tend to bottle things up alot of the time but it eventually gets to a point you can no longer continue to do so, y'know? idek why im writing this if no one will see it lol and ik my friends care about me but i have a disturbing feeling that one day they will just tell me what my mom does whenever i try to vent

anuyways once again i will say something that i dont know if its true anymore at this point but i know if i keep saying it i'll eventually trick myself into believing it "i'm penelope and egon, i'll be fine!" and also ''i'm penelope pussycat and egon spengler! if i'm them, i can get through anything."

i dont wanna be myself anymore i want 2 b penny n egonie >.< (ironic bc im currently wearing my ghostbusters shirt i got today at wal,mart)