Love.
Or Like.
What is it? What does it feel like?
"It's the feeling you get when a particular person makes you feel at home and you want to be closer to them." I say.
"It's when you think: 'This is it.' The fleeting feeling of happiness- may it be only for a few months or years- it makes you feel so close to someone else." I say.
How do I know when I like someone?
"When you feel a rather strong emotion compared to how you feel around your friends or your family. A new feeling of joy towards a specific person." I say.
But it's kinda stupid
Because I, myself, don't know that feeling.
I'm not trying to be super edgy but
It just feels so... empty.
You know, maybe I do like someone
but I'm just not sure what to feel, which is why I keep denying it.
Sounds stupid, huh?
Liking someone but you aren't sure because you don't know what it's like to have that feeling.
Maybe I'm just so deprived of love.
I love my friends, but I don't know,,,, they used to have their significant others or are still getting that girl/boy they like
While I'm just... here.
I'm too dependent on them.
Yeah, I tell them what I really feel.
But honestly? I never really told them much about stuff like this.
Because I keep saying "Oh studies should be a priority right now." "High school isn't the best place to find what you're looking for."
I keep pushing it away, saying I don't really like anyone.
And they were hesitant, but believed me.
I painted a stupid picture of a person that doesn't feel a particular emotion.
Yeah, I used to say I liked someone
but it was either a lie or just because I thought they looked really nice- but I was not intending on being closer to them.
OH- I'm not saying aromantic people are dumb
I'm saying I'm dumb because I don't know what to fucking feel
And it's not like there are much people are interested in me either so :/
I don't know,, I want to experience,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
holding someone's hand,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,
dnfjfdk im getting a little uwu
no but really
i want to know that feeling
I just can't,,,,,,,, i don't know
this is so confusing
I barely cry or show really heavy emotions in front of my friends
yes, I do have emotions,
but love? It's just so......... empty.
I'm talking out of my ass when I tell people how it's supposed to feel
But I don't even have those feelings myself.
It's so dumb.
Love is so stupid
I'm right fucking here and it dont see me