this is a Trans!Angel AU everyone sees him as a female right away because of his voice and appearance they think Angel is a girl and some even refuse to call him by what he asks etc.
Small Key!
Cherri calls him Angie still but he doesnt mind as much because she still uses the he/him pronouns
Charlie tries her best to remember but messes up sometimes
Molly calls him Angel
everyone else either doesnt care what he wants or doesnt know
Alastor and him are dating but Angel has always too scared to tell him
Other Information and Warningsof the chapter(s)
Also he isnt into drag in this chapter but Val makes him dress feminine at the studios even though he knows Angel identifies as male.
possible trans-phobia/transphobic slurs(they will be censored but there is one point where a character calls Angel the 't' word a few times so just be warned on that), and other possible triggers like abuse and having to act like the gender you are not etc so read with caution. i love you guys please don't think you have to read anything if it makes you uncomfortable!
Last thing this might be multiple chapters or quite long
Now on to the story
A/N 160 words
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No ones POV
It was a pretty cool night for Hell, the residents of the Happy Hotel slept all but Angel Dust who was sitting awake in bed looking in his mirror. His deer boyfriend lied asleep in bed his pet piglet right next to the deer demon asleep. He sighed. why couldn't they just listen to him. Why don't they care?Why do i have to act? Why was he so scared to tell everyone?
Angel lied in bed finally his little piglet by his side as he fell asleep.
-Time Skip-
Angel Dusts POV
I wake up sighing a bit, I look at the sleeping piglet on my chest and my boyfriend sleep next to me I smile carefully moving the piglet over I carefully get up as to not wake up Alastor or Fat Nuggets, I had to get ready for work, did i want to go, hell no of course not. Do i have to, yes. Does my boss make me dress like a girl when im around the studios, working and whenever he sees me unless i want to be beat, yes. Am i a girl, biologically you could say that, i've always known i was put in the wrong body though, i guess you could say. Im transgender but do many people care of course they dont this is Hell why would people give a shit, they didn't care when i was alive why would they now. Well a few people care and try really hard like my best friend Cherri, the princess of Hell and owner of the hotel i live in Charlie and my twin sister Molly, the only family other then ma who ever gave a shit about me, she s an angel but still ended up in hell because of the mafia pa made us be part. Anyways i was silently looking in my mirror while holding dresses up, I hated dresses, with makeup all i was okay ever wearing was a bit of eyeliner for the sole reason of it makes me look more awake and excited to be doing everything, and my heeled shoes that weren't really feminine but Molly got me and i love them. that was all though. I sigh softly again picking out a black flow-y dress that ended at about my knees. a bit higher, i put on shuddering a small bit looking in the mirror. I see the small piglet behind me sitting, now awake, on the bed just looking at me. Though Al was still asleep, a slight humming noise coming from him like white noise. I turn to the piglet
"Hey Nuggets, daddy has to get to work, he'll be back soon okay." i say softly to the small piglet putting on some stocking-like socks that were also black to match the dress I was forcing myself to wear. I get Fat Nuggets some food and water before sliding on my low-heeled, lower-thigh high boots and leaving to the studios quickly after leaving a note on the door of Charlie's office to let her know where i was. She always worries about me but knows i can't really quit so i write:
'Hey Charlie, had to get to the studios today, don't want Val angry. I should be back soon so don't worry. Sorry im still stuck with Val. Let Al know when he wakes up please, see you soon ~Angel Dust'
i stick put the note on her desk where i know she will see it and leave quickly.
-Time Skip to the studios_
I finally made it to the studios about 5 minutes before i had to be here and i immediately hear
"Angie Sweetheart i was wondering if you were ever going to show up baby girl lets get you ready" Val said coming up behind me half heartily but roughly wrapping me in his grasps, i felt his clawed nails dig into my arm a bit
"i.. Okay Big Vee, who do i have today? any ideas or no?" i ask about to correct him before realizing there was no point
"a few demons that want you, not sure who go get ready" he says his harsh, rough seductive tone bold in his voice, i nod
"yeah, okay" i go off to my room to get ready. I hate it here, I hate Val, I hate being called baby girl and Angie by anyone but Cherri Bomb, I hate being here, I hate being referred to as a female which i'm not, I. Hate. It! I growl slightly getting ready and changed before Val comes and yells at me. Soon enough I'm being used like a toy by anyone who pays enough for me. I'm use to it by now, being used by one person; touched, grabbed, hurt, fucked. Then i'm given to the next person to repeat the process of being used as the female i'm always forced to be,since 'biologically' i am. Even if I'm not. This continues all day and sometimes into the night depending on how pissed of Valentino is that day. Depending on the day Val uses me too. It doesn't matter i'm use to it. Anyways the day goes on as normal by about 3 o'clock ish in the afternoon Val grabs me pulling me off to the side
"You don't have anyone else for a bit Angie so how about we have some fun" He says i throw on my act smirking a small bit
"Whatever you want Val, we can play if you want to play" I say seductively, it was all an act of course but do i know i have to act, yes. Val smirks at me and takes me to a room where he then uses me like the rest of them. Pain, that's all i feel with him, Val is always so rough and always hurts me but i have to act like i love it. I have to act, Always keep up my act. I'm an actor now, I have to be with as much as i act to love this, to love him, to love the pain, to love being called a girl. I have to act like i love it or he hurts me more. Soon enough he finishes with me too and gives me off to the next client i have that day after a kiss. I keep up my act until i'm done with the day "You can go now Angie, your done today" Val says i nod walking to my room
"Finally" i whisper opening my door changing into the same disgusting dress from this morning leaving the studios quickly getting back to the hotel. Vaggie glares at me
"Where the hell have you been?!" she yells spear at my throat in seconds
"The studios that's where. Where else would i be?" i say unamused but not moving due to, again, a sharp spear being at my throat.
"estúpida zorra culo, juro jodidamente (stupid ass slut, i fucking swear)" she says, I've heard that line enough to understand it. I just sigh
"can i get by yet? i want to change." i say annoyed
"why should i let you? Stupid bitch" she says clearly mad at me i sigh again going to speak before a voice beside me does first
"Let him change Vaggie" a higher voice says
"but she doesn't deserve to Charlie, she always does this! this stupid whore just" she gets cut off
"He. can't help it Vaggie, you know Valentino hurts him if he tries to leave" she says to vaggie, putting an emphasis on he vaggie just sighs
"Fine Charlie I'll let her by, go already Angie" she says i cringe a bit
"Thanks" i say looking at Charlie with a thankful expression mouthing 'thank you Charlie' going to my room changing into some shorts and an over-sized shirt and a pair of long socks laying taking off all my makeup cringing again. I lay next to Nuggets who oinks a bit "i'm okay Nugs, its okay im use to it already"i say hugging him close " i love you Nuggets." I kiss his little head he snorts and nuzzles my face a bit licking my cheek a bit. I give a soft laugh and pet him. We play around on my bed for a bit before a knock comes from my door "its unlocked, come in" i call a small bug-like girl comes in
"Hi miss Angel, just here to get your laundry!" she cheers, you can tell she tries just like Charlie does but she still calls me 'miss' Angel but its getting better at least she calls me Angel now not Angie so
"by the closet Nifty, Thank you" i say she nods skipping over to the pink laundry basket by my door she picks it up as a binder falls out of it having been on the edge, neither of us noticed until it fell, she picks it up putting it back in the basket with a weird look
"Miss Angel what was that thing?" she asks i freeze, she didn't know i was trans few people did she knew i preferred to go by Angel but i was always too worried to tell anyone i was trans after what happened when i came out to Val
"just a sports bra, their more comfortable then normal ones" i say calmly she nods
"ohhh okay!" she cheers leaving with the basket like nothing happened. I let out a breath I didn't know i was holding flopping back down with Fat Nuggets
"that was close, if she found out i was Trans she would have told everyone Nuggets, what the hell would have happened if everyone found out. I can't have another Val situation, I still have scars. I don't want to be hurt again" i tell the small piglet a small concerned oink coming from him. "it's okay Nugs, i can take it, i can take them calling me Angie, calling me a girl no matter how sick it makes me feel, no matter how much i hate it if it saves me from being hurt again." i say the piglet nods a bit as if understanding which he probably did.
"ANGEL CAN YOU HELP ME DOWN HERE PLEASE"Charlie calls
"COMING" I call back moving Nuggets a bit going to my door and opening it and seeing Alastor, my boyfriend who i hadn't told yet just turning away in a panic. "A-Al?! when did you get there?" i say he turns back around rubbing his neck
"After Nifty left, i came to ask you something but you were talking and i didnt want to interrupt you" he says
"H-how much did you hear?" i say panicked
"I heard everything you said to your piglet,why didn't you tell me you were tra-" he gets cut off by my hands pressing over his mouth
"SHH! no no no no no, you herd, i'm fucked. it's gonna be like Val all over again" i say breathing picking up Alastor must have noticed as he pulled me into an awkward hug
"its okay Angie er Angel my bad. No one here will hurt you. I won't let them. Its okay i just wanted to know if it was true im sorry i have been calling you something that made you uncomfortable, what you preferred to be called" he says i calm down in his hold a bit
"A-angel. p-please" i start he nods intervening
"he,him right?" he asks i nod
"Th-thanks Al, i appreciate it"i say calming down "I love you babe but I have to go help Charlie " he nods as i speak
"are you going to tell everyone, i can tell you get uncomfortable when they call you Angie or say 'she' or 'her' thats why i was coming up, i was going to ask what that was about" he asks hesitantly
"I want to, but i'm scared" I say softly as he lets me go grabbing my upper hands a bit
"I can help if you want? Does anyone here know? Other then me now" he asks
"Charlie and can you just stay with me please when i say it please, moral support y'know." i ask my boyfriend he nods hugging me a bit
"Of course i will stay with you Angel" He says " now lets go downstairs to see what the demon belle needed" he says i nod going downstairs seeing Charlie working on setting some things up
"there you are Angel, can you help me set some things up, since you're the tallest one here?" she asks i nod helping her set some things up around the hotel
"Hey Charlie, do you think i could tell everyone, y'know, during dinner?" i ask she looks at me worried
"are you sure?" she asks i nod
"Yeah, Al found out too so i know i will be okay, you both were calm about it. i think i will be okay. He promised to stay with me just in case though" I say she nods
" okay then Angel, I don't mind"she says i nod finishing up everything.
soon enough we finish everything and i go with Al back upstairs since he was done working now too we wait until dinner i tell Al that's when i was telling everyone. He nods and holds me close. we talk and watch a few movies while we wait soon enough Charlie calls for dinner we head downstairs where everyone was seated. Charlie looks at me and i nod
"Okay everyone, Angel wanted to say something so please listen.' Charlies says i stand and everyone turns their attention to me, my heart speeds up a bit
"well i.. uh" i pause taking a deep breath. It's okay it would be okay"I just wanted everyone to know. Im transgender, Im a guy. I go by Angel and he him so i would really appropriate i it if you didn't call me Angie or she,her anymore please because im not a girl, i always felt like i was born in the wrong body even when i was alive so even if i might be a biological girl im not actually so i hope you understand. Im willing to answer questions if you have any so i can be as clear as i can" I say nifty jumps up a bit raising a hand up "yes Nifty?" i ask
"so your Angel? im sorry for calling you miss Angel" she says i nod
"It's okay i never said anything so you didn't know
"Why didn't you ever say anything to us before" Husk asks
"I was scared" I say
"Did anyone know before us?" he asks again I hear laughing come from vaggie i answer Husks question
"Charlie did and Al found out about three hours ago.
"stupid bitch, she's doing it for attention or are you really a disgusting t**nny Angie?" Vaggie laughs, that hurt
"Im not doing anything for attention and please don't call my that word, its kinda hurtful"I say trying to keep my cool.
"What t**nny? that's what you are" she says teasingly and full of disgust "disgusting fake" she throws a glass at me and it hits me before Al can catch it which he tried to do. I whimper sitting back down not saying anything else looking down. I hear static behind me pick up
"Al calm down it doesnt matter. Please don't start fight" i whisper he nods trying to calm down. a slap is heard and i look back up to see Charlie had hit Vaggie
"WHAT THE HELL VAGGIE THAT'S NOT OKAY" she yells standing up for me
"who cares, she deserves it" Vaggie says annoyed
"HE! didn't deserve any of that" charlie emphasizes the 'he' getting a bit angry
"she's fine" Vaggie keeps going
"Charlie, please, it doesn't matter. i'm okay. I don't care what Vaggie says. it's okay. It'd okay i knew someone would accept me i don't care so please. No fighting i don't want to see anyone else hurt" i say still looking down feeling blood drip from the deep cut on my face from where she throw the glass at me. I don't mind "may i be excused please?" I ask
"Oh look she's going to go cry about everything now" Vaggie says laughing
"No Vaggie im going to go stop the bleeding on the cut you gave me by throwing something at me and leave you alone so you dont have to deal with a 'disgusting t**nny' like me in your field of view" I say using finger quotes to show what she called me.
"Angel, your not" Charlie is cut off by me
"OF COURSE I AM. I DON'T EVEN CARE ANYMORE SHE'S RIGHT WHAT AM I TO THINK IM NOT THE GIRL I WAS BORN AS. I SHOULD KNOW BY NOW NOT TO SPEAK ABOUT MY OWN GOD DAMNED FEELINGS" i yell "i-i'm sorry i didn't mean to yell" i whisper looking down for a second "I don't even care so don't get mad at her. She's just voicing her opinions so it's okay. I have to go clean myself up and cover this cut before it gets infected" i say leaving before they could say anything else. I go upstairs cleaning the cut and my white fur before bandaging myself up. I then go lay down.
Alastor's POV
I watched Angel leave about to kill Vaggie but then i remember he said he didn't want anyone fighting so i don't
"that was horrible Vaggie. What is wring with you. He was scared enough to say anything and thats probably why."Husk says "He was brave enough to tell us something big to him, something important and not only did you not give a fuck you called him the most hurtful thing you could have. What the hell is wrong with you!" Husk says clearly getting mad "What did he ever, ever do to you to deserve that!?" husk says angrily almost yelling.
"she's a useless slut who doesn't deserve to have her way. She's just a stupid whore that doesn't want to be the girl she is" Vaggie says. everyone gets at least a bit mad
"HE! STOP SAYING SHE! ITS HE" we all yell she scoffs walking away we go to yell but Charlie speaks up
"Angel doesn't want us to fight let her go. Al go check on angel please" she says i go to check on him as asked knocking and not getting a response so i go into our room to see him asleep and I lay with him
"you are so perfect my dear. I love you Angel, sweet dreams" i say holding him close laying down too.
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there is that one. I apologize for it a bit and for kind of leaving it there i didn't want this one to get too too long. Anyways i hope you enjoyed see you all next chapter! Goodbye everyone thanks for reading
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