CHAPTER 24
SUMMER'S POV
May mali...may mali..bakit nandito na naman ako? Akala ko tapos na..akala ko hindi ko na makikita ulit to. Ice should be here with me..I know he's protecting me..
pero bakit ako nandito ulit?
Napasinghap ako..nagpalingon-lingon ako ng mag-iba na naman yung nasa paligid. I saw the child beside me..and when I blink..she's gone and I'm wearing the same clothes I wore when I was eight years old.
no..no..
not again.
Umupo ako at tinakpan ko yung mga mata ko. I dont want to see..pare-pareho lang..pare-pareho lang ang nakikita ko..I dont want to see it anymore..
I want it to stop.
I open my eyes again..That's when I saw him...naglalakad siya papunta kay Ice..no..no..he cant hurt him..daddy help us. He's unconcious..and we cant fight him...how can we fight him?
I automatically stand up..but I dont want to..I know what will happen...and I dont want to see it again. But i cant stop myself..I dont have control with my memories..
I cant change it.
And at the next moment..I'm holding something as I walk closer to the man. May nakita ako...a huge scar on his cheek..malapit sa may tenga niya..pababa sa batok niya..
Napahinto ako ng tumingin siya sakin. I want to run away..his eyes are scaring me..but I cant see everything..its like my memory wont let me see everything clearly..
"I dont need to kill you..But i will kill him...they think I will change..but I will never change. I need to kill...I need to kill. Inilagay nila ako sa kulungan..but nothing changed. I need to kill..and I need a pattern."
"H-Hindi...wag mo pong sasaktan si Ice..hindi pwede."
tumawawa siya...daddy I'm scared..help me daddy. Daddy help me...help Ice. He's scary...I'm scared..I dont know what to do...he cant hurt Ice.
"I will never change..Mawawala sa kaniya lahat...lahat-lahat..then I'll have her for myself."
Nakalapit na siya ng todo sakin..daddy..daddy-
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...
Tumumba siya sa sahig..blood..blood..my hands..there's blood..blood..
help..
help..
"Daddy...daddy I killed him...daddy.."
"SUMMER!"
Hindi ako makahinga..nag palingon-lingon ako at naramdaman kong may naglagay ng mask sakin. Umayos yung paghinga ako..and I tried to focus..
I dont want to go back there again.
"I-Ice..why did you leave me?"
Naramdaman kong niyakap ako ni Ice..nandito kami sa kwarto namin. Siguro..siguro kaya lumabas ulit yon dahil iniwan niya ko..okay naman ako kanina..pero..pero..umalis siya.
"Kumuha lang ako ng tubig..I'm sorry, I wont leave you again. I'm sorry baby."-ice
Yakap-yakap niya ako habang patuloy lang ako sa pag-iyak. Hindi ko alam..hindi ko alam kung gano katagal niya akong matitiis. Eventually..he'll get tired of me.
"You know..alam ko yang iniisip mo. Hindi kita iiwan..that would be next to impossible. Telling me that you dont love me wont even make me stay away from you. Dahil kung sasabihin mo na hindi mo na ako mahal..hindi parin ako aalis dahil diba sabi ko sayo..kailangan maging masaya ka muna sa lalaking mamahalin mo?."
"Ice..."
"I'll do anything for you..to protect you. Hindi kita iiwan.You can alwayas cry on my shoulder. I dont want to see you like this..its killing me. But if there's no way na mawala ang mga memories mo na nananakit sayo..then I'll still stay with you..I'll suffer with you."
Unti-unting tumigil ang mga luha ko..nawawala na din yung takot. Maybe this is what I need..I need Ice. Kung iiwan niya ako..hindi ko kakayanin..
I need to be selfish and keep him with me. Kahit na alam kong hindi siya dapat madamay sa kung ano ang gumugulo sakin...I still want him with me..I dont want him to leave me because I cant take it.
"Ice.."
"Hmm?"
"I love you..dont leave me."
"I wont."
Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit..binuhat niya ako pabalik sa kama. Thats when I realized na nasa gitna pala ako ng kwarto namin at basag na lahat ng gamit.
"What happened?"-me
"Alter ego mode."
Napalunok ako..what if natutulog si Ice?..pano kung nasaktan ko siya? There's a frightened look at my eyes ng tumingin ako kay ice but he just smiled at me tenderly.
"Nothing will happen to me. You wouldnt allow it..ilang beses na ba na ako ang nandon ng mag alter ego mode ka? Lot of times right?"
tama siya..
Siya lang yung nakakapagpakalma sakin..maybe dahil may koneksyon siya kung bakit nagkaroon ako ng ganong alter ego. Or maybe..he's so important to me that I cant bear to hurt him.
"Anong oras na?"-me
"Alas dos ng madaling araw."
Tumango ako..I dont want to sleep. Gusto kong lumabas..do something na makakaalis nung mga iniisip ko. Ayokong bumalik sa ganon..napapadalas na..and I want it to stop.
"Gusto mong lumabas?"-ice
"Kailan ka pa naging mind reader?"
Ngumiti lang siya at hinawakan ang kamay ko. Tinulungan niya akong tumayo at lumapit siya sa closet at may kinuha. Bumalik siya sa tabi ko at sinuotan ako ng jacket.
Kumuha din siya ng jacket at sinuot bago niya ako inalalayan palabas ng kwarto. As expected walang tao sa labas..maliban siguro sa mga nasa control room.
Salit-salitan kasi ang mga nasa control room..depende kung sinong available. Well..puro monitor ang nasa control room..like Kuya Rain's lab. Ginagamit lang naman ngayon ang control room kapag wala si Kuya sa lab.
"Ice cream."-me
"Okay, lets get some Ice cream.'
Ngumiti si Ice at makahawak kamay na pumunta kami sa dining hall. Madilim pa don at hindi na namin binuksan. Napangiti narin ako ng para kaming magnanakaw na dahan-dahan na naglalakad.
Nang makarating kami sa malaking freezer namili na kami ng flavor ng Ice Cream.
"I want that ube-"
"AHHHHHHHHHHHH!"-ice
Napatingin ako kay Ice ng bigla siyang sumigaw..may lalaking may ilaw sa muka. Tinitigan kong mabuti yung lalaki at napailing ako ng makita kong si Wynd lang pala yon.
"Alisin mo nga yan!"-ice
"Sabi ko nga.*laughs* Anong ginagawa niyo dito?"-wynd
"Eh ikaw anong ginagawa mo dito?"
Ngumisi si Wynd at iniangat yung pakete ng marshmallows na hawak niya. Para kaming ewan..hindi naman kami mapapagalitan kahit kumuha kami pero mas trip pa namin sa madilim maghanapan ng pagkain.
"Si autumn?"-me
"Nasa kwarto ayaw akong samahan. Natatakot nga ako dito ang dilim eh. Sige na alis na ako at baka hindi na ako papasukin ni Autumn."
Kinawayan niya kami at ako naman ay kinuha ko na yung Ice Cream cup at kinuhanan ko narin si Ice ng flavor na gusto niya. Umakbay sakin si Ice ng sinarado ko na yung freezer.
"Summer.."
"O?"
"I love you."
"Love you too. Now..pwedeng umalis na tayo kasi feeling ko i-sosofucate mo na ako sa pagkakaakbay mo. Takot ka lang ata na biglang lumabas si the grudge-"
Napatili ako ng bigla niya akong kinarga at itinakbo. Masyado kasing malakas ang imagination ni Ice kaya matatakutin..sanay narin ako especially ang daddy ko takot din sa multo.
sino bang hindi?
"W-Wala kayang mutlo sa BHO..kasi..kasi takot sila dahil may mga baril tayo."-ice
"Hindi sila tintablan ng bala."
"Damn, what will we do?"
Kahit na ang dami kong pinagdadaanan ngayon..hindi ko mapigilan na hindi matawa sa tanong niya. Parang takot na takot na hindi mo malaman.
"Ghost cant hurt anyone."-me
"Nananakot sila."
"Hindi din..maybe they're just around..spirits-"
Napatigil ako ng may maalala ako. Dead people cant talk..they cant touch us..hindi pwedeng bumalik ang patay..then who...who...sino yung tumawag sakin?..
he's alive..
he'll kill me...or he'll hurt Ice..no..no..Hindi pwede. Kailangan mahanap namin siya..hindi niya pwedeng saktan si Ice. Pero pano? pano namin siya mahahanap?
"Shh...baby..halika na."-ice
Hindi na niya ako binaba. Pumasok kami sa isang supply room at may kinuha siya. Lumabas kami ulit at dumiretso kami s apool area.
Ibinaba niya ako at inilatag niya yung blanket na kinuha niya sa supply room kanina at inaya akong umupo. Binuksan namin yung Ice Cream namin at nagsimula kaming kumain.
tahimik lang kaming kumakain..ilang beses na napapatingin sakin si Ice na parang tinitignan kung okay lang ako..ngumingiti lang ako kapag tumitingin siya sakin.
Nang matapos kaming kumain inilagay niya lang yon sa tabi at hinila niya ako papunta sa kaniya. Niyakapa niya ako ng mahigpit mula sa likod.
"I love you.."-me
"I love you more."
"Really? how can you be sure?"
Hindi siya sumagot pero naramdaman ko na niyakap niya pa ako ng mas mahipit. Yung isang kamay niya humahaplos sa buhok ko..I close my eyes...
I can stay like these forever....his arounds me..I'm contented to be right here. But its not possible..dahil in the end of the day. we still need to face everything in reality. there's no escaping reality cause it will always be there no matter how hard we try to run away from it.
"Kung..kung hindi mo ako niligtas..siguro hindi ka magkakaganito."
Napasinghap ako at pilit na kumakawala ako para tignan si Ice..his voice is full of pain..and its breaking my heart. Sinisisi niya yung sarili niya..
no..
"Its not your fault..wala ka naman alam eh..wala kang kasalanan."-me
"Pero kung umalis ka..kung iniwan mo ko. You wont have this nightmare..."
"Right..I wont have this scary memories. But I wont have you..and that's my greatest fear..my greatest nightmare. I would rather have all of this than to lose you. Kung mangyayari ulit yon..I'll do it again without any doubt."
"Is it worth it? am I worth it?"
"Yes. Sa tingin mo ba matatahimik ako kung nawala ka ng may magagawa naman ako? What world would I live if you're gone, Ice? I would be a total wreckage..I wont live a life..I wont feel real happiness."
"I just want you to stop hurting, summer..ayokong makitang nasasaktan ka."
"Then make it go away."-me
"I-I dont know how."
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"Make me forget...make me forget, Ice."
Kumawala ako sa pagkakayakap niya at humarap ako sa kaniya. I kissed him and I tangled my fingers through his hair..crushing myself to him..kissing him with so much passion that I can almos feel the fire around us licking our skin.
This is what I need.
I need him in every way.
"Summer.."
"I love you..help me...help me forget..make me.."
He groan then he rolled on top of me. I can hear the my thin cloth snapping beneath his fingers. He pulled it away from me and at the next second I can feel his mouth on me..trailing kisses everywhere..
I arch my back when he take my peak in his mouth..rolling his tongue on my sensitive breast..suckling..nipping. I gasp for air..I wriggled beneath him but he just pinned me down..restraing me from doing anything.
He look to me behind his lashes...tugging my peak between his teeth creating a tingling sensation down my spine that made me quivered with delight.
I want him..
"Ice.."
He graze his teeth on the hollow of my breast..down to my navel..licking..nipping on my skin. I bit my lower lip to stop myself screaming..I cant take the risk of anyone hearing us..
I bit my hand when he take me in his mouth. Circling his tongue on the lips of my femininity..licking his way up to my sensitive nub. He tugged on it and I almost explode but I tried to fight it..
I want to come with him.
He plunge his tongue inside me..probing my warm flesh with his tongue..making me want more..so much more. I felt his hand on my right leg..he hoist it up and place it on his shoulder..gving him more access to my sensitive part.
"S-Stop Ice..you're killing me.."
I felt his lips curve up into a smile..but he didnt stop. I bucked underneath him..I moan and writhed in pleasure..I grasp handful of his hair and crushed him to me..
more..
I want more.
He flicked his tongue continously..and I gasp when I felt his finger entered me..doing what his tongue is doing. Tears rolled down the side of my eyes..not because of anything...its just because of the intensity..
I groan and push him. He looked up to me..surprise. I trail my fingers on his chest...down his stomach..he tried to catch my hand but before he succeed...
I bend down
...
..
and take him in my mouth.
He muttered something under his breath and I cannot hide the satisfaction on my face. I rolled my tongue on him..circling around his thick shaft. He throw back his head and I smile...
I like seeing him losing control.
I bob my head up and down his length....taking all I can managae to take. He place his hand on my hair..trying to move me with him.
I clamp my mouth around him and he growled aloud and pulled me to him. He rolled on top of me again and before I can manage to breathe..
...
...
his inside me.
My lips parted and i wrapped my arms around him when he started moving inside me. Thrusting hard to me..I can feel him fully inside me.
"Faster..i want it fast."-me
He thrust faster inside me..and deeper. I throw my head back and I felt his mouth on my peak..tugging it harder than before. I gasp and I move with him. Wrapping my legs around him..
"Oh, God..I love you."-ice
I bit his shoulder when I felt my release..he continued pounding inside me until I felt him filling me. After a moment he collapsed on top of me..rolling me so i wont take his full weight.
"I love you too...thank you, Ice."-me
"Anything for you, baby."
Niyakap niya ako at yumakap din ako sa kaniya ng mahigpit. Unti-unti ng sumisilay yung liwanag sa mga ulap. Ilang minuto na lang I'm sure maliwanag na.
"We need to go."-me
"Right..I bet Rain would murder is kapag napanood niya ang surveillance."
Napangiti ako.
Bago ako makatayo hinila niya ako dahilan para bumagsak ako paupo sa kaniya. Yumakap siya sakin at naramdaman ko ang labi niya sa balikat ko.
"But you know what.."-ice
"What?"-me
"I dont care kung mapagalitan tayo. its definitely worth it."