"I-I..." I took a deep breath and looked him in the eyes "guess we're soulmates, huh?" I said and he laughed nervously. "I think, I think I'm falling in love with you too" I said and I could see his relief in his eyes before he leaned forward and let our lips touch.
This time it was me who deepened the kiss. Without thinking, or really deciding anything, I let myself slowly fall on my back on the couch. Rick followed me down and landed on top of me. I liked the way his body moved against mine, liked the feeling it shot through my body. I let my fingers tangle in his hair and his hands went down my body, feeling my every inch. He was gentle, though, not pushing anything. With other words, not pushing me to do anything I wasn't sure of. He really was too good to me, and I had no idea how the hell I could've ended up with him. How did he find me that day? Where was he really going? I had no idea, and I wasn't sure I wanted to know. The important was that he had found me that day, that he had followed me and continued trying to get through the walls I'd had up when we first met. His tongue brushed lightly on my lower lip asking for permission, I quickly let him in and his taste filled my mouth. My head got dizzy and I could only think of him. How much I wanted him. How much I needed him. How much I had fallen in love with him. It was all him. All this time I had been hiding I had never even thought for once that I would one day find a guy who would fight to keep me safe, to keep me from running away again. A guy who wanted me for me, no matter what I was. I had been, still was, a homeless person. Yet he had come to my rescue and somehow made me feel safe again. He pulled away gently and started kissing my neck. I tried to catch my breath and I had a hard time not moaning from the satisfaction his lips were doing. Suddenly my belly growled and I blushed. Rick pulled away with a chuckle and looked down at me.
"Guess someone's hungry, huh?" he asked and I blushed.
I put my hand around his neck and pulled him down to crash my lips on his again. He chuckled against me but kissed me back. For a second time my belly growled and made Rick chuckle even more. He pulled away and before removing himself from me he pecked my lips.
"Let's get some dinner, shall we?" he said and gave me a hand.
I took it and he pulled me up to my feet. He pulled me into the kitchen and let go of my hand once we were behind the island. He turned around and opened the fridge to see if he could find something to eat. I placed myself behind him and peeked inside from his right arm.
"What do you feel like?" he asked and glanced down at me.
"I don't know, I'm not really hungry" I said and my belly growled for a third time.
I sighed and clenched my eyes, he wouldn't let that slip.
"You're hungry, you can and will eat" he said and looked inside the fridge again.
I mumbled 'fine' and he sighed and then shine up like he got an idea before closing the door and going to a cabinet and opened it. He took out a box on which said 'macaroni and cheese'. I looked at it with big eyes and I could feel Rick's gaze upon me.
"You don't like macaroni and cheese?" he asked a little worried.
I stumbled across my words when I opened my mouth to answer him.
"N-no it's not that, my-uhm... my mom used to make that to me when I was a kid and was home sick from school" I explained and he got why I had had so big eyes staring at the box.
He looked at the box before looking at me again.
"Does that make you not wanting it or do you want some?" he asked carefully.
I stared at the box. The taste from it had so many wonderful memories of my past life, a life I missed too much to be able to describe it.
"I haven't eaten it for ages, yes I want some" I answered and I smiled at him.
He smiled back and started boiling the water. While we waited for it to boil I sneaked into his arms and he wrapped his around me. Once the water boiled we pulled apart and before he continued with his cooking he gave me a quick kiss on my lips. While he was cooking his phone started ringing, and since it was in his office I went to go get it for him. I looked at the caller ID and saw a number I recognized but I couldn't place it. I went back into the kitchen and handed the phone to Rick.
"Thanks" he said before answering the phone.
I tried to look anywhere but on him because I didn't want to seem like I was listening, to be honest I really did try not to listen.
"Who are you?" Rick said into the phone with such a strong voice that I looked at him. "No, I know nothing about a woman with brown hair who was missing this morning. Why would I?" he continued and I looked at him with frightened eyes.
They found me. They found me! What the hell was I gonna do now? I couldn't let Rick stay with me. I had to run! I had to get out of here and never come back. How could I have thought it would've worked?
"What? That doesn't even make sense?! You have the wrong number" he said before hanging up the phone.
I looked up at him with panic forming in my chest. How was this possbile? How had they found me? Was it because of the picture on the tv? It must have been, why didn't I notice the pic sooner? If I had noticed it sooner maybe I could've prevented them from finding me! Rick looked down at me and I could see he followed the line of my thoughts. He got a sad and worried face before he opened his mouth.
"Kate" he said but I cut him off.
"Don't, I need to" I said and he put his arms around my waist.
"No, you don't. They don't know you're here, they can't know you're here" he says and I got tears in my eyes.
"They're not gonna take that shot, they probably called to make sure we were home, they will come here and see for themselves if I'm here or not, I need to go, if not to survive then to save you from the same fate" I said and he shook his head.
His arms tightened around my waist, showing me he wouldn't let go.
"You can't leave me, I just found you" he said and I could hear he had a lump in his throat.
Hearing him have a lump in his throat only made my tears spilling and a lump of my own started building in my throat. I sobbed and I looked down before wiping my tears and looked up at him again.
"I can't put you through the danger, I can't put Alexis through that danger, I can't put Martha, I can't" I said and I started crying. "I can't."
"We can run away together" he suggested.
I chuckled through my tears. I stroke his cheek with my thumb and he leaned into it.
"That would still get you into the danger, plus you can't leave Alexis" I whispered through my lump.
He leaned down and kissed me. His touch warmed me, made me not so cold anymore. But the coldness was still there, the fright was still there. My hands traveled up around his neck, I could feel his hands pulling me closer to his body. We pulled away for air, our forehead still touching.
"Stay" he whispered.
"I" he cut me off with a kiss.
"At least one more day, I don't want you to leave, please" he begged and I felt my tears running down my cheeks.
"Fine, one more day" I whispered before crashing my lips on his.
Once we pulled away he wiped my tears and we decided to eat the food before it got cold. After the food I took his hand and led him into the bedroom. Once his door was closed I crashed my lips on his again. I backed up to the bed and when I fell backwards he gently put me down so that I wouldn't fall for real. He was on top of me and we continued moving our lips together. My hands trembled across his shirt and I started unbuttoning it. When all the buttons were up my shaking hands took off his shirt before running them over his chest. I opened my mouth and asked for permission, he let me in and our tongues found each other within seconds. I felt him hesitating so I grabbed his hand and slipped it under my shirt. I couldn't help but shiver once I felt his warm touch. When he finally cupped his hand around my breast I let go off his hand and went for his pants. It was when I started with his belt that he reacted and pulled away a bit to look at me.
"Are you sure?" he asked surprised and I looked him in the eyes.
I nodded and I felt him looking into my soul, trying to figure out if this was really what I wanted. It was. I wanted him, I wanted to be able to remember and not regret anything. He then kissed me again and we continued. He slipped my shirt over my head and kissed down my neck. I tried to print in every feeling I got from his every touch. I didn't want to forget anything. After all, this would be our only chance. He didn't know, but inside I was crying. Crying because I didn't want to leave him like this. Crying because I didn't want to leave him at all. But later that night, once Rick had fallen asleep, I got dressed and left after watching him sleep for a while. He was so cute when he slept. I walked out of the loft and started my endless walk for my survival, softly crying with every step I took further away from him and the heart I had left with him.