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𝐌𝐀𝐘𝐁𝐄 𝐈 𝐃𝐎

1:11am 28th June 2022
Carlotte Mae L/n was born

Holding her for the first time made me so emotional. I hated this bundle of joy for the longest of times. I don't understand how I did.

"Y/n are you okay?" Xiao asks, his tone scared for an answer.
I nod my head sniffing "Carlotte Mae L/n. She's our baby. I'm so happy" I smile through my tears. I hear a few sighs of relief in the room.
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After a while Lumine shows up.
"Oh my god Y/n she's gorgeous" Lumine holds my daughter in her arms, "Hello little baby. Awh your so cute" She giggles bouncing her up and down slightly.
"Hey Y/n we have the baby you can sleep if you want?" Xiao whispers in my ear his hand on my shoulder. As tired as I am I don't want to sleep yet.
Shaking my head Lumine passes Carlotte back to me.
"What's she called?" Lumine tickles Carlottes chin.
"Carlotte" I smile handing the baby to Xiao, he smiles slowly rocking her.
Hutao smiles at me before closing in "Are you gonna tell him?" She looks at me.
I shake my head.
I haven't told Xiao I've been accepted into Harvard law school, I would have to move away for 5 years. With Carlotte. I don't know how to tell him without breaking his heart, I don't want Carlotte to grow up without either one of us.
Xiao hands Carlotte back to me, "Hiii Charlie." I say in a high pitched voice, Carlotte slowly opens her eyes revealing piercing amber eyes staring into mine. "You have your dads eyes," I smile, "You better have my hair" I laugh. She has fine hair on her head but not enough to tell what colour it is.
I slowly rock Charlie back to sleep as everyone crowds around.

A few hours later

After getting dismissed and sent home the first thing I do is put Charlie in her crib, get changed into a dark red long sleeve shirt and grey sweats and I fall asleep on my bed.
I feel a blanket being placed over me and a crying baby slowly drifting away with a quiet shh.

8:27am

I hear loud crying, I slowly get up picking Charlie out of her crib "shh baby shh" I say. I feed her she quiets down for a few seconds before she cry's again. She didn't shit or anything so I try put her back to sleep before anyone wakes up.
Too late Xiao is already up, "Crying?" He whispers his voice raspy, I nod rubbing my eyes.
"I forgot they cry" I admit sighing.
"Maybe she will be our alarm or something" he slightly laughs before walking downstairs making some pancakes.

Sitting at the table coffee in my hand.
"Oh my god I miss this so much" I cry. Xiao laughs finishing up his food, I smile before remembering about the law school.
"Hey since I've had the baby couldn't we go out now?" I say, Xiao gives me a look.
"Are you sure your not too tired or anything? Aren't you in pain or something" he says, I nod "I'm still in slight pain but I can go out and I will" I smile before getting up and changed, I wear a black sweatshirt and black sweatpants.

Outside
We walk around this field before sitting on the grass, we are laughing pushing Carlotte around with a lavender blanket over the top of her pram.
"Hey can I just tell you something" Im terrified to tell him but here goes everything
"Sure babe is everything okay?" He asks I nod, that's a lie nothing is okay right now.
"I've been accepted into Harvard Law School" I start before I can finish Xiao buts in.
"Oh my god that amazing Y/n!" He smiles
"I know but it's all the way in America and I start in 3 weeks." I sigh his face slowly drops, "Oh well we will wait for you" he tries to bright up the mood.
"About that. Carlotte will have to come with me. She's too young" I say, now his face completely drops.
"Wh-what? I'll come with you then," He tries to find a solution, I shake my head a few tears rolling down my face.
"I'm so sorry" I say this is my fault after all, Xiao shakes his head, before hugging me.
"Don't be, I can't hold you back from your future. I'll be here when you and Charlie come back. When ever it is" he cups my face in his hands, a tear rolls down my face.
"Thank you" I smile, before standing back up. Xiao follows suit.
"Oh and could we get home quickly cause I may have lied about not being in pain, I am in so much pain, my uterus is coming out in clumps." I smile awkwardly.
"Y/n!!!" Xiao moans at me, "Sorry! I just wanted a nice scenery to tell you the news" He laughs at my stupid statement.
"Let's go home now." He starts to push the pram back down the field, I smile watching him slowly push the pram down the hill.
My heart warms watching this, I'm gonna miss this.

For 5 years I'm gonna miss this.