Carrie's POV
I felt as if my heart broke into a million pieces. Tears streamed down my face as I walked up that stairs and into my room. Why did he leave? I don't understand. I've never been more upset. My grandmother died. I lost her and now Mike. I am so stupid. This happens all the time. Any boyfriend I've had it always ends up like this. I push them away. I don't know why I just do.
I felt so empty without Mike being there with me and it makes me angry how attached I am to him. If I wasn't so attached it wouldn't hurt so bad. Suddenly I was angry with myself for being so attached and for letting myself fall so deeply in love with Mike.
I sat up in my bed and looked around my room for my suitcase. When I remembered I'd placed it in the closet I stood and removed the suitcase, laying it on my bed. When I opened it I immediately felt guilty staring down into it. I had bought lingerie. For Mike. I understand we're not married. Its wrong. I understand that too. But I had planned on making love with Mike. If he was up for it. I want to share that passion with him. It wasn't anything about pleasure at all. It was about love. A love that I wanted us to share so badly. I through the lingerie to the side upset that I'd even considered sex before marriage as guilt ran throughout my body.
I began packing my things into my suitcase. I wanted to go home. I was ready to go home. I let out a sigh as I continued packing my things tears still falling from my eyes. Not sad tears. Angry tears. For being so stupid and letting me actually fall for Mike. I'm so ridiculous. To think that a man could ever truly love me for everything I am. Hell thats all just a lie. When you think you've actually found true love...its all just a lie. And this proves it. Nobody's actually ever been inlove. They just make it seem that way for the sake of their children.
I got finished packing and decided to take a shower. As the hot water poured over me I began thinking of Mike. Why did he leave. He never told me why. He just apologized and left. Although I'm not surprised I don't deserve any explanation from him. At all.
As I stepped out of the shower I herd a voice in my room. Realizing it was Mike's a burst of excitement exploded in me but then I was filled with anger. Why are you so damn excited Carrie? The man left you here all alone while you were upset. Crying. Don't be so damn happy all he will do is hurt you.
"Carrie?" Mike said as I opened the bathroom door noticing his was sitting on my bed his back facing me, fondling something in his hands.
"No. Please do not speak to me." I said glaring at him as I opened my suitcase.
"What is this?" He asked standing up holding the bottom half of the lingerie peice.
"Obviously Mike you know what it is." I replied giving him a look.
"Why?" He said curiously.
"Because Mike!" I sighed becoming annoyed.
"What is your problem?" He asked looking at me seriously.
"Please Mike just leave me alone." I said snatching the lingerie out of his hand and stuffing it into my suitcase along with the top and middle part.
"Carrie why are you so upset?" Mike sighed.
"You left me here Mike!" I said tears streaming down my face. "I was upset enough as it is then you just left me here!" I exclaimed.
"Look Carrie I am sorry okay?" Mike apologized stepping closer to me. "Baby I really am I just needed some time alone i-"
"Thats fine you can have all the time you want because I am leaving." I said wiping my eyes.
"No Carrie. Why?" Mike asked looking at me seriously.
"Mike I allowed myself to fall in love with you...when I shouldn't have...you left me here Mike...all alone." I cried harder.
