october 22, 2018
i wake up and look to my side. when i find billie isn't there i decide to get up and go downstairs. everyone is already up in the kitchen and dani is here. they all look at me and smile.
madison: did i do something wrong?
clauida: you have something on your neck
i look at billie and widen my eyes then run upstairs and into the bathroom. i check the mirror to see hickeys all over my neck. i go back downstairs and head straight for billie. i hit her arm and she grabs my waist and pulls me closer.
billie: how'd you sleep
madison: pretty good. and you?
billie: me too
she pecks my lips and i smile at her
madison: you're still a bitch
billie: wasn't i daddy last night?
madison: shut up oh my god
she just laughs
madison: i'm being serious. i clearly told you no marks
billie: okay okay i'm sorry i won't do it again
finneas: if she even lets it happen again
she flips her brother off and i walk to the counter then sit on it, next to claudia.
billie: i was caught up in the moment
madison: you were too caught up your ears stopped working
billie: what was that?
i roll my eyes and she chuckles.
madison: what are we doing today?
isaac: there's a party just down the road tonight, you guys should come
billie: i'll go if maddie does
she looks at me and i shrug.
madison: i don't knowwwwwww
billie: it'll be fun come on
she walks up to me and wraps her arms around my waist. i take a deep breath and rest my chin on her head.
finneas: so are you two a thing yet?
madison: no
billie: not yet
i smile at that and she starts kissing my chest from over my hoodie. i feel her hands try to lift my hoodie up and i grab them
madison: billie not in front of our friends
billie: take it off
madison: bil chill out
elijah: yeah eilish chill out
she looks at me and rolls her eyes causing me to laugh.
billie: let's talk
madison: what do you mean?
billie: come on
she picks me up and i wrap my legs around her waist as she carries me to the room
finneas: she's about to get some!
i laugh and close the door as we reach my room.
***
after hours of chilling with our friends at home, we all decide to get ready for the party. i wear white track pants with a matching white hoodie that has a big LA sign on it. billie wants to get high before we go so when we get there it's chill already but finneas decided that he won't drink or smoke until we get there. we call almost three ubers and head over to the address the twins said the party was at. when we got there billie grabbed my hand and we went inside, the smell of alcohol, drugs, and sweat filling my nose immediately. she leans closer to my ear and kisses my neck.
billie: stay by my side alright?
i nod and she lets go of my hand then begins walking towards a group of people.
am i meant to follow her or some shit?
i feel another hand grab mine and turn to see claudia
claudia: if you stay with me you'll survive
i smile at her.
claudia: let's go find the drinks
she walks off but doesn't let go of my hand, making sure i'm beside her the whole time and not drifting away in the crowd. we grab a drink and she leads me to an area where people are chilling and we find the twins, dani and finn sitting on plush couches passing a bong around while talking. we sit with them and elijah hands me the bong that i happily take from him. i take a big hit and hand it to claudia which she hands to finneas and i slump in my seat, blowing out the smoke slowly.
finneas: how's your night going so far? you don't look too good
madison: i don't feel too good. billie left me for other people. i haven't seen her since but it's only been a few minutes.
half an hour later i find myself taking another big hit from the bong and passing it over claudia to finneas when i feel hands on my shoulders. i look up and see billie looking down at me. she sits next to me and looks at me in disapproval as i blow the smoke out of my nose.
billie: damn, pass it over
elijah passes it to her and i take it from her, causing her to look at me and shoot a resting bitch face my way. i blow the smoke into her face after taking a hit and smile, passing it to finneas.
billie: you're in deep shit gonzalez
madison: what are you gonna do? fuck me?
billie: i'm calling an uber and taking you home
madison: noooooooooo
billie. then watch your mouth
madison: damn sorry for disobeying daddy
she rolls her eyes and i open my arms for a hug. she just looks at me and i pout.
madison: give billie a hit she's mad mad
she gets up and walks away and i follow her. a few seconds later i lose sight of her and bump into someone, their drink spilling all over my hoodie and pants
madison: shit sorry-
?: oh, are you okay?
madison: yeah i'm fine
she looks down at my pants and i catch her smirking.
?: my drink went on your pants, let me help you clean it up
she grabs my hand
?: in the bathroom
i feel another hand grab me and pull.
billie: i'll help her
?: do you even know her?
billie: i said i'll help her.
?: whatever
the girl lets go of my hand and billie leads me out to the back where everyone else is.
billie: don't pull that type of shit again
i give her a questioning look and we walk over to our group of friends.
billie: eli did you bring the bag?
he looks at his twin and isaac picks up a bag that was next to him, throwing it at billie. she goes through it, giving the twins a look then pulling out black trackpants and a matching blohsh shirt. she throws the bag back at isaac
billie: be careful with that shit, don't lose it
lose what?
nobody says anything else and billie looks at me and we both go back inside, and to the bathroom. she locks the door and throws the pants and shirt at me
billie: put them on
i take off my wet clothes and put the new ones on, looking at billie only to find that she's been staring at my body the whole time.
madison: did you like what you saw?
she gets closer to me, putting her hands on my waist.
billie: shut up gonzalez
madison: make me eilish
she looks at me before crashing her lips into mine. she lifts me up and puts me on the sink then starts to lift my shirt up when there's a knock on the door. she ignores it and puts her hands underneath my shirt instead, feeling my boobs. the knocking turns into banging and billie looks at me in disappointment.
madison: at home
billie: i want you now
danielle: BILLIE IF YOU DON'T GET YOUR ASS OUT HERE RIGHT FUCKING NOW
we hear dani scream and i kiss her one more time before jumping off the sink and walking to the door
madison: at home
i open the door and danielle grabs my shoulders and looks at me, she looks at billie, her eyes wide open in shock.
danielle: he has the bag
i look at billie and she runs out of the bathroom, dani and i following. outside everyone is yelling and crowding something. some people are running to their cars and leaving and some are yelling at other people to call the police.
billie
i stop in my tracks to see isaac and another dude fighting. the guy has isaac's bag and isaac is yelling at him to give it back. next thing i knew the guy was reaching into the bag.
billie: EVERYBODY GET DOWN
i make sure isaac runs before running up to madison and grabbing her hand then running to the end of the street. two gun shots went off and we both jumped but didn't look back. i didn't stop running until we were almost at the end of the street.
madison
everyone starts to go home, still shaken up by what was happening as a few more guys start to yell at the guy with the gun, pulling out there own weapons and shouting more. i watch in shock as billie types on her phone. we wait a bit before our friends meet us at the end of the street.
isaac: billie i'm sorry i lost the bag he wanted to see what was inside it and his friend was there and-
billie: it doesn't matter now as long as everyone is safe. nobody's hurt?
we all shake our heads and i notice something
madison: where's finneas?
billie: finn!
she turns to run back toward the crime scene and i grab her hand.
madison: billie no! i don't want you to get hurt. they have weapons and they're still fighting.
billie: he's my brother.
madison: then i'm coming
billie: what? why?
i look around trying to find an excuse in my brain. tears begin to stream down my face as i realise claudia isn't with us as well.
madison: claudia's not here
billie: no just let me grab finneas and we go home we can get claudia tomorrow
madison: billie! she's your brother's girlfriend! what if she's dead by tomorrow?
billie: i'm grabbing my brother. that's it.
she looks at everyone and eli pulls me back as i try to grab her again
billie: take her home
madison: billie no! are you fucking crazy?!
i cry as elijah hugs me from the back
madison: you're gonna get hurt billie please!
she runs up the street and we all begin to walk home, which was about an hour away. i'm still crying so elijah leads me while isaac pats my back and danielle just walks with us, telling me calm positive things.
***
we get home i run up to my room and lock my door. a part of me was mad at billie for saying she would only grab her brother and come back, it showed she didn't care for claudia. yeah, i was scared for both of them, but claudia unlike finneas is a female and way more vulnerable. i cry myself to sleep.
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