"Thank you for today. I'll miss this so much." I look around for the last time. "I like you" As a fan I feel ecstatic, my breath hitched. I want to scream and cry at the same time. But since I've met him several times I try not to make it obvious. I noticed he'd been studying my face. Trying my best to collect myself "seriously? Thank you. I love you so much." I smile looking at him. My heart beats crazy. Grabbing my arms he makes me face him. "You know that's not what I'm talking about. I like you as a person not as an idol- fan. Let's date, be my girlfriend" knitting his eyebrows he searched my face. I sigh taking his hands into mine " Thank you for looking after me. It was the best time of my life. I'll be fine. I'll always be your no.1 fan. i won't do much different but I'll always support you. I can't wait to tell my sister's and frien-" "Can't that wait? This is not funny!! I LIKE YOU Melody Goddamn it! can you stop being selfish?" he snap furiously fisting his hands. I cautiously try to loosen his hands" I'm sorry but I have to be selfish here. As a fan i've been watching you for half of my life you have no idea how I feel right now. i love you so much as an idol. I also like you as a Man but I can't afford to have that kind of life. I'm an ordinary woman with a 9-5 job, normal life. I'm sure you'll meet someone who has experienced your lifestyle where everyone understands and is happy for you. I can't change my life I have family, friends and my whole life back there. You have been fine your whole life without knowing me you'll do fine. Thank you for helping me for 2 months I'll never forget your kindness. I wish you luck and happiness in the future. Goodbye Dean." I kiss him on the cheek. I didn't turn around until I reached the elevator. It's true that as a fan I adore him and imagine him to be my boyfriend but reality is scary.