"Today, we're starting a new level of therapy." Jimin explains to Fiela as she's laying back on the comfort chair, with her eyes closed as she listens to Jimin. She had already explained to Jimin the couple of events that have happened in her life and also how she and Jungkook have been speaking through their problems, also how Aufilea had been acting up and also that she was pregnant. Although this time he did not give her advice he said that they would start something different. "Have you ever heard of redemption and meditation?"
"Yes as individual words." Fiela answers.
"What do they mean?" He asks in a gentle tone.
"Redemption means like being saved and meditation is like practicing something over and over, practising something peaceful. Like humming or focusing your energy on one thing."
"Yes," Jimin says. "We're going to do a devotional exercise. Basically what's going to happen now is that you're going to pick up on a hobby and allow that hobby to save you in times of distress."
Fiela nods her head already being interested. "What kind of hobby?"
"There's plenty of hobbies out there, but for therapeutic reasons we only offer two, but it all involves writing." He says. "I'll give you a journal and what you will do with that journal is write your feelings, classic. On the next page you can either decide to make music lyrics with the words you wrote out or you can draw something that's in line with what you felt. The two offers are basically drawing out your feelings or singing out your feelings,"
"Ohhh,"
"The meaning behind this exercise is to see how you handle certain outlooks. For example, let's use the problem of Aufilea. You said she said very painful words to you and your husband, what you could do is write down how you felt when she said that, or even how you think she felt, or even what she said and then you can either draw or make a song out of it. Allow for your brain to be creative,"
Fiela nods her head, she opens her eyes and turns to Jimin suddenly thinking of something. "Would I need to bring the journal here everytime?"
"Well of course," he nods his head with a charming smile. He lifts up a golden journal showing it to her. "This one is mine. I write and try to draw. Since I'm terrible at making lyrics and even worse at drawing I just try to make the pages look nice. All in all you need to get in the habit of expressing yourself more instead of throwing cellphones or fruits," Jimin says mentioning the times she lost it.
Fiela smiles embarrassingly and sits up when Jimin hands her a red one. "I've recognised what I've done and I've tried to make peace with it."
"That's good, that's a good mindset." Jimin says smiling. The first time when Fiela came he was very much nervous because compared to the whole Kim family, he was only use to Andrea. He never bonded with the other family members. So when Fiela came, he was not expecting to be her therapist but he wanted to try and help her whilst also getting to be more comfortable with her.
In more ways than one, she had some qualities of Andrea, but individually she was really really different from Andrea. He liked her and felt that she could also be of good friends with him.
"What I can say, for all you've told me is that you should do what is best for your family. Go as the mother version and wife version of yourself, because they are two very beautiful people. In fact your family members all fell in love with those two versions. Your caring nature for your husband as well as the caring nature for your children." He answers to her. He sees that it's almost time for her to leave and asks one last final question. "Is there something else you would like to tell me?"
"Uhm yeah. When you said I should go as the mother version, I thought about the new edition that I've added in my family," she nods her head a little bit hesitant. "This child means so much to me, she's not a child anymore because she's 16 now, but I still consider her a child, my child. Ever since she was young, an infant I looked after her and her mother at my work place. There was just so much life and beauty in her eyes that drew me closer to her, I couldn't resist it. Unfortunately for her, when she reached her 2nd birthday her mother died of a terminal disease. It broke my heart, that there was nothing I could do, since as her nurse I was only allowed to be with her during shift hours. I wanted so much to be with her because I knew that she didn't know what happened. So I tried my hardest to be there early for all my shifts so that I could play with her and take good care of her. But then, yet again, when all children at the hospital turn 13 without parental guidance they are sent to a really good orphanage that offers everything for children with limited needs or no family. It broke my heart and shattered me badly when I found out that I would be separated from her. I basically felt that I groomed her and deserved that position to be her mother, but no. And in fact when I complained the doctors told me that I wasn't supposed to get attached to her. Even if it hurt, I had to part with her. It broke her heart too, and let me say just how devastating it was. She would cry and cry and wouldn't leave my side at all, even when my shift ended she never let me go. Those last few days were so heartbreaking..but eventually she left and I was left alone. I cared for other mothers and their children at the centre but my heart was still in pain..it almost felt like the child I'd lost..."
"It's painful to not know what to do with broken feelings," Jimin puts aside his clipboard and sat more comfortably encouraging Fiela to go on, giving her his attention. "Go on, I'm listening,"
"It was until a couple of weeks ago, that Jungkook brought guests over for dinner, including Taehyung. But to say I was happy is an understatement, I was beyond zealous when I saw her. I felt like my heart grew too big for my chest. She immediately ran to me and engulfed me in the biggest hug. I swear I was so happy that moment. That dinner went by perfectly and just by her presence being there I knew that I wouldn't let her go again, especially since now since there's no office hours and all that. Jungkook is assigned to her as her watchman." She smiles lightly but it slowly goes away. "Apparently the years that we've spent apart were not so good to her. She was struggling with life and just kept everything to herself. I learnt that she had ran away multiple times from the orphanage and even stolen a lot from the streets and shops and was a disturbance at school. It broke my heart so badly hearing all those things, she told me herself but of course she hid those crucial detail which I later on learnt from my husband. But since Jungkook was assigned to her, and since she started..trusting him, things became better. Because now she's very free with us, she comes over to our home and just..it feels like she belongs there, like she belongs with us." I hug myself thinking about her.
Jimin nods his head with his modest smile. "Okay, so what's wrong?"
She thinks for a moment before looking back up to Jimin. "I can feel myself getting attached to her again. I can feel it in me that she's my root and my blood and that I love her so much. Not only that, but Jungkook too. Although he hasn't said it, I know he loves her presence. Especially with the whole Aufilea thing going on and the tension, it does feel really good when Olivia is over and he smiles with her or how he generally treats her. Even Gem and Gemma love when she's around. Heck she also loves being around us, sometimes we even keep her at our house overtime only to realise that she has curfew at the orphanage,"
"So..." Jimin shrugs his shoulders with a mischievous smile. "Why don't you adopt her?"
Fiela looks up to him with a surprised face, wondering over the option. "That would be a good idea... I've thought about it a lot but then I begin to wonder...about our home and how we live compared to how she lives,"
"You and your husband can talk about it and can come to a decision," he suggests with a little nod. "But you have to remember that there is no perfect family, but their is a perfect home. That home is only perfect when there is love. So much love,"
"I like that a lot," Fiela smiles at his words. "And my husband and I can talk about it... but...what if she doesn't want us as her family? Or what if my husband refuses? You know his work has been really hectic and this whole thing with Aufilea..what if she doesn't get along with Aufilea or even–"
Jimin groans with a soft chuckle. "Doubts, doubts and more doubts. What have I told you about doubts? They stop you from achieving anything in life. So let's do this, take a chance with her, take a chance with... Ophelia..."
"Olivia," I correct him and he nods.
"My bad," Jimin apologetically smiles. "Take a chance with her, take a chance with Olivia,"
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Night time
Jungkook is on his way home in the dark, feeling so exhausted and drained. He gets much lighter when seeing his driveway coming up right ahead. He wanted nothing more then to be in his warm bed with Fiela. Just thinking about his wife makes him smile but he's brought out of his thoughts about her as soon as his phone begins to ring vigorously in his car speaker causing him to jolt into cop mode. He presses the answer button getting blown away by the loud shrieking voice that bombs through the speaker. It's Baekhyun.
"Sir! Code red! The man's about to blow the house!"
Jungkook's eyes widen and he starts reversing in the empty street and already driving with full speed towards the main roads. "Where's the family?"
"In the house sir!" Baekhyun says aloud sounding like he's running.
"Alright I'll be there soon." The call ends and immediately Jungkook's vehicle speeds past the highway almost causing multiple of accidents. He puts his siren on already driving way past the speed limit. As he nears the house, the car breaks immediately stopping by the squad of other gathered vehicles in red and blue. He quickly gets out and hurriedly puts on his bullet proof vest before he closes his boot of his car making his way to the rest of men who were on lookout, just as others have an their bulletproof vest and are getting their weapons ready.
He pants but immediately has his game face on. "Situation?"
"It's gotten worse sir." The officer next to him speaks up.
"We've got no time to waste men. Kai make sure the houses nearby are under lockdown just in case he wants to escape and run inside them and make sure they're empty. I repeat, empty." He address the man who nods his head already running to make sure that the houses where empty and the residents were at a safe distance. Jungkook looks around seeing all the man. "Gentlemen what we have here is 4 people, 2 wounded officers and a bomber, the husband. Bomber has already sealed the house inside out and wants a large sum of money. The two injured officers are in bad condition and the 4 family members are in critical condition."
"What's our clock?" One man asks.
Baekhyun answers. "He gave us one hour, that gives us 23 minutes."
"No time to waste! Alright seven men on the roof by the windows, you know what to do. The rest with Baekhyun at the garage and you four with me. Be stale. Give me that radio. Let's move!"
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Chapter 33