october 27, 2018
i wake up to the sound of water. the bathroom door was open so i guess billie is just brushing her teeth. she walks out and walks over to me
billie: morning mamas
madison: come back to bed?
billie: later
madison: come back to bed.
she rolls her eyes playfully, getting back into bed and pulling me closer. i trace her collar bone while she looks down at me
madison: you know, i shouldn't let you walk out wearing this
she raises her eyebrow
billie: what's wrong with what i'm wearing?
madison: you're covered in hickeys and wearing a tank top
billie: they're fading
madison: not good enough
billie: well let it be good enough, we're only at home
madison: with people here
billie: maddie
madison: bil
billie: don't worry no one's looking at me
madison: everyone's looking at you
billie: no, everyone's looking at you. they can't keep their eyes off my girl.
i hide my face in her shirt and she laughs.
billie: lets go downstairs
we get up and i brush my teeth then go downstairs meeting maggie, patrick, finneas, danielle and liam.
liam: ah, the lovebirds have awaken
billie: whatever bro
she barely mumbled that.
in fact she said that so loud everyone heard her.
liam: chill out, i was just kidding
she rolls her eyes and goes to the front door
billie: ma let's go get tacobell
she smirks at me and i realise liam's face drops in the corner of my eye at the name she called me.
maggie: billie
she looks at her mom, all of us putting our attention on maggie. she doesn't talk, but points to her neck. now it was billie's turn to drop the smirk she had on and run into her room, walking out with a hoodie matching her trackpants.
billie: now let's gooooo
madison: dani and liam y'all wanna come?
they both nod and i go to look at billie, finding she's already outside and walking to finneas' car. we had to use his four seater because she didn't want them sitting in her car. she gets in and i get in the passenger seat.
billie: you killed the mood
madison: how?
billie: inviting your friend
madison: ease up bil, i haven't seen liam in a while and dani's been gone for weeks
billie: yeah no
she fake smiles and they get into the car. the whole ride was silent except for the music that billie sang along to from her phone on the aux. she didn't talk to me but had her hand on my thigh, rubbing it every now and then to comfort me. when we got there we ordered and billie insisted she'd pay although i knew, even though this is a kind gesture, she'd brag about it later on. when we got home we went inside and billie practically dragged me to her room and took her hoodie off
billie: it's fucking hot!
i was silently eating my food while looking at her body i hadn't even noticed she was looking back at me for a while
billie: you good?
madison: mhm
she sits down and starts to eat but her body is a damn distraction, let me tell you. this bitch was turning me on by just sitting there eating a beaned burrito in a tank top. when she finishes she lies down next to me and starts to rub my back for some reason.
billie: how's life going?
madison: it's pretty good. do you have any plans for your career?
billie: nah, i'm just focussing on making music and hanging out with my fans more.
madison: you don't have any small shows anytime soon?
billie: not that i know of.
i nod and turn to her then pull her tank top up to her bra and start to lightly play with her belly button piercing.
madison: do you want any tattoos?
billie: fuck yeah. i was gonna get suck my dick on my eyelid but my mom won't let me
i laugh and she frowns.
billie: what's so funny?
madison: you're serious?
billie: yes
madison: oh my god
billie: whaaaat
madison: please don't let me be seen with you when you get that
she pushes me and i fall off her bed, grabbing her hand just in time for her to go falling with me. she lands on top of me and we both laugh for a few seconds. she looks at me and smiles then kisses me.
maggie: billie?
we hear a knock on the door and she gets up pulling me up with her and pulling me into a hug from behind.
billie: come in
her mom walks in and smiles at us
billie: yeah
maggie: you have an interview in 30 minutes
billie: what? you didn't wanna tell me earlier?
maggie: you were on your way to tacobell before i could.
billie: alright i'll get ready.
maggie walks out, closing the door behind her and billie pushes me on the bed, climbing on top of me.
madison: billie what are you doing
billie: i'm tryna fuck mamas
madison: you have an interview in half an hour bil
billie: great give me 15 minutes
madison: billie
billie: please
madison: after.
billie: i don't know if i can wait that long
madison: you can, now get ready.
billie
***
i was sat on a chair, answering the same questions i've already answered bored out of my fucking mind. some of the questions made me laugh, but i always had the same answer.
interviewer: do you have a boyfriend?
billie: nah
i shake my head and scrunch my face, glancing over at my mom, finneas and my friends for a second.
interviewer: i heard you recently started following madison gonzalez on instagram?
billie: damn y'all keep up huh
i chuckle and nod
billie: mhm, she's over there
i look at her for a second, smiling at her when she turns away and laughs
interviewer: recently your fans have been posting edits of you two together and kind of shipping you guys, so after coming out a while back would you take a relationship into consideration?
well this question is new
billie: i think that's rather private but i don't wanna ruin it for the fans so i'm not gonna pinpoint wether the answer is a yes or no because i like my fans imaginations so they can think what they want. if it does get out of hand though, which it has before, then i'll have to do something about it but hopefully that's not for a long time.
interviewer: how long have you known madison for?
billie: well we talked on the phone for a while but we met a few months ago.
lies. i just want this to be over.
interviewer: my last question,
yay
interviewer: the fans have been dying to hear this from the billie eilish herself, do you have any music coming out soon?
i just nod and smile at the camera.
interviewer: okay well we're gonna close up right now.....
madison
a few hours had past and billie took me back to our spot at the park to watch the sunset. this time we bought snacks, a blanket and extra hoodies just in case. we were currently sitting on the blanket while eating a bag of takis and i was more focused on billie than i was of the sunset itself. she was so into it and pointed out the pink clouds she liked the most and smiled in astonishment while watching the sky slowly change color. finally, she looked at me and flipped her blue hair, smiling.
billie: what?
madison: why are you changing?
billie: i don't know yet.
i nod and lay down and she grabs my hand
billie: i know you're upset that i don't know yet, and i do know, i'm just waiting for the moment to tell you.
madison: but when will that be, i don't wanna wait forever.
billie: you're gonna have to take a chance. i know it's risky but even i'm losing my patience. i'm challenging myself, not just you.
she kisses me softly,
billie: it's closer to now than it was a few hours ago. and i haven't pinpointed a date because our minds might change when the time comes. so my patience sets the time place and date. i don't know where we'll be, but whatever time it is, at the exact second i can't wait any longer, i'll ask. i just want this to be right for both of us.
madison: i love you
billie: i love you too, let's go home.
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tenks 🥰
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