Beyond Human: Queen's Shadow Series

06.) A Sign Of Things To Come

~~~Lilith

I think about everything, I think about my life and all the millennia I've been around. I am Queen Lilith, the immortal, the woman who has changed the world, the woman who strives to keep going yet right now, my heart hurts. Every time I think about him, my heart hurts, I gasp for air and pain, my heart hurts every time I close that door. My heart hurts every time I look at him.

Everything that I can do to stop everything is under my control and feel my dreams get more intense. I was supposed to be there for you, I was supposed to watch you grow yet all I did was abandon you. What makes my heart ache even more is that I see my grandson, Jordani Nicole Morten. With his beautiful dark skin, his brown and grey eyes, and his platinum white hair, he truly looked special. When he transformed into a werewolf, he was such a wild thing, running around and shitting and peeing everywhere, I love every moment of it. I love how my grandson is, I love how my step-granddaughter is gaining her confidence back.

I feel good knowing he is my grandson because I know I'm doing my best right now. I know it's been hard for me, emotionally, I feel like I've done nothing right by Apollos. I know the consequences of what I'm doing, I know the consequences of what I should and could do. I know what's happened, I know what I've done yet this is one of the few things that I constantly must accept. My interference is dangerous and no matter what I do, I tend to wreak havoc. I'm not proud of what I've done, but I've eavesdropped on Hans and Apollos conversation in the last battle.

I listened because I was curious. I wanted to know and I learned the truth. For all the love that my son had for me, he spoke the truth. The world that he resided in with me was nothing but chaos because I cared too much for humans. I'm feeling so strongly about this because I saw what happened to Gabriel, it reminded me of Michael holding Gabriel. A baby who turned into a man who turned into a vampire. I had everything in that world, I keep apologizing to him sometimes and I let him do things he shouldn't do. I know he's an adult now, I know he's a vampire now but my son's changed. He has become more and more like a warrior.

His compassion is dimming and his love for people has changed. My son is becoming the perfect warrior and I know as much as he should be that, my son should be a good man too. I wish I could have done more, I hope my son is going to be a good man by the end of all of this. The world is changing. Will it be for the better? That is what I'm wondering.

'Hey, Mom what's on your mind?' My cold thoughts were being interrupted by a warm sincere voice, Apollos. Thoughts of negativity running through my head suddenly subsided, I let that dream consume my mind. I cannot let her throw my house into chaos, I cannot let dreams throw my house into chaos. Though I worry about what he is capable of. The battle against Hans was the most telling thing.

His regeneration was exceptional, he regenerated faster than most vampires for his age. On top of his regeneration, I've seen bullets go clear through his heart and he isn't a puddle of blood. I've seen vampires evolve over the years, we have the fastest Evolution on the planet. Regeneration is like breathing for us, broken bones can be fixed within hours to minutes depending on how old you are if you have basic medical knowledge it speeds it up even more. Our senses allow us to detect humans from far away. His abilities are far more than that though, he can teleport almost instantly and I still don't know-how. He has control over other vampires much older than him but somehow has proven himself to be the one in control.

'Are you ignoring me?' I look up at him as I gently rub Jordy's head. "I'm sorry I'm in my own thoughts," I say to him honestly. "Do you want to talk about it?" I was completely caught off guard, but I realize now was as good a time as any. I needed to talk to my son and I needed to be honest. "Apollos, what did she do to you to make you so powerful?" His face showed so much concern, I already regret the question but I knew he was the only one who would tell me the truth. Or maybe he would tell me a lie but he was still the safest option.