M A T T I A P O L I B I O
"i'm sorry but-"
the doctor was interrupted by 2 boys barging in
"where is she"
we all turn our heads to see nathan and josh
"oh thank god. where is she? what happened to her? can we see her" josh asks
"unfortunately you can't" the doc says "with everything that had happened to y/n-"
"what's everything? what happened with her? i want fucking details" nathan says in a angry voice
"nathan calm down she'll be fine" josh assured him
"no it's okay. you guys are worried. i would be too if this was my friend as well" the doctor says
"she's our sister"
"your sister fell into a deep coma" he explains "with her cutting herself making her lose a lot of blood , starving her self and taking acid caused to hit some kind of nerve in her body and we can't find it"
all of our faces soften
our eyes tearing up
i can tell we're all thinking the same thing
blaming it on their self
when it's really
all my fault.
i did this to her
she fell into that state of mind
because of me
this is my doing.
i fucked up.
i should've just told her what was happening
"when can we see her" i ask
"you can see her now if you guys would like
but there is one thing you guys have to decide on"
we look at each other and nod
"if y/n doesn't wake up in a month or so it's up to you guys to decide if we can pull the plug"
all this
all this cause of me
we head into her room and as we get closer i feel a knott in my stomach.
i hesitantly walk in and see her.
all the wires connected to her.
her wrists.
her pale skin.
her cold pale skin.
her eyes closed
her laying down on the bed
helpless
all cause of me
"omg" i hear a familiar voice whisper
i turn around it's taylor
she starts crying
"what's wrong with her. what's happening" she says with tears in her eyes
"i don't know" ale says "the doctor said she's in a deep coma. apparently she's been starving herself, cutting , and um taking acid"
taylor looks at him with her bloodshot eyes
"do they know when she's gonna wake up"
he shakes his head no
my heart sinks
"they said if she isn't up in a month or so we have to decide if they can pull the plug or not"
it's been an hour and the others went to go eat but i wanted to stay.
i needed to be with her
i want to be with her
i look at her and start to cry
"i'm not leaving baby"
"i'll be here everyday"
i kiss her hand and hold it for the rest of the day
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week one.
"hey bro, you hungry?" nathan asks me
i shake my head no
i haven't ate since she's been in this bed.
it's been a week and she's not up
i've been praying everyday
that's all i can do right now
"you don't wanna go home and get some rest mattia?" dess asks me
i nod my head no
i wanna be in her arms
i wanna hear her laugh
i wanna see her smile
i'm not complete without her
"hey dude. how you holding up" alex comes in along with carlos
they got back from tour finally last night but they knocked out the second they got home
"i'm fine" is all i can say
"she'll pull through" carlos says holding my shoulder "it's y/n"
i smile
y/n is one of the strongest yet fragile person i know
please just wake up baby
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week 2
it's been 14 days and she's still not up.
14 days of feeling empty
14 days of crying
14 days of being lonely
14 days of nothing but hatred for myself
i can't believe i caused her to do this
"mattia c'mon you should get some rest" kairi says
"i don't need rest right now" i lie
i'm exhausted
i don't wanna fall asleep
and wake up to her coding
i don't wanna see it
"y/n wouldn't want this mattia" he tells me "it's only been 2 weeks there's a lot more time"
time passes fast
i can blink and it'll already be next month
"at least eat dude"
i nod my head no and just stare at her
even at her worse she's beautiful
my eyes start to tear up
please y/n please.
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K A I R I
"he doesn't want to leave her" i tell ale
"i feel so bad for him" he replies "he's beating him self up for it"
"i couldn't imagine losing the love of my life" i tell him
"if he's staying here ima stay with him & y/n" ale says
i nod thinking the same
"he can't be alone right now"
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week 3
M A T T I A P O L I B I O
"no way" i say laughing "she hates peanut butter & jelly"
"remember that one time y/n accidentally kicked you in the nuts" ale says laughing causing kairi to laugh
"it wasn't accidentally" i say smiling "she did it cause i told her she sucked ass at soccer. i only said that cause she was actually better than me"
"it's crazy because ever since y/n joined the soccer team . we've been winning and becoming closer as a team" kairi tells us
i nod smiling
"one of her specialties" i say grabbing her hand
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week 4.
"so you're saying she's making no progress?" i ask the doc
he nods
"she's basically dead?"
"that's what we're trying to figure out" he explains to us "we don't know why she fell into a coma so deep"
"i'll give you some time alone with her"
tears start to fall down my face uncontrollably
i can't lose her
i don't wanna lose her
please baby please don't give up on us.
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skip 2 weeks ( week 6)
today's the day.
she still hadn't woken up
i don't wanna pull the plug
i can't do that to her
i don't wanna do that to her
i'm hoping before 5 she wakes up.
i look at the clock and it's only 1 in the afternoon
i look back at her and take her hand into mine
"please y/n please wake up" i say pressing our foreheads together
"i can't lose the other half of me" i say starting to cry
"please" was the last word i said before kissing her
oh how much i missed your lips
suddenly i feel someone grab my hand tight
i pull away from y/n to look at my hand and i only see y/n's hand
i feel it again
i look at y/n and see her eyes trying to open.
"y/n. y/n?! you're up baby are you up"
"mattia?" she says "where am i? why am i?" she says starting to freak out
"you were in a coma baby. you're safe you're here with me don't worry"
i go out to find a doctor and bring him to her room
"well it looks like everything is back to normal. you can take her home tonight if you would like"
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"why didn't you just tell me instead of actually doing it mattia" she says
"kevin had me a gun point y/n. i didn't wanna do it but if it were to keep you safe then obviously ima do it" i tell her
she sighs and sets herself on my lap and press our foreheads together
"i love you" she whispers
"i guess i love you too" i say making her laugh
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"we finally did it" i say to the group "we graduated and we're all still together"
"we did it baby" mattia says
"yea" i smile "yea we did my love"
we all stood together and threw our caps up in the air.
high school taught me one thing.
go for your brothers bestfriend
LMFAO i'm jk diary.
it was fun while it lasted. i'm glad i had my group thought out the years .
i look forward to start this new chapter with mattia
T H E E N D
a/n: guys i had to end it 😭😭 cause i really ran out of ideas for this one and people are rarely active when i ask for ideas so , sorry if you're mad but i have another book out if you would like to read that one & yes it's another mattia one :)) i love you all ❤️