unbroken (unexpected series)

Chapter 50

a/n: NOT EDITED. So hopefully you guys see why this chapter took a bit longer to write... enjoy.

Chapter 50 - Oakley POV

Back in Middleburg, dad had sent me to see some head doctor, said it would help with my 'problems' with Sarah and Amelia, help us be a better 'blended family.' I'm not quite sure what the point of that guy was, it seemed like all he ever did was take what Dad and Sarah said at home, and brought it into his office.

Same noise, different location but again, dad didn't see it that way. I'm not really sure ho Ben managed to never truly be in the middle. I guess now, sitting here I could see that even when he was calling Sarah mom, he had always been on my side.

'There are no sides Bumblebee,' I remembered daddy saying as I swung on the hammock on the porch. Not quite reading to head inside just yet, after leaving Kayla's for dinner. I actually liked her she had this calm about her that settled Ben... he was always so loud and angry but again, I don't think I saw that back home either. It's only now when I think back and see things a bit clearer I notice how lonely he must have been. I was a kid, but once our dad brought Sarah around and she took over everything I waited for daddy to come back to me. When he didn't, I noticed that the only way I was ever going to get away from Sarah and Amelia was if I made myself busier than ever.

It wasn't all that hard, I didn't have friends, so I studied, read everything I could, soaked up random facts and anything else that I found interesting. Before I knew it, I was bored in my regular classes, and able to skip a few when the opportunity rose depending on the subject.

I might not have had daddy, but I could've had more time with Ben, yet... I only saw that now.

The door behind me slides against the rails and I can already catch aunt Julia's scent the minute she slid it open, the raspberry scent stronger each day her belly grew, "How you doing?" she asked pointing to the spot next to me, waiting for my nod and legs to drop so the rocking halted and she could make herself next to me.

Sighing, "I'm okay... just not ready for bed yet," I murmured.

"You okay?" I nodded in the darkness, "I think the only thing here that's sorta like back home," I started, "are the stars... I mean we could see them bright and everything back home. But here... it's like we can see more of them," I didn't want to talk about Kieran. I was worried, my belly hurt and my chest ached when I thought of him not wanting to be around me anymore, but Uncle Grant said that I shouldn't push him.

"Yeah... the stars are really beautiful here, it's quite at night and so still..." curling my body I laid my head on her shoulder.

"You don't have to hold all your feelings inside Oakley," she said after minutes of silence and my heavy sighs. Shrugging my shoulders I didn't pull away, there was no point, in that or in trying to make Kieran see me when he didn't want too.

"I just - I wish I knew what I did-"

I could feel her body stiffen, and she leaned away from me forcing me to look at her. "You did nothing wrong... and can I be very honest with you?" I nodded.