Azaan's POV.
It's my fault.
I should've been more cautious.
I should've taken better care of her.
I knew I didn't deserve her.
For a moment, I told myself ...maybe this is another chance.
Maybe she is the one meant for me.
Everytime I see her, I feel so many things at the same time.
For a moment, I imagined a world with only her and I.
But then, I was reminded that I can't take care of her.
I almost lost her.
Those bastards could've destroy her if I didn't show up on time.
When I saw that guy on top of her, my heart stopped for a minute and the beast in me woke up.
I knew I had to make her mine soon.
I want to protect her with everything in me.
But I can't help but blame myself for what happened to her.
How can I be so careless?
How could I..?
I'm disappointed in me.
Somehow, I feel like Asiyah isn't taking it seriously because she was looking for me.
Not going to lie, that made me feel a bit better.
But that doesn't mean anything.
I can't let her in no more.
I have to distance myself, I have to stay away from her and I need to be serious.
If I keep letting my guards down and being soft, she'll win my heart again.
Tonight we have a party.
Honestly, I don't want to be there because she will be there.
The girl that once had me out of this world.
The girl that made my heart beat for the first time and break for the first time as well.
It was so hard for me to get over her that's why seeing her might be hard.
But I have to be strong.
She lost me, I didn't lost anything.
After taking a shower and wearing my armani black suit, I styled my hair and perfumed myself before getting out of my room and making my way downstairs towards the hall.
Hopefully, nothing goes wrong tonight.
Asiyah's POV.
After realizing that I was a fool for accepting Abay's offer, I ran to see Maryam.
Luckily, Maryam and her fiancé were both in the process of getting ready to attend the party.
She came into my room with a bunch of dresses and we both got ready together.
She did my makeup and my hair because I suck at doing it.
" I was about to tell Aryan that I don't want to go but thank god you're coming now" she said.
I just remembered their conversation earlier.
I don't want to tell her I eavesdropped their conversation but I really want to tell her what I think about her.
In fact, I want to scold her for thinking that way of herself.
She was done with my makeup and hers and now it was about time to put on a dress.
She went in the bathroom and came back a few minutes later with her dress on.
I got up from the bed my eyes wide
" mashallah! you're so beautiful" I told her.
" really?" she asked looking at herself in the mirror unsure.
" yes you are Maryam, you're absolutely gorgeous" I said.
"are you sure?" she asks again.
I rolled my eyes and grabbed her shoulders making her look at me.
"why are you so insecure about yourself?! you're litteraly shining right now, there's only one person in this world that is comparable to you and that's yourself...if you don't love yourself then who will? I know it's hard sometimes to feel beautiful and to be confident but believe me that hating or judging yourself won't make things better okay?" I said.
She stared at me for a few seconds before hugging me.
"thank you Asiyah" she said.
"you better keep my words in your head" I said pulling away.
"I will, come on i'll give you a dress" she said walking to the bed grabbing one of the dresses and then coming to me.
"go and try this!" she said.
I took it and went to try it in the bathroom.
The dress was pretty tight put it looked really good on me.
I'm not the type of girl to wear dresses on daily nor am I a girl who goes out partiying.
I never really go out and I never pamper myself if I do.
I got out of the bathroom and showed Maryam.
"mashallah! You look stunning!!" she said.
"thank you" I said blushing.
The last touch was to wear high heels which I HATE.
It's just too painful for no reason.
Like who even looks at your shoes?
"can I just wear plain shoes instead?" I asked Maryam.
"stop! You're going to ruin your look, you have to wear it no matter what" she said.
I rolled my eyes and wore them.
Once we were all ready and good to go we got out of my room.
Aryan was standing out waiting for Maryam I guess
"wow" he said looking at her.
"let's go" Maryam said.
The three of us made our way downstairs to the hall.
Arriving there, a lot of people were present.
I thought it was a small party.
Maryam followed Aryan towards some people and I stopped following them.
I can't just follow them the whole night.
I saw a snack and drink bar and quickly made my way there.
The snacks were so well decorated.
I picked up a chocolate and ate it.
Yum!
"Asiyah?" I turned my head to someone calling my name and almost choked.
Zayn...?
"oh my god! It's you!" he said in shock.
I started caughing hard.
He was about to tap my shoulder but I backed off.
"I'm-I'm fine" I said grabbing a drink and drinking it in one shot.
"it's been a long time" I said feeling uneasy.
What is he doing here?
He worked for them?!
"yes it's been what? Three years! You've grown up so much" he said.
I just smiled. I just want him to leave right now.
Is he not who I think he is?
I'm so confused.
"how come you're here?" he asked.
"good question... I don't know either" I said.
"how's your family doing?" he asked.
Why does he even care?
"Zayn my love!" a girl came our way dragging Azaan along with her.
Can't this get any worst?
"Hamna, where were you?... Who's that?" he asked her.
"this is my friend Azaan, I used to train with him back then... Who's she?" she asked.
"friend as well" I said.
Azaan came and stood beside me looking at me as if I was his prey.
"you know him Asiyah?" Zayn asked me.
I was about to answer when I felt Azaan's arm around my waist and pulling me close to him.
"she's my girl" he said.
My eyes got wide and I couldn't believe what he just said.
He brought his mouth close to my ear and whispered "play along" he said.
What does he mean?!
"for real Asiyah?" Zayn asked me.
"uh I... yes" I said.
Why did I say that?!
What is he going to think of me?!
Oh my Allah!
But wait... Why do I even care? He did the same to me back then.
"you're even married now?" he asked me.
"yes she is" Azaan responded.
"I thought you never wished to marry this early" he said.
He's right.
"you're right but when we met everything changed" Azaan responded looking into my eyes.
"oh I see" Zayn said.
"Asiyah right?" Zayn's girl asked me.
I nodded.
"you must be really special to him... back then I was the only girl in his eyes and now it's you" she said.
What?
Who is this girl to him?
I knew he was a player.
"it was just a crush Hamna and you know it, don't bring up the past in front of my wife" Azaan said.
Wife?! I got chills when he said that.
"okay we'll leave you guys" Zayn said before leaving.
As soon as they left, I moved away from Azaan looking at him furious.
"what was that?!" I asked him.
"thanks for the help" he said fixing his clothes.
"explain yourself right now!" I said.
"Hamna used to be my crush back then that's it" he said putting his hands in his pants pockets.
"that's it?! Why did you had to touch me then?" I asked.
"because I wanted her to see that I moved on" he said.
"which you clearly didn't since you made such a big show" I said rolling my eyes.
How can he use me like that?
"what about that guy huh?" he asked.
"what guy?" I asked back.
"that guy Zayn or whatever who kept eyeing you up and down?" he asked.
What is he saying?
"just a friend" I said folding my arms.
"liar" he said.
"I'm not lying!"
"you are" he said with a serious face.
"listen stop playing me like that everytime and stop putting your hands on me as well... you have no right" I said.
He approached me his eyes deep into mine.
"I might have the right soon" he said with a smirk and then he left.
Ya allah this guy!
The night was passing by fast, people were eating, talking, laughing and having their time.
Meanwhile, I was bored as hell.
I saw Zayn and Hamna together being intimate and it made me remember the past again.
I couldn't but stare at them from time to time.
I wondered, will he also lie to this girl and break her heart?
Although they looked happy together, I still couldn't help but wonder.
I want to talk to him and ask him what is his connection with these people, how did he find this place and many more questions but... It doesn't feel right.
How can I even trust him after what he did?
Maryam was stuck with Aryan talking to other people.
She would look at me from a distance and smile to let me know she's okay.
I ate enough sweets for today and I just want to take off my high heels, shower and then go to sleep.
I'm tired.
I looked around one last time before walking towards the exit of the room when suddenly a waiter bumped into me.
I lost my balance and fell down with the drinks on top of me.
Didn't excpect this kind of shower.
"I'm so sorry!" he was apologizing a thousand times.
"it's no big deal" I said.
I was about to get up when I heard my name being called.
"Asiyah" I lift my head and saw Azaan.
He bend down and grabbed me bridalstyle in his arms.
He looked at me and then walked out of the room.
This moment felt right and wrong.
I was lost in his eyes until I realized what was going on.
"let me down" I said.
"I'll take you to your room, you're tired" he said.
"leave me!" I said again.
He put me down and I looked at him confused as to why he's being nice to me.
"why did you do that?" I asked him.
He wasn't saying anything.
"Azaan why?" I asked again.
He was just looking at me without saying anything.
"I'm asking you why did you give yourself the right to touch me again when I told you a few hours ago to not do it?" I asked him.
I was fully serious. Why is he doing this?
Why is he disrespecting me like that?
"why?" I asked again.
"you didn't react this way when he was trying to touch you back then"he said.
" what are you talking about?"I asked.
" when that little lover of yours Zayn was making you blind in love you didn't say anything, did you? "he said.
Anger boiled in me when he said that.
He had no right to judge me and my past.
He has no right to put himself in my personal problems and life.
I was so mad that I couldn't handle it and slapped him.
" how dare you!? " my eyes got watery and my heart was beating fast.
"why would you bring up my past like that?! Did I say anything about Hamna?! No I didn't, because I know it's painful and I would never want you to feel like shit even if I don't like you!"
He wasn't looking at me. It seemed like he didn't care.
"you're heartless and I hate you!" I said that and then turned around to walk away only to trip and fall again because of my heels.
I took them off while crying and then ran away.
I hate him so much.
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