Roman's POV
TW: Self harm
I just wanted to disappear.
I wanted to die a cold, lonely death, and have no one mourn for me.
I didn't want anyone to care.
But I worried. I worried about Remus, having to take on the role of being good creativity too. I care about him, even if I don't show it. I worry about Logan, who I now know has been self-harming for.. who knows how long? I worried about Patton. What would he think? I worried about Virgil. Him, having to see Remus every single day?
I worried about Deceit. I don't know why though.
Wait.
I do.
I love him.
But I didn't have the time to think about that, mainly because I wasn't thinking about what I was doing.
I rested my hand on my night table, and stabbed it. I did it again. And again. I started laughing hysterically. What was so funny to me?
I dragged the blade across my arm. Blood stained my white bed sheets. I was about to take my sword to the neck when-
¨ROMAN, STOP!!!¨ Yelled Deceit. ¨PLEASE! WE NEED YOU!!!... I need you.¨
I dropped the blade. ¨What..?¨
Deceit came towards me. ¨Roman, why? I want you to know that you can always talk to me, I'll listen. Because I lo- I mean, I hate you, very much.¨
I'm just gonna (not so) straight-up say it. Then he kissed me.
¨I'm sssorry." He said. ¨I should not have rushed into th-¨
I kissed him again. It felt good. I felt loved. I felt cared about.
¨I guess I hate you too, Deceit." I teased.
He laughed. ¨Let's get you bandaged up, okay?¨ Deceit took a moment and stared out my window. ¨Anyway, I don't think anyone cares about us, love. Since we aren't the protagonists in this book, people are just waiting to see what happens with the protagonists. It almost seems like the author did this on purpose, just to annoy the readers.¨
It was my turn to laugh. ¨You're a handsome idiot.¨
¨Uno reverse card.¨
¨Haha. But, just out of curiosity, who would you say the main characters are?¨
¨Oh, Logan and Virgil. Major angst is about to go down.¨
I remembered how I had put the blades on his desk.
Super easy for him to access....
Wait...
Logan!
Yeah, I broke the fourth wall. Well, Deceit did. You know what, it just seems like something he would do. Anyway, enjoy!