Jayda
He looked at me but I wouldn't look back at him. I just made the decision to come back home, I didn't need anymore on my plate right now.
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"Jayda, why you asked me to come with you?"
I shrugged, we were in my hotel room. I was gathering my things and he was waiting by the door.
"You don't know?"
"No."
"Stop cleaning for a second and look at me."
I stopped cleaning but I didn't move from my spot on the bed. I didn't want to look at him.
"Look at me Jayda."
He'd walked into the room with me and stood over me then placed his hand under my chin so I would look at him.
"Tell me what you want me to do. I'll do whatever you want, just tell me."
"I don't want you to do anything."
He nodded then let go of my face and walked back to his spot at the door.
I finished packing quickly and pushed my bags towards the door. He grabbed all of them and left out the hotel leaving me to walk behind him.
While he went to the car I checked out and then joined him in the car. He was leaning towards his door of the car so I knew he was upset.
I could move past when we first met because I did before but he was a cheating the entire time and has a child on the way.
"Why'd you cheat the whole time?"
He looked at me from the corner of his eye then back to the road
"Is the baby yours?"
"I don't know Jayda."
"You don't know why you couldn't stop cheating on me?"
He waved his hand lightly then continued to drive in silence.
"No. I want to know. You don't get to sit in silence."
I pushed him hard making him almost swerve the car
"Keep yo fucking hands to yo self!"
"Or what? You gone hit me back?"
He placed the car in park quickly making it jerk. I quickly placed my hands on the dashboard then stared at him.
"Dont ever say no stupid shit like that in yo life! This why I kept cheating! I couldn't let you take me seriously, I fucked up the first day I fucking met you! Ain't no coming back from that shit."
He calmed down some
"So no, I won't hit you back. I won't even touch you again, ever."
"I didn't mean to say that."
"Yeah you did, we here. Go in, I'll grab everything."
Clarence
I brought her stuff from the car upstairs to her room. She was sitting in the middle of the bed just looking at me.
"What Jayda?"
My tone was much more harsher than I intended but I was upset
"I still love you."
I walked over the the edge of the bed and sat down with my back towards her.
"I know. I love you too that's why I got to stay away, you need to find better."
"Why can't you be better?"
"I already fucked up. Ain't no starting over."
"Says who?"
"Says you in that car. Says Jordan, says me. You scared of me and you don't trust me. What relationship gone grow through that?"
"So let's not even try, right?"
She was crying and it was fucking me up. I couldn't even look at her.
"Right? Let's just give up and forget about each other."
I twisted my beard just listening to her cry.
"A few hours ago you ain't want nothing to do with me."
"Get out."
"What?"
I peaked over my shoulder at her then received a push.
I stood up and finally faced her but I still was leaned against the bed. She was on her knees pushing at me then finally punching at my chest and stomach. I just let her go, she wasn't hurting me and after a few seconds she stopped and rested her head against me.
I wrapped my arms around her and held her close. I grabbed her thighs and picked her up then laid us both down.
"Give it time, mama."
She played with my beard as she stopped crying. I missed her so much it was bothering me that I dogged her out like this.
I ain't never felt bad about doing me in a 'relationship' but Jayda got to a nigga, bad.
"You gone stay the night?"
"I don't know."
She shifted against me but I held her still. She needed to relax and think about this.
"Call that nigga and tell him you good. He come up here again I'm gone shoot his ass."
She pulled her phone from her hoodie pocket and called him.
"Hey, you good?"
"Yeah, I'm fine."
"You sure? Say Cockatoo if you need help."
She laughed and smiled
"I'm okay, Chris. Talk later."
"Alright Twinkle Toes."
"That nigga like you."
"Probably. He's harmless though."
"I miss you mama. A whole lot."
"You did?"
"Yeah. I was damn there living at the jail with Jordan. I fell asleep in my car one time. He talked about you all the time, everything was about Jayda."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah. He miss the hell out of you too. The first time I went to see him, he said you wouldn't forgive him for being away because you two were so close."
"I just wanted to know. A lot of this could've been avoided if Jordan told me even a little bit. I'm not stupid, I knew he didn't have a real job so there were only a few other options."
She was talking so lightly she was almost whispering
"Your throat still hurt?"
She nodded
"You want some Starbucks or something?"
"Yeah."
"Order it."
I handed her my phone with Postmates open and let her order her food.
"You want something?"
"Not from there. Go to Popeyes and order the 6 piece spicy with double fries and a coke, then get whatever you want."
"What about Jordan and Ace?"
"They good."
I laughed then called them to come into the room, after a few seconds they entered the room.
"Y'all want Popeyes?"
"Yeah. Get that 6 piece."
Jordan nodded at us in agreement.
"Let me talk to you."
He waved me up and out the room
"Be nice Jordan."
Jayda spoke out to him then gained a nod.
Once we stepped back into the hallway he spoke.
"I wanted you to leave my sister alone."
"I'm trying. I told her to just give it time."
"How you trying? Y'all in there laid up. Look Clarence on some real shit, I'm saying this as her big brother and not yo mans. If she come up hurt behind you again you gone have to kill me."
I nodded my head at him once. We shared a handshake then went separate ways.
"Aye."
He stopped me
"Make my shit spicy, thanks dawg."