i fist my shaking fingers as i step forward, sound of people's claps echoes but in head feels like taunts. i trembles as spot light finds me, wispers filled the room as alwage doubting my capabilities.. As i reach stage, my grandfather gave me the reassuring smile like always as i touch his feet out of respect than i turned towards the my peoples of this company looking at me with hope and i felt the sharp pain in my heart as i remember emptyness in our life. the voices in my head returns reminding me about why i don't deserve it , I shouldn't be hear before everyone whom i have cause harm but hear i am standing before them to promise to provide the future and everything that they deserve which got destroy because of me. my lips tremers before i try speak, than i finds him in the crowd The man that lives to defeat me, his eyes challenging , he is looking straight into my eyes which fades every other voice. Something changes, my fingers hold the mike with foreign confidence. i took a deep breath and i look at the crowd and started my speech. (This is story of unfortunate, unnoticed, requisite love)