I had known I was over him
When I had finally heard him say I'm sorry
And my soul was put to rest
Because I had never needed those words anyway.
I had known I was over him
When I finally heard his voice
And his laugh
And it didn't make me crumble.
I had known I was over him
When he told me about his love
For another
And my heart didnt break.
I had learned to forgive him
In his absence and his silence
And thus his presence had grown
To be fond rather than wrenching.
I hope one day the same will be done with you.
My heart will learn to forgive
The way you had broken it without remorse.
I hope one day I can sit along side you
And be the reason for the smile on your face
For the laugh coming from your lungs
And it no longer fill me with joy.
I hope one I'll hear the words I'm sorry
And I'll reply, "You've already been forgiven"
And we'll leave each other there
With our anchors finally cut loose.
I hope one day I'll be able to look at you
And my heart doesn't break in two.
That I'll be able to talk to you
And words don't fail to come.
Though there's always a what if
Blocking my path
And it lies within the fact
That you are not him.
As much as I wish to hate you
As I have hated him
I realize how much love
Really resides here for you.
I'm scared that when that day comes
I'll show up with my heart on my sleeve
Not giving it up
But wishing you'd still want to take it
Or worse,
That when that day comes
I'm the only one showing up at all.