bestfriends

the kiss

wednesday

"hey um we have to start planning mom's funeral you know" josh says to me and nathan

i shook my head and looked down

they both look at me and get up to hug me

"hey it's okay" nathan tells me "she would be proud that we're stepping up yk"

"yea" josh agrees "she would be proud at all of us for being this strong" 

"she was all we had tho" i say "it's disappointing to lose both parents and one of them isn't even dead. he just left"

"that's why you have me and josh" nathan tells me

"forever and always" josh says

they both hug me tighter

"hey gu- oh what happened to her" alvaro asks us

we break the hug

"nothing. we just have to start planning our mom's funeral" nathan tells him

i start to tear up and alvaro hugs me

"she would want you happy" alvaro tells me

i hug back "i know" i break the hug "but uh ima go to the bleachers" i say to them

"you want us to come?" nathan asks "or you wanna be alone"

i think for a little "i'll go by myself" i say hugging each of them "thank you guys"

i grab my backpack and walk over to the bleachers. a few minutes later i get there. i lay down on one of the benches and look at the sky while thinking about how life would be different if my mom was still alive. i start to tear up

"why'd you have to go mom" i said while tears are falling down "you l-left us mom" i cry "y-you left me"

i put my hands on my head and cry harder

"now who's gonna walk me down the aisle" i say crying a little harder "dad left and you're gone now"

"i wanted you to be the one to walk me down the aisle" i say "i-i wanted to see your face up close when i get married"

i cry even harder. at this point i wanted a hug. i didn't care who it was i just needed something or someone to hug .

"you okay?" someone asks me

i pick my head up and see mattia standing with his hands in his pockets.

i stand up while crying even harder and go up to mattia and hug him.

"hey, hey it's okay" mattia tells me hugging back

i cry into his chest and he's just standing there hugging me

"she was supposed to be the one to walk me down the aisle mattia" i say crying "now she's not even gonna be at my wedding"

"come, let's sit down" he says

we sit down and i lay my head on his shoulder.

"things happen for a reason y/n" he tells me " i'm sorry for your loss, i really am but your mom would've wanted you to be happy"

"i can't be happy if she's not here" i say in a low voice

"i promise you y/n, better things are coming for you" he tells me "it may happen sooner or later but those better things will come"

i pick my head up and look at mattia . i wanna kiss him. i had this strong urge to kiss him. i couldn't resist it

"what" mattia says laughing

"mattia i don't know if this is gonna change everything" i tell him "but i hope it doesn't"

"what? what are you talk-" mattia tries to say

i cut him off by kissing him and he immediately kisses back . i felt relieved and happy that he kissed back. my hands fly to the sides of  his head . and one of my hands are going through his hair

"hey there yo- omg i'm so sorry" i hear someone say

i quickly break the kiss and look. it was cynthia

"i-i - i'm so sorry mattia" i say grabbing my bag

"wait y/n" mattia says trying to stop me

i run past cynthia and go straight to the bathroom.

mattia's pov

"i promise you y/n,better things are coming for you" i tell her "it may happen sooner or later but those better things will come"

after i said that y/n picks her head up and looks at me

"what" i say laughing

"mattia i don't know if this is gonna change everything" she tells me "but i hope it doesn't"

"what? what are you talk-"

she cuts me off and kisses me. i immediately kissed her back because i've been wanting to do this for how long now. i could do this forever. her hands fly to the sides of my head and she moves one of her hands and runs it through my hair.

"hey there yo-omg i'm so sorry" someone said

y/n pulls away quickly and she looks shocked. i turn around and see cynthia. oh my god again gosh bitch hop off my dick.

"i-i i'm sorry sorry" y/n says grabbing her bag

"wait no y/n" i say trying to stop her but she quickly runs away from me and past cynthia

i sigh and burry my face in my hands

"fuck i fucked up" i say

"i uh i'm sorry for interrupting" cynthia says " i really am"

i didn't wanna be mean to her since she's still kinda new here

"nah it's fine but uh i'll be back ima go look for her" i say getting up "uh i'll see you later cynthia"

"yea ofc" she tells me "uh good luck"  she smiles

i smile back and went looking for y/n

y/n'a pov

"holy shit did i just. did i really just kiss mattia" i say to myself "please wake me up and say i'm dreaming" i tell myself "fuck fuck fuck"

i get my phone out and text taylor .

dumb bitch💘 = taylor

y/n: taylor!! i really need you right now come to the bathroom please
dumb bitch 💘: right now? we're testing. is it important?
y/n: yes it's a fucking emergency, so please come to the bathroom
dumb bitch💘: alright be there in 5

end of texts

i walk back and forth waiting for taylor to come in . a couple minutes later the door swings opens . it's taylor. thank god

"hey what happened?" she says "are you okay"

"yes i'm okay" i reply "wait actually i don't know" i say "i fucked up taylor. omg i'm a dumbass"

"woah slow down" she tells me "what did you do?"

i took a deep breath

"i kissed mattia" i say quickly

her jaw drops "YOU kissed MATTIA?" she says shocked

"yes and he kissed back and we made out for a little but then cynthia came and interrupted us and i ran away and now i'm scared to even look at him" i tell her

"y/n i honestly don't know what to say" she tells me

"you don't have to say anything" i groan "i'm just mad my dumbass decided to do this dumb shit"

"c'mon let's skip school" taylor suggests

"we can't. you have that test" i remind her

"so? you're more important than some dumb test" she tells me while grabbing my hand "now vamonos (lets go)" she tells me

i laugh while we head to the front gate and jump over it.

a/n: i didn't proof read this either lol