Nicole's POV
We are here at Sean's family house to visit her sister Seah. "Seah!" tawag ni Sean sa kapatid malaki ang bahay nila kaya kailangan pang tawagin ng mga kasama nila sa bahay si Seah.
"Sir ayaw po talagang lumabas ni ma'am Seah." kausap sakanya ng isa sa mga kasambahay niya.
"Kanina pa po namin kinakatok sa kwarto pero ayaw parin po lumabas,"
"Tatlong araw na po siyang hindi lumalabas sa kwarto niya at hindi rin po siya kumakain."
"Tinawagan po namin si ma'am Magui pero hindi po namin macontact kaya kayo po ang tinawagan namin." she added. "Ang tito at tita niyo naman po tinawagan namin kagabi pero ang sabi ho hindi makauwi dahil masama ang panahon sa Japan pero susubukan daw po nila."
"I'll take care of her, thank you."-Sean
Naglakad kami paakyat sa second floor nila para puntahan ang kapatid niya.
"Seah, open the door, kuya is here." katok ni Sean sa kwarto ng kapatid.
"Seah, kuya is here, let me in." sinubukan pa ulit katukin ni Sean pero hindi sumasagot si Seah.
"Baby please, Kuya is worried,"
"Sean! you will open this door or I will break it?!" halata sa mukha ni Sean ang galit kaya hinawakan ko ang kamay niya at sinenyasan na ako nalang.
"Seah, ate Nicole is here, do you remember me? We used to shop together before." I said in a soft tone.
"Can you let me in? Ate will try to help you if you have a problem." I looked at Sean na sobrang worried na para sa kapatid niya.
Bumukas ng kaunti ang pinto at nakita naman yun ni Sean, akmang papasok na siya pero pinigilan ko siya.
"Love, let me talk to her."
"But lo--" I cut him off but he just look so worried that made me pity him so bad.
"She would be fine, don't worry." at hinaplos ko ang braso niya. He gave me a soft kiss before stepping back.
"Hi," nakangiti kong bati sakanya nang nakapasok ako at dahan dahang sinarado ang pinto.
She looks so tiny and stress, kalat din ang mga gamit niya sa buong kwarto. Nakaupo siya ngayon sa kama niya.
"How are you?" pauna kong tanong sakanya.
"Do you mind if I will seat beside you?" tanong ko pa sakanya dahan dahan naman siyang tumango ka kaya umupo ako sa tabi niya.
"You okay?" tanong ko sakanya pero nakayuko lang siya at halatang ayaw sagutin ang tanong ko.
"I'll share a secret to you," I said and I also saw how she looked at me obviously being curious about it.
"You can't tell anyone about this, okay?"
"Uh.... okay,"
"When I was in your age, I experienced something that I never expected to happen to me. I was really scared that time, I cried every single day because of it."
"How did you manage to overcome that fear?" she asked with desperate eyes.
"Up until now,... I haven't managed to overcome it, before akala ko okay na'ko at wala na siya para sa'kin but it turned out na hindi ko lang pala napansin nandito pa siya sa loob ko dahil I was just distracting myself by the use of studying."
"Ate," she burst out of tears.
"Shh, ate is here, you will be fine. You can open anything to Ate, I will listen."
"A--ate," I gave her a hug para maramdaman niya na nandito lang ako sa tabi niya.
"I'm scared of Kuya Sean, he might hate me, he might think I'm a miserable dirty woman."
"Why what happened? you can open to Ate anything."
"He forced me, I didn't want it to happen, I promise ate I fight back pero he was so strong and he said if I didn't do it he would do something to ate Magui and Kuya Sean. Ate, I don't want them to be in trouble, Ate Magui is already going through a lot I don't want them to get hurt."
"Shh, I understand you. It's not your fault and it will never be your fault."
"Ate, I feel like I'm so dirty, no matter how many times I take a shower I feel like I'm so dirty. Ang dumi dumi ko."
"Hey, Seah, Listen to me, it's not your fault and it will never ever be your fault. You are the victim you shouldn't be the one who's suffering. Those stupid dickhead men are the ones who should feel the suffering, we will fight them. Don't worry."
"My friends wouldn't accept me, my Kuya might hate me, baka isipin niya madumi akong babae. Ate, I don't want that to happen."
"Seah, listen carefully to what I will say. Kapag minaliit ka ng mga kaibigan mo dahil sa nangyari sayo always remember na sarili nila ang minamaliit nila kasi wala naman silang alam sa nangyayari sa buhay mo pero madami silang nasasabi. Sila ang mga walang kwenta. Hindi ikaw, sila dapat ang mahiya sa mga sarili nila at hindi ikaw. You are a brave woman for still fighting. Your brother would never hate or dislike you, kasi sobra ang pagmamahal niya sayo kahit ano pang pagdaanan mo tatanggapin at tatanggapin ka niya because you are his sister, I know your brother."
"You should smile na, ang ganda ganda mo palang tapos iiyak ka lang." natatawa kong sabi sakanya I saw her relief face dahil nalabas niya na ang tinik sa puso niya.
Ako kaya? Kailan ko malalabas ang tinik sa puso ko? I can comfort people, natutulungan ko silang magsalita para sa sarili nila pero hindi ko magawa sa sarili ko ito.
"Ano? Papasukin ko na si kuya mo?" tanong ko sakanya at huminga siya ng malalim at tumango.
Tumayo ako para buksan ang pinto nakita ko naman si Sean sa labas na halatang sobrang nagaalala na, sinenyasan ko siyang pumasok kaya mabilis siya pumasok sa lpob ng kwarto ni Seah.
"What happened to you? Seah naman, I'm so worried, I almost kick your door just to see you." nagaalalang sabi ni Sean at niyakap ang kapatid.
"Sorry Kuya, I'm really sorry," umiiyak na sabi ni Seah.
"Shh, baby girl don't cry," haplos niya sa buhok ng kapatid.
"Kuya, I'm so sorry,"
"Stop saying sorry baby, no matter what happened I'll always be here for you. I'm your brother, right? I will protect you at all cost."
"It's Zian Kuya, he harassed me." umiiyak na sabi ni Seah.
"WHAT?! THAT FUCKING MAN?!" he shouted out of frustration. "Why didn't you told me?!" he almost cried.
"I got scared Kuya, I thought you would hate me hapag sinabi ko."
"I will never hate you, baby it's not your fault. The one who's at fault here is that fucking Zian!"
"Kuya please explain it carefully to ate Magui because I know she would be so angry kapag nalaman niya."
"Yes baby, don't worry about that, I'll take care of that." sagot ni Sean at niyakap ang kapatid niya.
"Before we do something with that fucking Zian, you should eat first." sabi ni Sean sa kapatid at naglakad sila pababa at sumunod naman ako sakanila.
"Xian Xapin, I'll ruin his life for ruining the life of my sister." rinig kong sabi ni Sean sa kausap niya sa phone.
"Give him to me, I'm the brother, I should be the one making that stupid boy suffer,"-Sean
"Sean," tawag ko sakanya tumingin naman siya sakin at sumenyas ng wait lang.
"I'll call you again," sabi niya sa kausap niya.
"Kumusta siya?" he asked ng makalapit siya sakin.
"She's fine now, kumakain na ng maayos."
"What can I do?" ramdam ko sa boses niya ang lungkot para sa kapatid.
I held his face using my two hands and smile at him.
"Stay with her, that's the only thing she needs right now."
"Am I that pabayang kuya para mangyari sa kapatid ko to?" he asked.
"No, never."
"Then why did that fucking shit happened to my sister?" I saw his eyes full of tears.
"I don't know," nakayuko kong sagot
I don't know too, why it happened to me? Why it has to be me?
"The thing I can't understand is why didn't she told me?" he said in a frustrated voice.
"It's not that easy as you think,"
"Love, he will just tell me, what's not easy about that?"
"Sean, do you hear yourself? What kind of mentality is that?!" galit kong sigaw sakanya.
Akala niya ata ganun lang kadaling sabihin na you are being sexually harassed. Sobrang daming tanong at gumugulo sa isip mo na bakit kailangan sayo pa nangyari? Ganun ba ako kasama para sakin mangyari ito? Then some people would think na sobrang dali lang sabihin, we even have a hard time accepting ourselves because of that past.
"Hey, Bakit ka galit?"
"Sean hindi ako galit okay, pero sana naman intindihin mo sila, kasi hindi ganun kadaling tanggapin ng sarili namin yun."
"What?" taka niyang tanong.
"Sean, gabi gabi umiiyak ka to the point na gusto mo nalang tapusin buhay mo dahil lang diyan sa akala mong madaling gawin."
"Love, I was just saying why didn't she told me earlier."
"Alalahanin nga sobrang sakit na, paano mo gustong sabihin ng katapatid mo?"
"Kuya, I was sexually harassed by my boyfriend. Sean, ganun ba? Tangina naman Sean hindi ganun kadali yun. It takes a million courage to do that and I salute people who can do that kasi hindi ko magawa yun." irita kong sigaw sakanya at tinalikuran siya buti nalang malayo kami sa kapatid niya at hindi kami naririnig.
I was shocked in what I just said.
"Nicole," anas niya sa likuran ko.
"Love, I'm sorry." bulong niya at pinalupot ang mga kamay niya sa beywang ko at isinuksok ang mukha niya sa leeg ko.
"I didn't know that it would be hard for people to say it, kasi I thought they would just voice it out. I'm really sorry," he said.
Hinarap niya ako sakanya at pinunasan niya ang nga luha na tumutulo sa mata ko.
"I'm sorry," anas niya at hinalikan ako it not just a simple kiss but it is a passionate one.
His right hands was touching my face and his left hand was touching my waist.
"AYYY PUTA MAY PORNO DITO!!" rinig kong sigaw ni CJ
Mabilis naman ako kumawala sa mga halik ni Sean ng marinig kong nagsalita si CJ. Nakayuko lang ako habang si Sean ay inakbayan ako habang nakatingin sa malayo.
"Bakit kayo gumagawang porn sa kusina ah? Masarap ba?" pang aasar ni CJ samin at tinuturo turo pa ang mga mukha namin.
"Kung gagawa kayo ng baby, gumawa naman kayo sa maayos na lugar. Wag dito sa ilalim ng hagdan." natatawa niyang sabi.
Nandito kasi kami ngayon sa ilalim ng hagdan ng bahay nila Sean.
"Shut up, CJ." iritang sabi ni Sean sa kaibigan at hinila na ako pabalik sa kusina.
"Shut up CJ," CJ said mocking Sean, parang siyang bata na nanalo sa pustahan at sobrang lakas mang-asar.
Written by Jaderubygem