I sat up in bed immediately and analyzed my surroundings to make sure that I am in my room not in.. no no I don't want to think about it right now. I covered my face with both hands and tried to calm down. My heart was racing at an unimaginable pace and an unknown sensation spread through out my body. I shooed away all the thoughts away from my mind and made my way to the bathroom. After showering I wore some normal clothes and went down to greet my lovely parents.
" Hey mom, good morning " I kissed mom's cheek while entering kitchen. She was stunned at first but relaxed after she realized it was me.
" Good morning Jass. And what's the matter today? You never wake up early during weekends then why you woke up this early today? " she asked raising her brows. I sat at one of the kitchen stools and shook my head.
" Um.. nothing mom. I was just awake and thought of talking to you rather than wasting my time in bed " I shrugged not meeting her eyes. Mom is very observant whenever I was not in a good mood she would guess right away and I still don't understand how she does that.
" Are you sure? I mean if it is nothing then fine but if there is something you can always tell me " she said with a small smile. I want to share about my dream with her but I felt it unnecessary coz its just a dream and I don't want to fret over it.
" Don't forget dear I am also there for you and I love you more than your mom of course " dad said even before I can reply. He came and sat on other stool watching mon who had a frown on her face for dad's statement. I want to laugh at there silly banter coz I know they both love me equally but I stifled a laugh and said.
" It's nothing actually and you both remember that I love you both equally and more than anything and anyone " I said with a small smile .This made both of them smile widely at me. Eventually mom finished making breakfast and set up the table with dad's help.
We all were having breakfast and my phone buzzed on the table. I picked it up ignoring the comments both mom and dad were making towards each other and read the message from Rian.
Hey Jass. Hope u r enjoying ur weekend. Thought of meeting u today but I have other plans. Will surely meet up next weekend.
I smiled but the meeting with him last time made me flustered again. I was again cut off from my clogged thoughts by dad.
" Jass are you coming with us to Jason's place? " dad asked me referring to his friend who is a street away from ours.
I shook my head, " No dad, actually I forgot to tell you that I am going to Wills place to discuss about our project. I am sorry I will come with you next time " I said with a sad look.
" Don't say sorry dear. And you go to Wills place while we go to Jason's. However, I hate his son he will always look at you whenever we go there and I don't feel comfortable with his gaze. I hope you get a boyfriend soon so that he will stop with the gazing and grow up a little " he said while scrunching his nose. Mom chuckled beside him and I was embarrassed. How could dad be so blunt with his words. Eww my family is weird. Nonetheless I nodded and made my way to my room avoiding any awkward drama.
I changed my dress and after bidding bye to mom and dad made my way to my baby. I took it out and started my journey towards Wills place. It is not that far from here. It took nearly thirty minutes to reach on my bicycle while it would take just fifteen minutes by car. I parked my bicycle outside and rang the doorbell. There was no response so I ranged again and again. After sometime a very annoyed Wills opened the door who was wearing a t-shirt and a track pant. His hair was wet with a towel around his neck. I smiled at him adoringly while he glared at me.
" I told not to come right? Don't you understand " he glared while I rolled my eyes and pushed him aside and entered his home without his permission. I heard a groan from him but I ignored him.
" Well good morning to you too mister grumpy. And what a lovely way to welcome your friend into your home " I said fake glaring at him. I heard him sighing heavily before he entered into kitchen. Now I will get a coffee from him.
" I never thought you will harass me in my own house like this " Wills said handing me the coffee mug and I plopped on the couch. He sat beside me with his own and stared outside the window.
" You don't call it harassment. You can call it cuteness you know " I said and he turned towards me. I winked at him and he glared at me.
" Who said it is cuteness? Just barging into someone's home without their concern and acting like it belongs to you is purely harassment " he said and I rolled my eyes at his childish behavior.
" Look I am not barging into someone's home I am coming to my friend Wills home and I still prefer cuteness " I replied with a pout and he looked away. Wills has this weird attitude whenever I come to his place. He acts very dreamy as if he was thinking too much and I was evading his personal space. I asked him many times to come to my home but he denied and I didn't ask him more.
" Whatever. Shall we utilize our time productively now? " he asked raising his brow and I shrugged nonchalantly.
After we finished our coffee he entered into his room and I followed him. After number of arguments and banters we decided what to do and what not to. He closed his laptop and lied on his bed and looked at his bedside photo frame. I observed him and I saw longing in his eyes.
Why was he looking at that frame like that?
Is that person very close to him?
" Um.. Wills can I ask you something? " I asked out of nowhere and he just hummed in response. I don't know how to ask him but I thought it would be better if I bluntly ask him rather than being silent.
" Is the person in the photo not in contact with you? " I asked and he turned towards me immediately and I saw pain flash through his eyes. He was about to say something but stopped himself shaking his head and made his way towards kitchen. I was dumb-founded with his action.
" What do you like to have for lunch Jassy? " he asked going through the kitchen cabinets ignoring me. Here I was waiting for the answer and he is clearly avoiding me.
" Wills I asked you something and you seem to be interested in cooking for me when you were not happy for my arrival in the morning " I asked with a raised eyebrow. He just closed the cabinet he was going through and sighed folding his hands.
" Fine I will cook something which I please to. I was just pissed off with your text last night but I am seriously happy that you came here " he said and I saw his lips tugged upwards when he said he is happy to have me here today.
" Huh? Seriously happy? But that doesn't answer my previous question. Are you not in contact with him or you don't want to share with me? " I asked again to which he turned the other way and started taking things out of the fridge. I don't understand what is his problem to share with me. Although I was not happy, I shrugged and stood beside him while he prepared for cooking.
We both ended up doing some sandwiches and some fruit juice. It is very little but we preferred eating less so that we can have ice cream. After cooking we set up the table and it was almost lunch time so we digged in without hesitation. I took the first bite and I was happy that it tasted very delicious and Wills was also had a satisfied grin on his face. After lunch we even had ice cream that too my favorite flavor😉
We sat in his living room couch watching a movie which I may add was very boring and it is draining energy unnecessarily. I looked at Wills who seemed occupied in his own thoughts. I switched off the movie and I found that he was still not back to earth. I shook his shoulder then he snapped from his whatever world he was in.
" May I know which world you were in so that I could accompany you? " I asked with my best innocent face.
" No thanks. I am fine " he said without even looking at me. I was exhausted with him and his comebacks now. It has been a while since I found that he is being distant but he never guarded his walls down. I don't want to push him further to tell me so I just let him be his way. I took my phone and started looking through my social media accounts when I heard him say something for which I didn't had an answer or rather I don't want to tell him.
" Why don't you befriend with girls? I mean Iya is a girl but still I suppose you could have not been her friend if she was not Joe's friend. Why is that? " he asked now looking at me and I tried my best to act normal. I didn't know that Wills had observed this and even if he had observed I didn't know he will question me.
" Its nothing serious Wills. I just don't get along them. That's it " I said looking into his eyes but I could tell he didn't believe me. I tried my best to keep a straight face but abruptly failed due to his scrutinizing gaze. I looked at my discarded phone and exhaled audibly.
" I don't think that is the only reason but there is something more which you are probably trying to hide from me. Right Jassy? " he said accusingly and I lowered my eyes not able to look into his eyes.
" No problem. Don't tell anything just coz I am asking, tell when you feel like to " he said encouragingly and I saw him smile softly when I looked at him.
Even Rian used to say the same whenever I hid something from him but somehow, I used to share with him everything. I don't know these past few days have been stressful for me with constant thinking and confusing myself. I don't know why is everything happening with me is confusing me more. Rian's words still echoed in my mind like a chant and I am not able to know the real meaning behind his words. If only god could have given me the power to read one's feelings it could have been much easier and less confusing. I could have been sane and peaceful. I rubbed my forehead with my fingers due to the slight headache forming there and I forgot completely about Wills who was looking at me with concern.
" Is everything alright Jassy? You seem.. stressed? " it came out like a question rather than a statement. I shook my head and looked at him who was looking at me keenly.
" Who is that boy beside you in that photo and are you still in contact with him? " I diverted the topic from me coz I felt this is the only way to get out of this situation. He was frustrated now I could see from his facial expressions and I caught his wrist before he could go back to wherever he had planned to go.
" He is my childhood friend Jassy and I sorta...." He stopped mid-sentence. He rubbed his face with both his hands and passed his hands in his hair. He does this very rarely and if does this it means he is very frustrated. I patiently waited for him to compose himself. He was again lost in his thoughts and I placed my hand on his hand to remind him.
" What's wrong Wills? You are worrying me " I said in urgency when he was staring at me without giving an answer. He took a deep breath before replying and his reply made me shocked no paralyzed or confused maybe?
" I sorta love him and I am not in contact with him..." he was blabbering something after that and I was stuck with the only word love him. Wills loves him. My thoughts were jumbled and I can keep the jumbled pieces together now. He sitting alone in the class when I first saw him. Him being almost alone all the time. Embarrassed when I said we were dating and finally looking at the boy dreamily all the time.
" Wills are you into boys? " I asked while he was still blabbering something and he looked at me with shock. I never saw Wills with this expression and for some unknown reason I was amused.
" Is that what you got from all the explanation I gave you? " he said and face palmed himself and I squealed and hugged him tightly. He was stiff for sometime but reciprocated after sometime.
" I am not saying I am into boys Jassy. I just had feelings for him during childhood and I didn't forget them or burry them even though after all these years " he said and I looked at him with a broad smile coz he was coming out in front of me and I felt proud to be the one.
" And you love him after all these years " I said and Wills became red due to embarrassment? Oh my god he is blushing. I never knew that he would be able to blush this hard and seeing him all red made me giggle.
" Hey I didn't yet confirm myself that I am.. gay. So please let me think about it and be more sure and don't share this with anyone you know it is... " he was lost of words and I hugged him yet another time.
" Don't worry buddy your secret is safe with me " I said with a wink and he turned into tomato. I awed at him and pinched his cheek.
After that he was comfortable with me and didn't throw any tantrums or comebacks in fact, he became carefree. And I was grateful that he told me his biggest secret and I smiled like a kid who got chocolate for nothing. I got a call from dad asking me to come home coz they are missing me and I too literally missed them.
I took leave from his home promising him that I will not tell anyone about it. On my way back to home I thanked heavens coz I thought Wills would compel me to tell the truth and I would have spilled the beans.
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