(Still in Tom's point of view). Thursday, October 17 2002
Agh, I don't know what to do now. This morning, began to feel like crap. Yea, I know I haven't been away from her to start talking like this, but when you are really in love with someone, you want to spend every second together (at least I do). I haven't felt this happy in a while, and I like this feeling of being happy.
Ugh, even walking to the bus stop now has become a bore. The girls at our bus stop, come up to me and start talking to me,
"hey, Tom where's your girlfriend at?" Stacey says in a rude tone.
"She's still in the hospital, and why do you care?"
"Well, since you both and that girl of yours got my boyfriend arrested again, I feel like, you're a threat to me now."
Wow. I couldn't believe what Stacey just said to me. I wanted to tell her what was really going on, but the bus came, and I really didn't tell like talking to anyone right now.
It didn't feel the same, sitting in the sit where Jazmine always sits. I didn't want to be here, I wanted to be right next to Jazmine.
We arrive at school, and I already feel like crap. I just went to my locker, grabbed my stuff and headed to class. Didn't even talk to Bill.
Classes seem FOREVER. I couldn't wait until art. I wanted to talk to Bill about something.
(boring class...)
Finally the bell rang to go to 3rd period. I waited for Bill at the lockers until the warning bell rang. He didn't show up. I got a little worried. I walk into class and luckily, I saw Bill and sat next to him.
"hey Bill, why weren't you at your locker?"
"hi Tom, I thought you were mad at me because you didn't talk to me this morning like you always do."
"i'm sorry. I'm not mad at you. I'm still just sad about Jazmine."
"oh, it's ok. I just don't want you to be mad at me. Don't worry Jazmine is coming back. She isn't gone forever."
"true."
"Hey Bill I want to talk to you about something."
"yea, what's up?"
"well, you know we've been wanting to start a band for a while . And I think now I a good time. Start young, become worldwide, and do this forever. Living the dream."
"that sounds great Tom, but I don't we could become worldwide stars. We might not even get the chance to do this for a life time. Well, since we are serious about this, when we get home we have to talk to mom about this. If she says yes, then we have to start writing music, and going down to bars, to see if we can find anybody who wants to be in our band."
"alright. I hope mom says yes. Oh and I have thought about some guitar parts, that I have written down."
(hands Bill the paper. The parts are for Durch Den Monsun.)
"wow Tom these, are pretty awesome. i'll start thinking about some lyrics...."
(it's pouring rain, just to keep in mind readers.)
(another thing, I don't know how the idea of the song came about, but this is a story so don't believe this..)
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I say,
"it's really pouring rain outside. I haven't seen this much rain, since the last monsun, remember that Bill? It was in the summer and we had to run inside really fast, I thought it would never stop raining."
"Oh my gosh! Tom, you're a genius!"
"Well, ha yea I know. But why?"
"You just gave me the idea of the song name, and what some lyrics should me. The song should be called, "Durch Den Monsun" and it should be about someone running through it, trying to run with their true love. I will think about this all day."
"Ok cool, Bill."
The bell rang, and I went off to class. The rest of the day, went by pretty quick. I couldn't wait to talk to Bill and the song, go home to talk to mom about this, and hopefully go and see Jazmine at the hospital. Just seeing her, makes me feel better.
(boring... Class class class, schools over)
Finally, schools over. I walked down to my locker, and I see Bill extremely Excited.
"Tom, Tom!! I have written an amazing song, look!"
(Hands me the paper)
"Yea, these lyrics will go get with my guitar part."
"I know, can't wait to play it, and show mom."
"yea, let's get to the bus and hurry home."
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Here are the lyrics,
Das fenster öffnet sich nicht mehr
Hier drin' ist es voll von dir - und leer
Und vor mir geht die letzte kerze aus
Ich warte schon 'ne ewigkeit
Endlich ist es jetzt soweit
Da draußen zieh'n die schwarzen wolken auf
Ich muss durch den monsun
Hinter die welt
Ans ende der zeit
Bis kein regen mehr fällt
Gegen den sturm
Am abgrund entlang
Und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, denk'ich daran
Irgendwann laufen wir zusammen
Durch den monsun, dann wird alles gut
'N Halber mond versinkt vor mir
War der eben noch bei dir
Und hält er wirklich was er mir verspricht
Ich weiss, dass ich dich finden kann
Hör' deinen namen I'm orkan
Ich glaub noch mehr dran glauben kann ich nicht
Ich muss durch den monsun
Hinter die welt
Ans ende der zeit
Bis kein regen mehr fällt
Gegen den sturm
Am abgrund entlang
Und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, denk'ich daran
Irgendwann laufen wir zusammen
Weil uns einfach nichts mehr halten kann
Durch den monsun
Hey! Hey!
Ich kämpf mich durch die mächte, hinter dieser tür
Werde sie besiegen und dann führn sie mich zu dir
Dann wird alles gut - Dann wird alles gut
Wird alles gut - Alles gut
Ich muss durch den monsun
Hinter die welt
Ans ende der zeit
Bis kein regen mehr fällt
Gegen den sturm
Am abgrund entlang
Und wenn ich nicht mehr kann, denk'ich daran
Irgendwann laufen wir zusammen
Weil uns einfach nichts mehr halten kann
Durch den monsun
Durch den monsun
Dann wird alles gut
Durch den monsun
Dann wird alles gut
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We get home and I grab my guitar, and started playing. Bill starting singing where he felt he needed to sing, and it sounded amazing. I think our mom was listening in, because I saw my door move a little.
When we were done playing, our mother came bursting in saying
"oh my goodness! That was so amazing, I'm so proud of you guys!"
"well in that case, Tomorrow, after school could you drive us, to Magdeburg, for the weekend? We really want to start a band, but we want to find a bassist and a drummer too." Bill says
"Sure, of course, Magdeburg is a great place to start since they have a big record company there. That's where I meet your father and now he is going to start a music school."
"awesome thanks mom."
"hey mom, could we drive down to the hospital? I really want to see Jazmine, and know if her condition changed." I say
"yea, let me grab my purse. We can get dinner to. How does pizza sound?"
"great."
Bill and I get in the car as we wait for our mom.
"I couldn't believe mom is letting us do this." Bill says
"I know right. So weird, but i'm really glad at the same time."
We get to the hospital, and I go up to Jazmine's room. She hasn't really changed. The swelling in her face went down, she has some cuts on her face and a black eye. I wish this didn't happen to her. I whisper in her hear,
"hi Jazmine, it's Tom. I don't know if you can hear me, but Bill and I are going to start a band. I have been wanting to do this for a while, I wanted to tell you, but I kinda can't right now. I want to tell you that I love you."
I kiss her on the forehead, and walk out of the room. We went and got the pizza, drove home, and ate the pizza. I went to my room and looked at the ceiling. Tomorrow was going to be another boring day.
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