She glanced outside through the window of the car...her forehead's creasing as she bit on her inner cheeks... she shifted her gaze away from the window... looking down on her lap, watching her hands gripping on the fabric of her dress... she then sighed, which earned a worried look from the old driver she's with...
The car has been parked in front of her campus for a while now... keeping herself in silence since she left the mansion raised curiosity to her driver... the old man watched her through the rear-view mirror...would put a slight smile on his face whenever he would see his young miss pout then sigh...
Seeing them together last night was like an answer to their prayers... finally a time seeing them not arguing and finally seeing his young master giving such affection towards his wife... just by observing them these past few days, seeing a vast change from his young master, he knew by then that something's forming between the two... such a pity for they're both holding back... may it because they are both oblivious to it... but a big part was because one of them is still compelled with his past... he may look unfair for not feeling sorry for Tzuyu, but seeing Rosé and Jungkook happy and especially being together just like last night... may the heavens punish him for wishing that Tzuyu would just let the two and find herself another man that would love her more than Jungkook did.
"Miss... aren't you going to your class yet...? You might get late on your first period..."
Rosé looked up to him... anxiousness written all over her face that made the old man got more curious about what's holding her back to go to her class...
Rosé let out a faint smile as her gaze dropped once again and bit on her bottom lip...
'You didn't do anything wrong... so why are you this afraid, Rosé...?'
She asked herself... only to sigh on her own thoughts...
'Will he really be there...?'
Her sad gaze landed on the window once again, watching the students passing by her car... thinking about what her husband told her yesterday...
And as if Mr. Lee heard her thoughts... finally getting the situation, a warm smile crept on the old man's lips...
"The young master even called me a while ago... telling me to drop you off to school early so you won't be late... he said he'll just see you there..."
The old man simply said not looking at her through the mirror... that made Rosé looked up, with clear hope and joy in her eyes... before her gaze shifted to the side and finally, a smile crept on her lips... the old man peeked on her and it warmed his heart to see the change in her mood... he then shook his head with a smile on his face and headed out to open the door for her...
'Kids these days, really... making simple things so complicated than they should be...'
He thought as he guided her out of the car...
Rosé then flashed him her warmest smile and startled the old man when Rosé suddenly hugged him tight.
"Thank you Mr. Lee..."
She whispered before she let go of the old man... Mr. Lee nodded and reached for her head and gently tapped it like a father to his daughter...
"You shouldn't worry too much about things... it would make you grow old fast..."
He teased, which earned a light chuckle from Rosé... "Arasso... I better go now Mr. Lee..."
She then started with her tracks, waving goodbye to the old man...
A smile was still plastered on her face... thinking Jungkook would probably just around her campus by this time... looking forward to see even a glimpse of him... but then as she neared her building, she then started to feel the scrutinizing gazes of the students around her...
That made her slowed on her tracks... felt heavy as she took each steps... her smile slowly faltered, meeting the gaze of the students, started to hear them whisper to each other... she almost just wanted herself to be swallowed by the concrete ground she's walking at... as shame slowly crept up to her...albeit the fact that she
shouldn't feel even a tinge of it... all she wanted was to be kept away from that place.
'Running away is like also telling them that you're guilty of something'
Just then, 'his' words rang inside her mind... giving her enough strength to push herself up from being swallowed by her own fear.
With that, she straightened herself up... peeling off her gaze from the students around her and instead, just stare ahead and continued with her tracks... playing deaf from hearing insults that the students throw at her... not caring about the piercing gazes from them... for they don't anything for her to care about they think...
They don't know how much pain she had been through to get to her place now... they don't know how much tears she had shed just to gather that strength she has her now... and they don't know how much happiness she had given up just to stay beside her husband, going through any consequences that their vows to each other brings her... and they don't even have the slightest knowledge how painful it is to love someone who would never love you back...
Those insults... those bad thoughts they have for her were nothing as to what she had been through... and certainly they wouldn't know... for they're too caught up being blind and deaf... busying themselves to pull someone that they don't even know down...
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Finally arriving in front of their classroom, she sighed in relief... giving herself a credit passing through a 'battle' awhile ago... but delaying her celebration for as soon as she entered her classroom... another 'battle' had been waiting for her after all...
She could only sigh... gathering herself tighter, keeping her head up as she quietly went to her seat...
'Good thing I'm not yet late...'
Smiling to herself, distracting herself with her thoughts... finding that their professor wasn't there yet...
She looked around, searching for her friend and wondered as to why he wasn't
there yet... only for her thoughts to be answered when she heard the door of their classroom opened, as an expressionless Taehyung entered the room...
His gaze was set to the side... as if listening to the talks of their classmates... his face was cold... not until he heard 'her' name being mentioned by one of their classmates... that's when his gaze landed on her direction...
The expression on Taehyung's face instantly changed upon seeing her... a clear surprise was in his eyes apart from the other unreadable expressions on his face...their eyes locked for a moment... until Rosé broke out a smile...
And as if he didn't want to blink his eyes, he kept his gaze on hers... started with his tracks going towards her... making Rosé a bit conscious with his stares she could only smile at him...
Her eyes then wandered around, with him standing in front of her and looking down at her... hearing the silence that suddenly filled the room, she saw their classmates looking at them... her gaze then snapped back at him when she heard him speak...
"You're here..."
It came out from him almost like a whisper... saying those words with mixed disbelief from his voice... his gaze finally softened but still wearing that bland expression... Rosé pursed her lips in wonder before it curved out into a smile again.
"Yes I am..."
Thinking it was just one of those 'odd Taehyung' moments, she just ride on to his antics...
After a while, he finally looked away from her and it startled Rosé when Taehyung suddenly smiled... she raised a brow, about to ask him what's wrong but got stopped when their professor entered the room.
She watched him as he silently went to his seat beside her... now facing ahead as if nothing just happened... she shook her head... thinking, she will never understand her weird friend...
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"Taehyung-sshi..."
They were seated under the tree... as if it became a habit of them to spend their lunch time together in that place... Taehyung had never said a word after the incident earlier in their classroom... and until now he would just keep quiet, even has his earphones, with his eyes closed listening to some music...
Rosé pouted upon not getting any response from him... even though Taehyung never left her side, she still felt like he was not there for he won't even talk to her... he would just nod at her words and would just look at her.
She pushed herself forward, enough to see his face... quite annoyed for the lack of attention from her friend... she pulled his arm and waved it a bit...
Taehyung opened his eyes, welcomed by a pouting look from her... he raised a brow questioningly which made Rosé's eyes formed into tiny slits.
She then pointed on her ears telling him about his earphones... he lazily obliged to her pulling the earphones from his ears and again looked at her with a raised brow.
Ignoring the wondering look from him, Rosé's pouted lips finally curved out into a contented smile...
"What do you want...?"
He asked her in a flat tone... earning another pout from her lips in disappointment...
Taehyung almost forgot himself with that smile, moreover with that another pout... almost pulled her to him and just crash his lips on her pink ones... so much for his self-control, he managed to just stare at her... her, acting like a child always makes him weak... wondering if she too does it in front of Jungkook... breaks his heart knowing that other guys are openly able to see what he sees in her... if only she's his...
"You wouldn't talk to me... is there something wrong...? Did I do something wrong...?"
Then suddenly, her eyes widen upon remembering something... Taehyung's brows furrowed... what is she thinking of now...? He thought...
"Omo..! The painting... your painting...!"
She yelled in realization... even slightly jumped from being seated...
His expression then calmed... saw her hand landed on his stretched leg... he smiled and just looked away...
"I'm so sorry...! But I'm sure you were able to find yourself a new model right..?
Aigoo... I'm really sorry..."
He bit his inner cheeks, suppressing himself from laughing at her apologetic tone... doesn't even want to look at her face for he knows it would be worse...
How could she be that concerned about other people...? Of course he knew why she wasn't able to come... he even almost beat 'her' husband that day... and almost scared the hell out of Tzuyu yesterday because of his anger...
Blaming himself for not looking out for 'her'... leaving her that day just to be harshly scrutinized by the people who knows nothing but to pry on somebody else's business...
And now, she's even concerned about 'his painting'...? The least thing she could worry about yet now, asking for an apology from him...
He almost laugh... how could this woman be so oblivious, insensitive yet could make him fall for her deeper as each days pass...? Her innocence that had dangerously owned his heart... is making him weak for her... making him wants her...
He then looked back at her... finally let out a chuckle upon seeing the despair on her face... oh how much he just wanted to reach for it and caress it in his hand... she's such a temptation... such a test to his self-control...
"I wasn't able to make it..." and that made Rosé's eyes widen even more... "What..?! Why...?! But how about your project...? You'll fail it Taehyung-ah..." She
said in full worry... gripping on his leg tighter...
"I won't paint it... as long as it's not you..."
His stern voice brought shivers down her spine, especially the look on his eyes that made her gasped and out of her words... for a while, they looked at each other... her words were now simply stuck in her throat, unable to speak, she just shyly looked away.
Taehyung sighed, before reaching for his earphones again and put it in his ears as
he comfortably leaned back on the tree behind him and closed his eyes... Rosé then snapped her gaze back to Taehyung brushing off the awkwardness brought by his statement awhile ago...
"Yah... then you'll fail your subject... you might blame me for it... aigoo... Taehyung-ah..."
She playfully slapped his leg, not really believing his words earlier... he opened his eyes and easily caught one of her hand which made her startle a bit and looked up to him...
He squeezed her hand... caressed the back of it with his thumb... she just playfully chuckled acting like a child once again... taking advantage of her obliviousness, he tried memorizing how soft her hand is... for it maybe his first and last time to hold it...
And it was just heaven...and would be great... if only he could hold her hand forever...
Still holding her hand, he placed it beside him... sometimes, he gives credit to that innocence she has... for times like this... he's able to use that to stole at least little moment to own her as his...
"You're too loud... I want to sleep..."
He said to her who just finished from chuckling... holding her hand tighter as if he doesn't have any plans to let go of it...
She just pouted at him again and stuck out her tongue... Taehyung just closed his eyes shut... holding on to the last thread of self-control he has in himself... feeling her warmth in his hand... she's making him crazier...
After a while, he felt her stilled... not hearing her voice beside the soft music he's listening at... he opened his eyes... only to see the side of her face as she looked ahead... he was still holding her hand... almost smiled to himself not until he noticed where she's looking at...
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She was watching Taehyung sleeps... had her eyes into tiny slits again for her friend keeps on ignoring... she sighed and as she turned her gaze to the side... she then caught Jungkook looking at her, slightly far from where they are...
Just then, she felt everything instantly stopped... her gaze softened and felt her heart suddenly raced as she watched him got closer to where she is... he then stopped as he talked to someone... saw him looking at her while talking to that person...remembering his voice from last night... remembering how close she heard that voice... she missed him already... even though just yesterday they were together almost the whole day... she just missed him...
Seemed that each day that passed she becomes more and more obsessive of him... wanting to see him... wanting to hear him each and every while...
And even though it was still a bit far, it never escaped her eyes to see his smile at her once he finished talking with that person... her mouth half opened... wanted to pant for her heart wont stop from beating so loud that it makes her feel tired...
'It's just Jungkook Rosé... why you being like this...?'
Scolding herself for acting like a love sick... and towards her own husband... But before he could even reach enough distance to clearly see each other... his
lover came from his behind... hugging him from the back...
She saw Jungkook's surprised face...who quickly turned around to meet his lover... Just then, she felt her heart faintly dropped its hard beats... watching the two
from afar... watching the man she loves in the arms of another woman again...
She should get used to it... having her heart rejoiced then die at the same time... she should get used to seeing such view if she wanted to see him... and she should endure each pain that would be inflicted to her whenever she would see him pour out his affections towards the woman he truly loves...
She blinked her eyes in despair... unaware of the tears that's been forming in it... she continuously watched the two... couldn't take her eyes off... showing herself the reality... that she just making a fool out of herself with that unrequited feeling she has for Jungkook...
A gasped escaped her lips upon seeing Jungkook looked over his shoulder to see her only for Tzuyu to wrap her arms around Jungkook's neck... making him face her before pulling him down for a kiss...
Her heart was ready to take another pain... she was ready to carry out the shame for herself but it was all brushed away when something landed on both of her ears...
music started to play inside her head her body being pulled up to stand... and the next thing she felt was a hard and warmth feeling against her cheek...
I'll sing it one last time for you Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right In all I've done
Arms that securely wrapped around her head... as if blocking her view from something that she really don't want to see...
And I can barely look at you But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere Away from here
She was stilled for a while... unable to comprehend what's happening... as the music continued to play against her ears... that's when... a tear escaped the side of her eye...
Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice I'll be right beside you dear Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say
She buried her face on Taehyung's chest... drowning herself in the music...until now... even she was able to see 'him'... even he already told her himself that 'he'll be there'... still the heartaches for her heart will never vanish... for as long as 'he's' the one her heart yells for... she would always feel the same pain over and over again... for Jeon Jungkook is her love... and as well as her heartache...