Alexandra's POV
Five months have passed and I still haven't regained my memory. The doctor said when Ava and I reconnect I would regain my memory. But Ava has yet to make contact with me.
When we reached the white moon pack several months before we stayed for about a week. I realized that a lot of things have happened within two years. Jason and Aiden found their mates. I had a new family. And I was happy.
Still this time everyone refused to tell what happened back at the crescent moon pack. I asked Ash and she said she didn't know and they even refused to tell me why I was in crescent moon.
The week when I was in the white moon pack Blake was with me every moment. He refused to leave me out of his sight. Aiden just commented that the Alpha's are very possessive of their mates normally and adding the fact I was pregnant their possessiveness just increased ten per cent. But Blake's possessiveness was the square of ten per cent.
When we returned to the blood moon pack, everyone in the pack were really patient. Mainly Ashley, Nina, Nate, Elliott, Elijah and Felix.
Elijah's mate was Daisy, who was Landon's sister, Landon who I met was supposedly AL's mate, Blake's sister's mate. And on the fact she was also pregnant.
Damn. The family is really big.
Blake practically locked me in our room. He took the whole month off from work to spend time with me. He was really sweet, he did say he was workaholic and now that I don't remember that he wanted to change that fact. We spent the whole month together watching movies, talking and on dates. I realized I fell in love with him. Again.
After that month he left to work and I rarely saw him for a week. But when Ash found me crying because I missed him, she threatened Blake she would do something she would regret and their parents would be ashamed of his behaviour and also when I threatened I would go to the white moon pack, he started working at home.
I didn't speak to him for a week, when I thought he was being home only because of our threats and when I said he didn't really care about me or our baby, I still remember his face. He was so damn cute apologizing to me for all that thoughts that occurred because he wasn't there for me the whole week and he promised until I regain my memories or until the babies are born he would work from home and would only go to his office only for some meetings and only for emergencies.
Poor Elliott and Nate, as Blake is home they spend most of their time in the office. I even cried for that cause I felt sorry for them.
The reason for all of these to happen, I blame them completely on the hormones. And to say everyone just agreed.
"What are you thinking?"
I turned around and faced a tired Blake.
I replied," Nothing."
He wasn't satisfied with the answer. He asked," Will you go and visit the doctor tomorrow at least?"
Doctor, well, I completely refused to meet the doctor for any of the scans and Blake said there are two babies. I did hear the heartbeats, but I'm kind of afraid I completely breakdown when I see the babies. That I wasn't fit to be a mother as I don't remember what happened before I knew they existed and also on the fact I wasn't even aware that I bearing them.
I feel like shit.
Blake said," Lexi, come on, you have to sleep. The babies and you need rest. And stop thinking about whatever you are thinking. One thing I know is that you are blaming yourself."
I lied," I'm not"
He said sarcastically," Of course, you are not."
Then he continued," Now come on, I won't be here tomorrow I have some meetings and I don't want to return home to find my mate crying that I wasn't taking caring of her and the babies. Definitely I don't want a lecture from my little sister and my pregnant sister and most definitely not a broken nose from your brother."
I rolled my eyes and said," So, you think I'm a burden?"
He ran his fingers through his hair and said," Lexi, don't start again. I love you and our babies more than anything in this world. You are not a burden. You will never be a burden to me. As usual, I will blame all this on the hormones. Come on, I miss you."
I didn't move and I said," Blake, I love you."
He smiled and leaned toward me and kissed. He then said," I know, sweetheart. And I love you too"
With that, he lifted me bridal style and took me to bed. He kissed me once again and kissed by bulging stomach and whispered," And I love you, babies. "
I leaned into his chest and played with his fingers as he said," I don't care whether they are boys or girls. Whoever they are they are my children and nothing in this world will change that."
I kissed his cheek and whispered," Good night. I think the babies know that because you have told it to them every single day."
With that, I slept.
He was angry and the next minute he slapped me. He yelled," Eat now Alexandra!"
I shook my head and tried to move away from him.
He said," Fine! I thought you can eat some food and then I can mark you, it seems like I have to skip the step of eating."
He leaned towards me and tried to kiss me. I moved away from him.
But then he pushed me on the sofa and pinned my hands above me and tried to kiss me, I felt tears in my eyes as I whispered," N-o...no"
He tried to kiss me but he kissed my cheek.
I can't even move my legs as they were numb. God... Please help me.
If he even kissed me I would be disgusted. He glared at me. I was crying. Tears were streaming down my face.
Then we heard some noise outside. Dylan warned me," Don't you dare move!"
I woke up panting, the same dream again and again. I sat up slowly and leaned on my pillow and drank some water.
Nightmare.
This time it was a nightmare. Thank god! Blake doesn't know or he would take me to the doctor.
They were either dream of Blake and me or they are nightmares of Dylan.
I kind of figured out they were pieces of my memory. But they are pieces. I don't remember them entirely and the only person to know is Sophie. She asked me to meet the doctor but I refused.
She advised me that if they get worse to go meet the doctor but this is the worst one. All the details that were missing in that nightmare are now filled. They are whole now.
I turned to my side and saw Blake sleeping peacefully, he used to wake up when I woke up in the middle of the night with nightmares or dreams, and he would ask me what were they but I never told him. I didn't want him to know, he would worry.
Today he was sleeping and he didn't notice that I was awake. I couldn't blame him he didn't sleep a wink yesterday because of my cravings and he was working.
"Alex"
It was Ava.
"Ava!! I missed you so much!"
"I missed you too", she replied.
"What happened?", I asked.
She replied," Alex, don't worry about anything. Go to sleep. The silver is now totally out of our system. I will heal you now. Go to sleep."
Her command made me sleep.
When I woke up, I remembered. I cried in relief. No more forcing myself to remember.
I sat up and leaned on the headboard and looked around the room. The time was around eleven and Blake was gone. There was a note on my side from him informing he was going to his office and won't be back until night and asking me to visit the doctor and he was sorry he couldn't come with me.
I remember everything, every freaking thing. The reason I was in the crescent moon pack, my kidnapping, Ray, Rain, Dylan and lastly Alpha Devon and Alpha Hazel who saved me.
I let out a sob and pulled the comforter up to my face. I didn't know how long I have cried but I stopped when I got a phone call from Blake. I wiped my tears away and drank some water before answering.
"Lexi, are you alright?"
I hit myself when I heard his worried voice. I forgot about the bond.
I assured him," I'm fine. Nothing happened."
He sighed," Are you really alright?"
I rolled my eyes and said," Yes, I'm really alright. "
He asked," Were you crying?"
I lied," No, it's nothing. When I woke up you weren't there and I kind of cried but then I remember you were in office and then I saw your note. "
He said," Okay... Go and visit the doctor, okay?"
I said," I'll go."
He said," If you want I can accompany you."
I said instantly," No, no. I want to go alone remember."
He replied," Fine, but if anything happened, call me. Call me instantly. I will always take your call. I love you."
I replied," I know, I love you too."
I sighed. I hate lying to him, but when he realizes I know the truth he may insist on knowing what happened with Dylan and he will be really angry. I want to tell him in person with my brother so that I won't have to tell both of them separately.
I want to cry and let out but I have to be strong for my babies. And Blake.
It was nearly one and I was hungry. I took a bath and wore a dress and my flats and went to the kitchen. Ashley and Nina were there talking.
I said," Is there food?"
They both turned towards me and said, "You are finally awake."
I grinned at them and then I sat and ate the food and ate a lot of chocolates.
They both continued to talk and I listened to them or mostly I stared blankly at them thinking of the reaction of both Blake and Aiden on hearing about what happened that day or most probably the best idea is not to tell them I got back my memories.
As I debated whether I should tell them or not I slowly walked outside and walked slowly to the pack hospital. I greeted everyone on the way to the hospital and many even insisted on driving me there but I refused and said I needed to walk.
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Amelia