Draco and Harry knew they were going to see eachother today.
Draco didn't show up at breakfast and Harry felt a little worried for the blonde.
Tonight was the night Harry was going to give the little purity he has left to the man he loves. Harry would be excited under other circumstances.
The day was slow, filled with anxiety and Harry couldn't take it.
When the time came there was a soft knock on the door. Harry was sitting on his bed. He's asked Ron and Hermione to leave him for at least two hours.
,,Harry.." Draco mumbled. As soon as he saw the boy, he felt scared. He felt scared he's going to hurt the boy. He was scared he will touch the boy in a way he won't like.
Draco was mostly scared of what's going to happen after their vow is fulfilled.
Harry's eyes were threatening to let tears fall. The blonde male he loved has cheated on him. Harry couldn't hold the tears in any longer and Draco saw them.
,,I'm sorry for what I've done.." Draco says.
,,Why did you do it, Malfoy?" The spiteful tone in Harry's voice hurt but Draco knew he deserved it.
,,I don't even remember doing it, Harry."
,,What?"
,,I don't remember kissing her. At all."
,,Are you not kidding?"
,,I wouldn't dare to. Harry I'm still not on good terms with her. Plus I'm gay."
,,You did it though, Draco... I can't love you if you cheated on me..."
,,I.. I understand, Harry... But.. Give me this night. I want to show you that I love you... And you only."
,,Please... Do it.." Harry mumbled.
Draco softly crashed his lips onto Harry's. Both males haven't even touched the other one in five days and it was hurting them. Their bond was too strong.
,,Harry.. Do you truly want this...?"
,,I think I do, Draco." Harry said, avoiding eye contact.
Soft kisses were placed by Draco on his lover's neck and he sucked on the skin. For one night only, Harry was his. For the last time he could feel his lover's skin against his own.
After a while soft cries escaped the raven haired boy's mouth. They haven't even started yet, Draco was still only kissing the boy's skin. Harry felt the burning emotion between them. It was stronger than ever before. Draco stopped what he was doing and looked at his boyfriend.
,,Harry.." Draco said as he caressed the boy's cheek, wiping Harry's tears away.
,,Please just... Do it." Harry mumbled softly. He didn't necessarily feel aroused, he felt amused by the moment.
He was amused by the wonderful caricature of intimacy that Draco was making of himself.*
He was amused by the way Draco was able to show him love with no words spoken.
Soon, soft moans were heard by the walls from both males. The sounds of their bodies moving against eachother was echoing in the room. The pleasure was too much for Harry and a few tears escaped. Draco made sure to kiss them away.
,,Harry you're beautiful."
Harry's tears didn't stop because he knew that after this intimate moment, it will be the end of them. After this beautiful feeling, he will be alone again.
Draco soon started crying as well, seeing his lover cry made him sad and when he heard Harry's thoughts, Harry was telling him he doesn't want to break up with him but it's for the best, made him break.
,,You're indescribable, love." Draco mumbled as he bit into his lover's jawline gently and then nipped on his ear, earning soft moans from the raven haired boy.
He was still gently rocking his hips against the smaller boy's. The boy was roaming his hands around the blonde's body, feeling his muscles and tracing his snow white skin with his fingers. He missed his lover already.
,,I love you, Harry." Draco said and kissed his boyfriend's neck.
,,I..." Harry couldn't say it back. He just couldn't.
Draco's tears were falling on Harry's face but neither of the males seemed to care. Harry reached his hand out, touched his lover's cheek and kissed him. Softly and passionately.
,,Harry you're ineffable." Draco said after the kiss and rubbed the boy's hair while slowly moving inside of him.
,,Astonishing." Draco mumbled against his lover's neck and placed another few pairs of delicate and soft kisses.
,,D..Draco.. It hurts." Harry mumbled after a few passionate moments.
Well, that was Draco's cue to stop.
,,I'm sorry, love. I never meant to hurt you." Draco still had tears in his eyes, some were falling, some threatened to. He slowly moved away from the crying boy, afraid he would hurt him even more.
He pulled on his t-shirt but Harry stopped him.
,,Don't leave.. Please."
,,I'm here, love." Draco said, slowly laying next to the boy he loved.
Harry spoke no words anymore, he pulled the covers over them and leaned into Draco's chest. Harry was still crying and Draco knew it was his fault.
,,Harry?"
The male only nodded into his lover's chest.
,,Did you do this because of the vow?"
The boy only shook his head and nuzzled into Draco even more.
The two boys fell asleep, both with tears in their eyes. Both knowing they won't be able to lie like this next to eachother anytime soon. Possibly not until the next life.
The morning was painful. Draco woke up first, he looked next to him and saw the boy looking at him with eyes full of sadness.They both knew what was coming.
Harry didn't want to leave his lover's warm embrace. And neither did Draco want then to part. But neither of the boys had control over it anymore.
After hours of laying next to eachother, Draco decides it's time to get up and do what the males are both scared to do.
,,Draco..Just a few more minutes.."
,,I wish we could, Harry.."
,,I wish so as well."
Draco put on his clothes and sat on Harry's bed. Harry was still laying in it, covered by the blanket, still sweaty from last night and Draco still saw the beauty within him.
,,Draco..." Harry sat up, moving next to Draco and even before Draco could react, Harry kissed him. Draco didn't hesitate in kissing back. The sparks were there. As they always were.
Soon, they were both lost again. They were kissing passionately, Harry undressing Draco while they laid on the bed, ready to make love, for the second and last time before they'll have to part their ways. The pain Harry felt was almost unbearable but he did it for his lover. Once they both reached their own end, Draco put on his clothes once again. Harry felt vulnerable. Memories of Cedric came back and he started crying.
Draco quickly looked at the boy he loved and embraced him.
,,What's wrong, Harry? Did I hurt you?" He asked immediately.
,,N..No. It reminded me of Cedric.." Harry cried harder and harder each second and it burnt Draco's ears.
,,I'm sorry, love. I'm so sorry." Draco rubbed the boy's hair and waited for him to calm down, whispering sweet nothings into his ears and communicating through his mind. Even if Harry didn't answer, it calmed him down.
The time has come and both lovers knew it.
,,I'm sorry for the pain I've caused you, my love. You've never hurt me and here I am, hurting you once again." Draco said, unintentionally poetically.
,,And I'm sorry for doing this, Draco... But if we're apart, the enemies we were and are supposed to be.. Maybe it's for the best."
,,Maybe." Draco said as he stood up. Harry was still in his bed, he felt too depressed to even stand up.
But when Draco shifted from the bed, he knew he had to do something before he let his loved one escape.
Harry grabbed Draco's hand, sat up on the bed and kissed him one last time.
,,I love you, Draco." Harry said, tears in his eyes again.
,,I love you too, Harry. But you were far too good for me." Draco said as he kissed Harry's hand where Harry carved the words Neville mentioned. Then he left the room, immediately bursting into tears as soon as he closed the door behind him.
He didn't care for any of the glances that were pointed at him. He didn't care about people that pretended to be worried.
He cared about Harry, and only Harry. Not even himself. Just Harry.
He's reached his destination.
Slytherin bathroom.
The first place the boys have hugged.
The place where Draco finally felt his love for the raven haired boy.
He already missed his lover.
But after his doings, he knew that no matter how hard he tried.
The boy wouldn't come back.
And he would never ever feel that type of love, for anyone.
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* a wonderful caricature of intimacy, a lyric from : Panic! At The Disco - Build God, Then We'll Talk
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the end of book 1
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OOK 2 IS PUBLISHED