February 10, 2019
6:30p.m
61st Annual Grammy Awards
It's here! The Grammys. I'm so nervous now. I'm on the red carpet. I pose in front of the cameras. I've never felt more pretty than I do now.
I'm wearing this long sparkly golden dress that has a not to the side with a slit. I have dangling diamond ear rings, my make up matches my dress, my heels are an off gold color, and finally my hair is slicked back in a high pony with some hair extensions to my hair thicker and longer.
A member for the Grammys tells me to move on. I see somebody wave and it's Guilianna from E! News.
I smile at her and gave her a quick hug.
"How are you? You look beautiful by the way." She says into the microphone.
She brings it to me so the people at home can hear me.
I give her a smile, "Thank you so much. You look great as well. I'm doing great. I brought my best friend here so I'm doing fantastic."
She smiles, "That's wonderful. It's here. You're first ever award performance. How are you feeling?"
"I feel awesome. I can't wait." I tell her truthfully.
She smiles. The interview was short. I continue down the line and I see Ryan Seacrest. I rush over and he sees me. He gives me a big smile.
I step onto the platform he was on. He helps me up and he gives me a hug. We pull apart and talks into the microphone.
"Keeley it's been too long. How are you?" He asks.
I smile, "It has been awhile. I'm doing just great. How are you?" I ask him.
"I'm great. I can't wait to see you perform." He tells me.
I smile, "Thank you. I can't wait for Post Malone." I tell him.
The interview was short. I told Ryan bye and continue onto the red carpet.
"Keeley!"
"Keeley!"
"Over here!"
Cameras were flashing everywhere around me and paparazzis calling my name. But I kept the smile on my face. I pose, as I walk on the red carpet. I'm a nervous wreck, now as I continue to think about it. I still can't believe this will be my first ever award performance. And the biggest names are here. From John Legend to H.E.R.
I wave at the cameras and walked off the red carpet. I sigh in relief of not being in front of the heavy lights anymore. I spot Felicia waiting for me. She looks up and gives me her biggest smile. She rushes over to me and wraps her arms around me, "Keeley, you look amazing." She eyes my golden sparkly dress.
I smile at her, "Thank you. But you look gorgeous." And she did. She was wearing this sequins navy blue body suit, with silver flats to show off her navy blue painted toes. Her make up matched her suit. Her hair was down in lose curls. Simple but cute.
We leave the back and make our way to our seats. As we're walking, I bump into somebody. I look up and it's him. The guy I have admired sine his debut since 2013. My body shuts down when he places his hand on my elbow.
"Are you okay?"
It felt like time stopped. I can't believe it's happened. I look into his deep brown eyes and just couldn't stop my heart beating so fast. I pray he doesn't hear it.
I finally snap out of it and pulled my elbow away from his touch.
I clear my throat, "Yeah. I'm fine. Thank you."
I grab Felicia's hand and pulled her with me so we can get to our seats. Half way there she pulls her hand from my grip.
"Keeley, slow down. Take a breather." She tells me.
I lean my hand against the nearest wall to get myself together. I didn't want to meet them like this. Not me being overwhelmed. But God wasn't on my side.
I fell a hand on my back. I peer over my shoulders and it's Felicia. She looks at me, "Better?"
I take in a deep breath and let it out. I stand up straighter and composed myself. I open my eyes and turned around. I look down at her and smile, "Better."
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I'm backstage getting ready for my performance. I told Felicia to stay in the audience. I try to shake the nerves. But I can't. BTS is right behind Felicia and I. So they're going to be right there in the front.
Right now, I'm getting my make up done. I'm wearing a black body suit with some shoulder pads that will glisten in the lights. I have a belt that wraps around that makes it look like a short skirt. I have fish net stockings on with black leg cover high heel boots. My hair is done into two Dutch braids.
My make up artist, Shelly, gets done. I tell her thank you and walked out of the dressing room. I grab my ear piece from a crew member and put it on as they gave me a microphone.
I have won two Grammys so far. Song of the Year and Best New Artist. I cried. It was like a dream come true for me. The stage manager tells me where to go. So I get underneath the and made my way to the lifting floor.
There waiting were two male members.
"Good luck." They tell me.
I look at both of them and gave them a smile, "Thank you."
I can't believe that THE Alicia Keys is going to introduce me.
"Here to perform for the first time ever at any award show. I introduce to you, Keeley Trahan." She announces.
I can hear the cheering and clapping. The floor lifts and I can always ready see the smoke. I bring the microphone to my lips as I stand up.
"Greedy!" I belt into the microphone.
The audience erupts into another cheer. I see Lizzo in the front already on her feet waiting for me to go all out. I put on my performance persuade.
"You know that I'm greedy for love." I sing.
And the music starts and my back up dancers enter the stage as I start to sing.
"Boy, you give me feelings never felt before. I'm making it obvious by knocking at your door. I know that I'm coming tonight. You know I'm coming tonight. Don't want to deny it anymore."
My back up singers get the little 'ah' in the back. I move my hips when the pre chorus comes.
"Been in this state of mind. Been in this state of mind. Been in this state of mind all night." I sing.
It goes silent for a quick second and I start to sing the chorus.
"Baby, you got lucky, 'cause you're rocking with the best. And I'm greedy. 'Cause I'm so greedy. 'Cause I'm so. I ain't talking money, I'm just physically obsessed. And I'm greedy." I danced around the stage.
As I look out everybody is on their feet singing along.
"I can't hear you Grammy!" I shout into the microphone.
The song comes to an end, "'Cause I'm so greedy. 'Cause I'm so greedy, ooh. You know that I'm greedy for love. You know that I'm greedy for love. 'Cause I'm so greedy, ooh. You know that I'm greedy for love. You know that I'm greedy for love.'Cause I'm so." I belt out.
The music stops and I hear is the crowd cheering. I look up with a smile plastered on my face. I look at the camera and gave it a wink. I look back at the audience. I give a bow and waved. The camera pans over to Alicia on the other side of the arena.
I quickly get off the stage and went backstage. I quickly get changed back into my gown and the fixed my hair back to what it was. I just kept on my performance make up. There was no point since I was similar to my original make up look. The crew member guides me back to my seat.
Felicia stands up and embraces me into a tight hug.
"You did so great. Jungkook couldn't keep his eyes off of you." She whispers the last part.
Heat rises to my cheeks as we pull away. We sat down and listen to bring us to break.
I sigh and then I felt a hand on my shoulder. I turn around and it was Namjoon. I smile at him.
"You were so great. I loved every second of it." He gushes.
I smile, "Thank you. When do y'all go on?" I ask.
He thinks, "I think we go on when the next few hosts announce Best Pop Solo Performance. But I think the next performance is Post Malone." He tells me.
I nod, "Well I can't wait. Y'all are going to kill it up there with Lil Nas X and Billy Ray." I tell him.
He gives me a head bow, "Thank you."
I glanced over and Yoongi is looking straight at Felicia. I bump her arm and she looks at me.
I lean over and whisper into her ear, "Don't look but Yoongi is looking at you."
Her eyes widen but she doesn't turn around. But from the lights I can see a blush forming on her brown cheeks. I couldn't help but cackle at her. She pinches my thigh.
"Ow. What was that for?" I ask holding a smile as I rub the pain away.
"For teasing me." She says so child like.
My slim fingers made their way to her chubby cheeks, "But I love you."
She smacks my hand away, "Yeah. I know."
I take her hand into mine and intertwine our fingers. A smile creeps up onto her face. We focus back onto the show.
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I won another Grammy. Album of the Year. Three Grammys so for. I get back into my seat. Now it's Post Malone's performance. He's singing his latest single 'Circles'. It's my absolute favorite.
As Alicia introduces Post I get giddy. I've always wanted to see him perform. And now I have my chance.
"Here to perform 'Circles' it's Post Malone!" Alicia announces.
I cheer and clap along side with everyone else. All lights are on him and his music starts to play.
He starts to sing into the microphone, "We couldn't turn around.'Til we were upside down. I'll be the bad guy now. But no, I ain't too proud. I couldn't be there. Even when I try. You don't believe it. We do this every time." He sings.
Then next all you hear is the crowd sing the chorus, "Seasons change and our love went cold. Feed the flame 'cause we can't let go. Run away, but we're running in circles. Run away, run away. I dare you to do something. I'm waiting on you again. So I don't take the blame. Run away, but we're running in circles. Run away, run away, run away."
He continues onto the song. I'm so in awe of his voice. I look at Felicia and she's vibing as she sways side to side with her hands. I smile and copy her movements. She looks over at me as she sings along with Post.
His song comes to an end and Felicia and I were quick to our feet.
"Wooo!" We cheer, clapping for him.
Post smiles and takes a bow. He waves at the camera and it pans over to Alicia as she takes us onto another break. I hear shuffling behind me and I turn around. BTS stands up and walk out on to the isle. I catch Yoongi looking at Felicia again when he walks pass her.
"Good luck." I tell them.
"Thank you." They say together as they walk off.
-
I won two more Grammys. I couldn't even believe it. Record of the Year and Best Pop Solo Performance. It's been one hell of a night.
Finally, Lil Nas X is on stage. He starts off his song to 'Old Town Road'. Felicia and I stand up and start dancing and singing. Then he walks through a door and there was BTS. I just stop. They look so good. Namjoon starts to rap and they all join to harmonize.
The stage turns and now Nas is with the little boy who yodeles. The little boy sings and my body starts to move again to the beat. Stage moves and now ever thing is silent besides the little music in the back.
We cheer when we see Billy Ray walk over to his microphone. Billy Ray sings his part. The crowd goes wild. When he gets done everybody is on stage singing along side Nas and Billy Ray. The song comes to an end and the crowd erupts in cheers.
Nas, Billy Ray, and the little waves at the camera, as BTS throw finger hearts. Once the camera pans they get off of stage. BTS were the first ones off. Felicia and I sat back down into our seats.
Moments later, BTS start to make their way back to their seats. I worked up enough courage and got up. Namjoon sees me and walks faster towards me.
I couldn't help but smile. I give him a quick hug, "You guys were so good. So so so good." I say, as they huddled around me. I catch Yoongi, once again, glancing over at Felicia. Just talk to her! I scream in my head.
I give them all quick hugs. I had to compose myself when I hugged Jungkook. They took their seats and I took mine.
-
The Grammys come to an end and we all migrated backstage. As Felicia and I are talking, I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turn around and my eyes widen.
"Lizzo!" I exclaimed as I brought her into a hug.
She laughs, "Hey pretty lady." She says.
We pull away and she gives Felicia a hug.
"Oh, it's nice to see you two again." She tells us.
She looks over at Felicia, "You ma'am look incredible."
A blush forms on her cheeks, "Thank you."
She looks back at me, "So the after party is at my crib. You remember where it's at?" She asks.
I nod, "Of course."
She smiles and brought me close to her. She brings her lips to my ear, "I'll make sure Jungkook is there." She whispers.
My eyes widen. I look up at her, "How do you know?" I whisper to her.
She smiles, "Don't worry. James and Jimmy didn't say anything. I just put two and two together."
I raise an eyebrow, "How?"
"You were so nervous to meet BTS. So I had to think. RM, Jin, SUGA, Jimin, JHope, and V are all too old for you. So it had to be Jungkook. He's cute, the right age, and in all honesty, you two would look great together." She tell me.
That warmed my heart. But I know in my heart we'll never be a thing. Maybe friends but nothing more. He's so shy around girls so I know for sure he wouldn't make a move.
Lizzo pats my shoulders and look at me, "Go and get ready. Make sure to look fine. And you too Felicia. I noticed SUGA looking at you."
Felicia's eyes went wide as her cheeks turned pink, "So you weren't joking." She looks at me.
I shake my head, "Nope. I wasn't. And I've caught him a few times staring at you."
A small smile forms on her lips, "Really?"
I nod, "Yup."
Lizzo literally rushed us out so we can go get ready for her after party. But before we left, Felicia helped me carry my Grammys. As always we had to stop to take pictures. Felicia helped me place my Grammys in my arms. She takes two and I carry the three to the vehicle.
We get in and we both huffed.
"Some night." She breathes out.
I smile as I look over at her, "Yeah. If Lizzo manages to get BTS there I'm going to avoid Jungkook."
Felicia nods as she stares at the ceiling of the SUV, "Same here with Yoongi. I don't want to know why he was staring at me the entire night." She tells me.
I shake my head, "Felicia, you really don't see what we see, huh?" I ask her.
She looks over at me and sit up her head. She raises a brow, "What do you see, Keeley?"
I smile, "Beauty. Within and without. Felicia, I can't fathom how beautiful you really are. From your hair, your body, and your brown skin. You're truly beautiful."
She smiles, "Thank you. But that still doesn't answer why Yoongi was looking at me the entire night."
I shrug and put on a sly smile, "Maybe he likes what he sees." I say, bumping her shoulder and wiggling my eyebrows.
She snorts, "Yeah, okay. I'll believe when pigs fly."
I shake my head as the driver pulls up to my house. I lean forward, "Hey, Marcus, don't leave, okay? I'm going to send you Lizzo's address and you'll be dropping us off there when we get done changing."
He looks at me, "You two got 45 minutes. I'm tired."
I smile at him as I pat his shoulder, "Thank you!"
We rushed out the vehicle and I send him the address. We put up my awards and rushed to our rooms. This is going to be a long night.