The Great Wall of Karina

She...

"She died matapos mo syang dalhin sa lugar na yun!"

"I don't know, bigla nalang syang nanghina after mong umalis."

Hindi naman mangyayari ang ganun kay Winter diba? Not my Winter.

Ayoko mawalan na naman ulit. Not the person I love the most. She's everything to me. And di ko kakayanin kapag nawala sya.

Hindi ako mahilig umasa at magdasal. But for the first time. I tried. I was hoping na things wouldn’t end that way.

But it didn't.

Nandito na naman ulit ako sa labas ng ER.

"Can't you see?! Nasa ER sya! Fighting for her life!"

"Nasa ER parin si Mom makakahabol ka ba?"

Ning was crying non-stop sa shoulder ni Gi so as Ryujin. She came here without any slippers. I guess sobrang nagmamadali sya papunta rito. They also got a call.

Gi called Mama kanina. She said na papunta na raw dito si Mama.

I don't think I can face her.

It's my fault kaya nandito si Winter.

As soon as I get the call galing sa nagdala sa kanya dito sa hospital I immediately drove papunta rito.

She'll be okay, right?

Cause I don't know what will happen to me kapag may hindi magandang mangyari sa kanya.

Hindi ko na dapat sya sinabihang puntahan ako. If I hadn't call her hindi sana sya aalis ng bahay. Wala sana sya dito.

It's all my fault.

Fear started to crawl sa buong katawan ko. Wala pang lumalabas na doctor mula sa ER. We heard things kanina sa mga tao. It was an accident. We saw bunch of injured people too sa may hallway. When I asked the nurse kanina sa information desk parang nanlumo agad ako when she said na nasa ER si Winter.

Masyadong maingay ang paligid. Nagkakagulo ang mga nurse at doctor sa dami ng mga sugatang pasyente. Hindi kami makasilip man lang sa ER which making us more nervous.

Heck I was going insane dahil sa kaba at takot.

The door finally open at mabilis kaming lumapit sa doctor na lumabas mula rito.

Please.

"I'm sorry.." was all the doctor can say and it was enough para madurog ang puso ko.

Please..

I raised my hand and held the doctors hand eyes begging. Hi didn't mean it, right?

Please, tell me na she's alright.

Please!

He sighed and look at me with sympathy.

"I'm sorry iha. We did our best pero hindi na kinaya ng pasyente."

The hallowness in my chest, hearing those words from the doctor.

Umiyak na ako.

I want to scream. Gusto kong magwala.

Why?!...why?

We we're all crying sa labas ng ER. We couldn't move. Ni hindi namin magawang pumasok sa loob kung nasaan si Winter.

I don't think makakaya ko syang makita.

It fckin hurts.

Winter...i—i'm sorry.

"Ma'am."

We all looked at the nurse na lumapit sa'min.

"P—pasensya na po Ma'am." she looked apologetic.