LISA
Let me tell you a little secret ok?
But you have to promise not to tell Jungoo ok?
You see, a month ago, I kept having really bad tantrums and moodswings to say the least.
It frustrated me to no end.
After the wedding, things were going smoothly and I just felt like a lot has been handed to me so I felt very emotional and usually mental breakdowns.
Another thing that was unusual was these weird cravings I had.
I would often crave for mangos dipped in peanut butter or those damn pickles with mayo in it. Which reminds me, I have to buy more.
It was silly and really weird you know.
Not to mention, the constant vomiting and dizziness I felt. It was hindering my work.
I've been really emotional lately which led me to one important mind blowing thing.
I've experienced this before.
And it certainly it wasn't my first time.
It was my third time too so I probably knew a thing or two about it.
But I had to make sure.
I really hope it is tho.
I've been wishing for it since and I also needed to keep my promise to a certain impatient lady by the way.
Hmp, was I?
Not to mention the fact the my eldest child Ella was a keen observer and was really very particular about things.
So naturally,
The little detective in her would pry and find out.
It was a Friday I remember. Jk was at work as usual sealing a really important deal in Busan.
He wasn't home for 4 days now.
I woke up to a really weird sensation at the pit of my throat and I just had to let it out.
On top of that was the faintest dizzy feeling I've had all week.
I rushed to the toilet and emptied everything on the sink.
It felt really bad and has gotten worst over the past few weeks.
I was brought back to reality when a hand was slowly massaging and tapping my back.
It was my HAYUL- my ELLA.
She looked really concerned and had that worried look on her face.
Because Jk was away, Ella and the twins stayed with me.
She has been witnessing this every morning since her dad left.
"Mommy? Are you ok? Are you sick? Do you need anything? "
Aww, look at my little lady.
Being the big sister that she is.
Ella was not a morning person and for her to wake up early each morning to console and comfort me is such a blessing.
I smiled at her and patted her head.
"I'm fine baby. No need to worry about me love. " I assured her.
I wiped my mouth and brushed my teeth to take away that bitter taste.
Then we walked back to the room to find the twins sprawled in the sheets still in Dreamland.
"Are you sure you're ok mommy? We could go to the doctor if you want. I can call daddy to come home. " She was about to cry.
Awww. Now is probably the right time to tell her.
I could trust my eldest.
I held her hand and dragged her to the balcony so that no one could hear especially the twins.
We sat on the bench and looked at the sky.
"Baby? Remember that time when we were at our old house. The one in Gwangju? "
She nodded.
"Remember what happened when Mommy had the twins? Remember that? "
She nodded and then realization hit her.
Her gloomy face turned bright and sunny.
She stood and jumped giddily.
"You mean? Are you? "
I nodded and smiled at her .
She jumped and screamed.
"Mommy, you're pregnant are you? You are, right? Tell me. "
I hugged her and said.
"Yes, I am baby. I know I am. But Mommy has to make sure ok? So you need to help Mommy out ok? We have to go to the doctor to know if I really am pregnant ok?." She squealed and was dancing crazily.
I just laughed.
"We have to tell daddy and the twins. "
But when she saw my expression she stopped.
"Ellie, come here.. sit next to Mommy. " She did what was told and looked at me intently. "We can't tell your daddy or the twins yet ok? We have to make sure before we tell them. You get me? So Ellie, here's Mommy's request. Please please please keep this a secret from them ok? You need to promise ok? You know how talkative your baby sister is and Sky would probably just ignore us. It will be just you and me until we find out for sure ok? Please baby. "
She nodded and then hugged me tightly.
"I promise Mommy. I'll be the best big sister ever. Thank you Mom for making my birthday wish come true. I love you and little beanie. "
She smiled at kissed my tummy.
"Love you little bean!"
She giggled and hugged me some more.
"Mom? You have to promise me that you'll tell me if anything hurts or if you need anything ok? And please don't be mad at daddy. I don't want for us to leave again. " She kissed my nose.
"I promise. But it will be hard tho sweetie not when little bean over here makes me feel all kinds of emotions. You have to help Mommy k? And I'm sure you're gonna be the best older sister there is. You already are with the twins Ellie. I love you Elliebear! "
That week, we decided to go to the doctor to confirm my pregnancy.
The twins were at Mom's.
When I found out that I really was pregnant. I was over the moon.
Jeon, you better treat me nicely from now on!
Ella and me both were elated.
After that everything went smoothly. Well, at least I hoped it was.
I became crankier and more sensitive.
I would often fight and nag JK to no extent.
I could tell he was losing all sense of control and patience with me.
But I'm so thankful that he tries to understand me and always make sure that he expresses how much he loves me even though I ignore him.
Sometimes, I feel real guilty because of my attitude towards Jk.
It's a good thing he isn't suspicious about it.
It was just recently when Ella kept pestering me to tell JK already.
But you see I wasn't ready to tell him more so the fact that I've been avoiding him because he irritates me even without trying.
Like right now when we were at the garden, while Jk was playing with the twins on the swing.
Ella started to beg.
"Mommy? Please can we tell daddy already. I hate lying to him. " She had her forehead scrunched up and was giving me the puppy dog eyes.
Seriously, the things she learns from JK.
"Please Mommy. Daddy needs to know. The twins also need to find out. " She stared at me and pleaded.
"Ella, we talked about this already right? I'm gonna tell daddy during Christmas break, next week to be exact. It's an Early Christmas gift. Pls. Understand baby. Now, pls. Be quiet. They might her. "
Ella did not like it and was on the verge of crying.
That's when Jk came and consoled Ella.
Only if you knew babe.
I was busy humming a song to Ella to let her fall asleep. When a certain irritating man came and asked if he could go out with his friends..
Naturally, I'd be hesitant about it.
But recently, I've been really giving him a hard time so the least I could do was cut him some slack.
So I agreed providing a treat to him.
You better come home safe and sober JEON or else all hell will break lose.