Author's NOte:
Sorry for updating this late guys! I hope you havent forgotten this story na krub :)
Please don't forget to click the "vote" in every chapters and alos I would love to hear your thoughts and ideas so don't hesitate to "comment". I will also really appreciate if you can share this story in facebook, twitter and instagram.
Also add me in my social media accounts for more updates.
Facebook: XianChris Suarez
Instagram: XianChrisSuarez
Follow our page: Boys Love Bangkok (https://www.facebook.com/BoysLoveBkk/)
________________________________________________
Newwie's POV
"Nine!" Ben shouted so loud that it's impossible for us to hear it. We were hiding deep in the woods making sure Tay and Joong couldn't' see us or sense our aura. We knew the plan even before they were called. We planned it together.
"It's time..." Xian said and we all rushed as fast as we can to the fight scene. I felt my heart stopped at the sight of Tay almost lifeless on the ground. His head is terribly bleeding and I can sense some broken ribs as well.
"What the hell!" I glared at Luke who is tending to Tay. "You said..."
"I said we will not go soft...and it's the right decision..." He answered. I kneeled down and put my both palm on Tay's body. Transferring some of my energy to him making sure that he got enough to survive the healing procedure. I felt Aom's presence next to me putting both h is palm as well doing the same as mine.
"Nine..." I shouted. Looking at him who is busy doing incantations for Joong who is equally bleeding and bruised like Tay. Xian's palms are also on top of Joong making sure he can transfer enough energy to him. Slowly, Joong's bleeding head is healing as well as his bruises. I felt Tay moved and shook and I swear my heart literally stopped beating. "He is dying!" I shouted as tears fell from my eyes.
"Calm down...Focus your aura on him..." Aom said. I tried my best to calm down but when you are looking at the person your love, the most important thing in your life slowly drowning to death is hard.
"Newwie... focus..." Xian said who is in front of me helping us to draw more strength to Tay. Time seems so slow while Nine performed healing chants to Joong. Ten minutes' feel like hours and hours. Finally, I felt Nine hands on my shoulder and he immediately proceeded with his healing incantations to Tay. The healing process took quite some time before we can carry them both on the make shift ambulance we got. We know that Nines healing chants are not enough for their bruises this time that's why made sure an ambulance is available on standby.
We took them in our house and set up some hospital paraphernalia's in our rooms for them to recover faster. I looked at Tay's lifeless form on my bed and it broke my heart that he needed to go through this just to be with me. Aom busied herself taking the lead to fix Tay on my bed and connecting whatever tubes there is in his body. I couldn't see him like this so I decided to go out and grasp some air. I saw Nine seated on the patio in deep thoughts.
He looked up when he sense my presence and gave me a faint smile. "What are we doing to them New?" He said and tears stroll down his eyes. "They don't deserve this kind of brutality...for what?"
"I know... Is it still the right decision to drag them in our world?" I asked. We both know we always have a choice. We can always let them go so that they can live their own lives. "Should we..."
"Don't give up now..." It was Ben. "They opened their chakra already... and I know you are thinking of erasing their memories...but with their chakra already been accessed you cannot erase their instinct. They might forget about you but they will live their lives knowing something is wrong... that is worse than forgetting..."
"How sure you are that they will feel that way?" Nine asked. Ben sat down next to Nine and stared at nowhere.
"Coz I asked my memories to be erased..."
"Why would you do that?" I asked. Thou I have a feeling that the answer might be because of Nine.
"Coz sometimes forgetting is the only chance of survival..."
"Ben..." Nine said in a very small voice.
"It's okay... I forgot about you for a while...but even when I forgot about you...my feelings won't just go away...I always feel something deep inside me...perhaps longing or being incomplete that's haunting me..."
"How come you remember everything then?" I asked.
"When I and Luke go on our spate ways, that's when I decided to erase my memories... For years I was clueless to what I'm longing for, until I started to search for answers, to search the truth...you see erasing my memory is useless coz I end up seeking for the things I chose to forget. I end up in the training camp of Aom and Xian's siblings. They knew what I was looking for but they made sure that it was my own decision to bring it all back...." He answered.
"So, they brought back your memories?" I asked.
"Yes..." He looked at Nine intently while my best friend keot his eyes on the ground. "And I remembered Nine... I remembered everything..." Ben whispered and got up. "So, don't give up on them...don't give up on what you have..." he said and exited the gate.
"He is such a great guy..." I said. Nine looked up filled with guilt.
"He is...and I wish he can find someone who deserves the love that he can offer." He said.
"He will...just give him the time to move on..."
"how can he if he always sees me..."
"Nine, we all have our own way to move on... maybe this is Ben's way to move on...maybe he needed to see you that you are really happy with Joong... maybe he needed to see the truthfulness of your love for Joong..."
"I hope your are right..." He said and stared blankly to nowhere. "How about you and Luke?" He asked. I never opened about Luke after our supposed to be date.
"Luke..." I said. "I am thankful for the help he is giving. I know how much I mean to him and even if he hated Tay so much he always makes me his priority."
"And how does that make you feel?" Nine asked. I contemplated what I am feeling for Luke. He was my first love, my very best friend that I shared my life with. I loved him back then and when he left I thought I wouldn't't be able to recover from the pain. For many years, I closed and locked my heart from love. I chose to ignore any attraction I felt from anyone. But when I met Tay everything changes. I feel my entire soul being drawn to him. "Luke will remain in my past..." I said.
"Were you ever got confused when Luke comeback?" Nine asked.
"No..." And that was my straight honest answer. : "When I saw him again, I felt anger and to be honest betrayed. But Xian explained everything why he wanted to help."
"Did he come back to win you again?"
"He tried... but before he can even have hope I made it clear already that I have no feeling left for him or will I ever fall for him again. I made sure that Tay is the only one for me... and I'm aware that him and Tay will never be friends or will be in good terms..."
"But he is still here helping them out in their training. He is still here and didn't ran to the council to tell everything that had been happening to us... he chose to be on our side..." Nine said.
"And for that I will be forever thankful. But I can't give him more than what he is expecting and I'm sure he knows that now, If there's something I can offer him in return is the family that we have. He will always be welcome in our family and if everything will be in good terms I will make sure that Tay will accept him as well." I answered.
"And that is something I can give Ben as well..."
"Stop feeling guilty Nine. It's their choice to help. It's their own will to whatever reasons they have. They are helping us even though we are no longer in love with them."
"And isn't that what love really is? To give something without expecting in return? To sacrifice your own happiness to make the other person be happy and free? If that is what love is why are we still doing this to Joong and Tay? They can always move on and find happiness with another person without all the danger that we have..." He is filled with agony and confusion that it hurts me to see my best friend go through this. Most of the time Nine was the stronger one emotionally between us. He is the more confident one in terms of decision making. He is always sure of himself and it hurts me to see him go through this.
"Nine, sometimes love needs to be selfish, it needs to be stubborn. It doesn't need to always be a sacrifice, because love deserves to be held tight and it is always worth fighting for. This is the time for us to be stronger for them. This is the time for our love to be greater than our fear."
"And for how long will they endure this torture just to be with us New? How long will we be putting them in danger?" he asked looking blankly.
"I don't have answers for that Nine...this is killing me as well, to see Tay almost lifeless tonight, it's as if a certain part of soul was sucked out of mine... but he fought hard knowing the risk in his life... I will not abandon him... I know how it feels to be left behind and I won't do that to him." I answered.
"If they get better...if they wake up...what is next?" He looked at me lost.
"I was thinking of sending them to that training camp Xian and Aom were talking about... perhaps after this semester... and we will need to find someone who can cut off our wings" Nine looked at me intently.
"Are we ready for that?"
"Are you ready to live an eternity without Joong?"
"No..."
"Then being ready is not an option for us..." He nodded.
I heard footsteps coming from the stairs. "They are awake" It was Xian.