Tina's P.O.V
I don't know what to think about this, I mean it is amazing knowing that he actually wants to be with me for the long run. And that he wants to be with me even though I have the boys, he loves them. He wants to be a family...
This is something that I thought would never happen to me, a lot of guys always think that they will have more drama with someone who has kids.
"Ok, now don't go overboard with thinking about this. Don't overthink it babe." Milo comes up from behind me to wrap his arms around me, "I want this, I want to be with you and the boys. I do see a future with you, and I know that it may be a bit soon to say that, but I really can't see myself with someone else." he snuggles into my neck, making me blush and think about this even more. But in a good way.
"I was just thinking about how amazing you are, and how this seems like a dream. I never thought I would actually get involved with anyone while I have the boys, and then to have you actually love them and care for them?" I sigh dreamily. "It doesn't seem real to me." I giggle when he kisses my neck.
"Well, baby girl, this is real, I want to be with you and the boys. I want to be their father..." I can feel him blushing in my neck, saying that out loud to me again.
He clears his throat then straightens up and spins me around, making me giggle again. "I really do think that I can do this, I know I can. I want this to happen, but I will understand if it's going to fast for you too." He blushes again.
His voice ...gah...not fair at all.
"It's not going fast, like I said that it is something that I have thought about too, it's just...it's so unreal that I can't wrap my head around it. Like...you're so attractive, I'm not even that attractive, I'm scrawny, I have two sons that are my world." I trail off thinking about how I should just stop talking about it...
"You're beautiful, so I don't even know what you're talking about there. You're one of the most beautiful girls around here. And I know that those boys are you're world, I remember Sam telling me about them when he was trying to see if I was gay or not." We laugh thinking about that.
I was so freaked out from that, like why the hell did my best friend give out my number to some random person?!
"I remember him telling me that you would love my voice, and how tall I am, and how I seemed like a really caring guy." He smirks when I feel my face just get hot, no one has mentioned this to me.
"That's embarrassing." I mumble, hiding my face in his chest. I can not believe that he did that to me, and not even tell me that he did something like that.
He's not wrong, those are things that I am a total sucker for. Which sucks because I don't those to be one of the things that has me falling for someone, but you can't help what you like and don't like....
Ugh. It makes me feel like a bad person when I think about it.
"It's ok, kind of intrigued me more to contact you. Especially after he showed me a picture of you with Tyler and Thomas, he told me that I was making heart eyes at his phone." He confesses, chuckling nervously.
I smile up at him then leaned up to kiss him, he is literally perfect, I wouldn't know what to do right now. As bad as that sounds, but having him here for as long as he has been here...it's amazing. (A/N - someone who has read this....wanna let me know how long Milo has actually dated her? Or let me know if I have said somewhere ....heh...that would be awesome of you and I will love you and become friends, if you want lol)
"But I really do want to talk about this more though and see how you want to go about this." He goes back to sounding serious, and his voice has gotten a bit deeper....
"Mommy! Tommy bit my finger!" Tyler comes in screaming, making us jump apart.
I feel myself blush, even though I don't know why, wasn't like anything was about to happen.
"He bit you?! Why did he bite you?" Milo recovers quickly from what happened and then walks over to pick him up, "What happened?" He walks into the living room with Ty on his hip.
"We were playing cars and then he didn't like something that happened and he-he-he bit me." Ty sounded so spunky with Tommy.
"Tommy...." I hear Milo say slowly, I hear him chuckle too which means that Tommy just gave him a cheeky smile. "Now why did you bite your brother?" I can just picture him kneeling down to talk to him, setting Ty down beside him, "That's not nice buddy." He scolds.
I walk in and see that Tommy is pouting at the both of them, I lean against the wall and watch as Tommy tries to get out of being in trouble.
"Now no more biting, that isn't very nice Thomas." Milo frowns, knowing that Tommy knows when he's in trouble when we frown at him.
Tommy just looks down and nods his head at Milo, he babbles a little bit, maybe an apology.
"I fordiv yew Tommy." Tyler sighs and sits beside his brother and hugs him, Tommy snuggles into his neck.
That melts my heart, and makes me hope that they can be like this when they are older too. I'd hate for them to grow apart once they are older.
Milo comes back over to me, wrapping his arms around me again. Before he could say anything Sam comes walking in, sees that we were about to talk, looks to the boys and winks and nods his head at me. Letting me know he has the boys while we go talk.
Sam knows what Milo asked, he knows how I feel about it and how I am going to have to start talking with Milo more about stuff than with him. He's a little put off by it but he knows that I will always go to him without meaning to, because that's how it's always been, it will be an adjustment once everything is settled.
I give Milo a little nudge towards the kitchen again and close the door so we can have some privacy.
"I would really love it if we could get more close with each other and start doing more together with the boys. They love you and like having you around, they already listen to you and trust you. Which is something that I was scared about, because I'm sure I told you what happened with them, I was scared that they wouldn't like anyone else after that, but they love you and love having you around and Tyler is so comfortable with you. And I love that but it also scares me because it has me thinking that we won't last and I know it's just a scary thought and I worry about how it will affect the boys..." I trail off to take a breath, because wow...
"Breathe baby," Milo pulls me to his chest, using his soothing voice, "I'm being honest when I tell you that I can't see myself with someone else, I love those boys with all of my heart. I really do, just seeing them happy makes my day, seeing them and talking with them makes my day that much better. I love seeing you with them because it makes my heart so happy seeing you being an amazing mother to those boys." He starts swaying us side to side.
This isn't real.
It can't be. Not with this amazing guy, I honestly think that I am dreaming. I don't know what to think about it. I mean, I love it, obviously, but knowing that he actually wants this with me and knowing that he actually wants to be a father....
I sigh dreamily again, holding him a little tighter.
"This really seems like a dream to me yet," I confess quietly, it's something that he doesn't like to hear but it is something that is hard to believe.
"It is real babe, I want all of this, you're an amazing girl who has two amazing little boys and it is something that I have always wanted, a family with a beautiful girl...have a nice place to raise the kids, make sure I am able to provide for them, protect them as much as I can..." He blushes again. "Sorry, I really don't get this mushy." He chuckles nervously.
"I like this side of you." I giggle, getting up on my tip-toes to kiss his cheek. "It's really cute if I'm honest."
We just start the whole, 'Oh yeah?' 'Yeah.' teasing each other and it gets a little tense...
"Ok, ok, ok! PG please!!" Sam comes barging in, making me push Milo away from me with a red face, Milo looks the same. Even more embarrassed because he has a problem.
I cover my mouth and giggle, he shoots me a look and I giggle some more.
"Sorry to break this up but it sounded like you two were doing more than talking and Tyler nearly came in here." Sam smirks at me. I glare at him, "Come on Baby Girl, you know that you have to keep it in your pants until you are on your own." He smirks at me again.
I stick my tongue out at him, making him laugh letting me know that he is just teasing me, I look at Milo and his cheeks are flushed, he looks all ruffled up and his eyes are still dark. I bite my lip and look away from them both.
Ok, so we haven't done anything other than kiss, and as you can tell the tension between us has intensified, but we don't want to do anything until we are both sure that we are ready for that big step, and that we have gone to do some testing before hand too.
I know that a lot of people don't think about that, but we want to be safe, make sure that neither of us have anything before we make take that big step with each other. Not going to lie, that was an awkward conversation to have, but we had to have it. And I would have to go on birth control, because it is too early to be having children together.
That all made me feel like I was much older than I am, no one has ever told me about this, but I overheard some other women talking about it and how more people need to do that before they get serious in a relationship, just because you never know if your previous partner had anything, it's just the safe thing to do. No one wants to think about that, or have that kind of talk before they do anything, but you should do it. Just to be safe.
"I have to go do some errands, I'll be back to help with supper though." Milo comes over and gives me a kiss and waves at Sam and heads out.
"You should go get all of that done soon, just let me know when and I'll take the boys out." Sam comes over and hugs me, I sigh and lean into him some more, we never cuddle anymore. Or we haven't in a long time. "But just let me Baby Girl and I'll take them for lunch." He picks me up by my thighs and I hang onto him tighter, I squealed because that was so unexpected but laugh once we make it to the living room.
We just play with cars with the boys for the next couple of hours, along with other things like colouring and that. Until Milo gets back and we make the spaghetti together.
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Ok, the chapters are getting a little longer and I am hoping that you are liking them :D
I really don't think that I will add any smut....just because I don't think that it will fit in with the story. But I had to add that in because it was also one of the talks, but I couldn't write it out lol
But yeah, I hope you like this chapter !! <3
Rae<3