NAMJOON POV
I couldn't believe it.
As I walked back out in the living-room with her I couldn't stop thinking about the painting. She made that from her heart...she put thought into it...she...she...
I stopped in my tracks turning towards her taking her off guard. I pushed her against the wall again and I couldn't stop myself from pressing my lips against hers. The feeling I get, the adrenalin pumping through me was so overwhelming. The need to kiss her, to love her, was all I could think about.
I needed her.
The kiss was sloppy as my need for her drove me. I couldn't think straight; in fact, I couldn't think about anything else but her. Her body, mind, and soul. I wanted all of it. I wanted her more than I ever wanted anyone.
Could I tell her that?
She started to tap on my arm and he realization that we both were losing our breath hit me and reluctantly I pulled back from the lip lock. I stared into her beautiful blue eyes, and panted not allowing myself to move too far from her.
"Thank you." I whispered to her before she could say anything. "Thank you so much." I closed my eyes and rested my head against her shoulder. Her arm came up and softly rubbed my back. "You mean so much to me, and that painting says so much. I don't even know if you intended what I interpreted but...its beautiful." I kissed the soft skin of her neck. "You're beautiful." I kissed her again. She didn't say anything, and we stayed like that in each other's arms for a few minutes before I pulled back. "I'm sorry...no one has ever given me something that they made before...it means a lot."
"I'm just glad you liked it." She smiled making my heart rise in my chest.
"I loved it." I took her hand again and pulled her softly to follow me to the living-room. We sat down and I let out a breath before looking into her confused eyes.
"You look like you're about to be sick, Namjoon. Are you okay?"
"I am great." I smiled. "I'm just...overwhelmed with how I feel right now that's all." She nodded and I moved to take out my wallet where the receipt for the payment was. "I didn't wrap it." I told her. She watched me intently and I pulled the folded paper from my wallet and handed it to her.
She took it from me and started unfolding it making my heart race. I really didn't want her to be upset. When she had it all the way open her eyes scanned the ink. I wasn't sure if she was grasping what it was until I saw her hand lift to cover her mouth and her eyes fill with tears. Immediately I could see several little drops fall from her eyes and she moved to stand off the couch, clutching the receipt in her hands. She fell to her knees making me move to mine, and she leaned forward pressing her head to the carpet of the living room. I heard her take in a deep breath before a harsh sob escaped her and it made my heart clench.
"Baby...I...are you...what's wrong? I'm sorry...are you upset?" I rubbed her back and I could feel her shake with each sob she let out. I felt as if my heart was being ripped apart, seeing her so upset like this was agonizing. "Y/N..."
She lifted up and sat on her heels, her face was red and her eyes bloodshot with tears running down her cheeks. She still had the receipt clutched in her hand in a fist, holding it against her heart.
"H-how d-did you d-do th-this?" She asked through her cries.
"I had help." I said swallowing thickly. "Jin was there to authorize it."
Her beautifully sad eyes searched mine before she spoke again. She sniffed and let out another sob before being able to get her words out. "Why?" she asked me. "Why would you..."
"I don't want you to have any more reminders of what happened." I said looking her dead in the eye. "I want you to only see me, to only think of me, and you having that kind of monthly reminder of someone who didn't deserve you..." I shook my head letting out a sigh. "I couldn't let you do it anymore. You need to be happy. I need you to be happy." I said to her.
I watched as more tears fell down her face and she swallowed hard. "I don't love you because of your money Namjoon...being with you makes me happy, you didn't have to do this."
I stared at her wide eyed not sure if I heard her correctly. I opened my mouth and shut it again, trying to keep focus for at least this moment. "I never thought you were, or would ever, use me because of my money." I said taking a deep breath trying to calm my heart. "I just wanted this to be behind you. Behind us."
She scooted her knees forward and wrapped her arms around me, and I pulled her to my lap. She had one knee on each side of my thighs, sitting on my lap, and her body trembled through her tears. I could feel all the strength in her body tense as he held onto me so tightly. "Thank you." She cried. "Oh my god...Namjoon thank you. I...I don't know what else to say to you." She let out a few more sobs her hand moving to hold the back of my head.
My heart beat so fast I knew she could feel it, and part of me thought I was going to have a heart attack. She said it. She said 'love,' I know she did. I held her tightly to me and took a deep breath.
"You can say it again." I said as softly as I could.
"Thank you." she said. "I just can't believe you did this for me."
I suddenly felt sick, thinking maybe she didn't realize she said it. I was going to ignore it not wanting to make the situation worse but then she moved to face me. She must have dropped the receipt because she cupped my face in her hands and placed a wet kiss on my lips. She moved them over mine in the most heart warming and delicate way. When our lips parted, she leaned back so she could look at me and he ran her fingers through my hair.
I knew there was more she was going to say so I waited for her to regulate her breathing so she had the energy to speak.
"I love you." She whispered out. I felt my entire bode ignite on fire as I listened to every word she spoke. "I love you so much, and I have loved you for a long time Kim Namjoon. I was so afraid to say it out loud because I didn't want to scare you away, but I should have told you the moment I knew it. And I will tell you, and show you every day how much I love you in any and every way I can. You are a good man..." she hiccuped and took a deep breath. "...you are such a good man; you have a good heart. You are kind and thoughtful, and you treat me so well. Your father would be damn proud of the man you are today, and I know he is looking over you and he can see what kind of son he raised. Namjoon....I...I don't know how I can ever repay you for-"
I leaned forward stopping her words with a kiss. Just by her words I feel even deeper in love with her. I took her face in my hands and wiped away all the tears that were making their way down her cheeks. "All I want is you." I said to her as I kept her face in my hands. "I don't want any repayment; I don't want anything in return but you. Only you."
"I'm yours." She replied.
I pulled her in for another kiss, and it was deep, and passionate and full of love. I had never known her to be so strong. I could feel the muscles all over her body tighten; her desperate grip on me holding firm. Her thighs contracted around mine, and her arms locked me in place. I took her by the back of her thighs and pulled her up and sat her on my lap as I sat on the couch. She was no longer crying and she intensified he kiss tilting her head.
She grinded down into me and I could feel my arousal stirring. It wasn't fair how easily she turned me on...it was if she had a power over me.
I loved it.
And I loved her.
We both breathed heavily through our noses, before she pulled her lips away from mine kissing down my jawline. Her lips were soft, and her tongue swiped against my skin as she made her way down my neck. I was only getting harder as she kissed me and I grunted as she grinded into me again.
"Make love to me Namjoon." She whispered in my ear. I felt the chills flush through my body and my mind was spinning. "Please?" she continued. "I need you."
I took her by the roots of her hair and pulled her so that she was facing me. She wasn't crying anymore, instead she was panting heavily, lips swollen and eyes shining with love.
I nodded to her, and pulled her into my lips again.
I would never say 'no' to making love to her.
Never.