《Matt》I breathlessly called out in the middle of the night.《Matthew》
I could feel a strong weight on my stomach, not allowing me to breathe right. I suddenly felt extremely sad and cold, for no apparent reason. I blinked frantically and tried to move my right hand on Matt's side of the bed, hoping he would wake up. With my other hand, I took a tight grip on the blanket, my knuckles turning white.
《Baby?》Matt whispered softly with his husky sleeply voice. --《Baby what's wrong? Why are you crying?》he was now alarmed as he quickly sat up and wrapped his warm long arms around me, pulling me against his chest.
《M-Matt-》my breaths died in my throat.
《It's okay, I got you》he sweetly whispered into my ear, his warm breath tickling my skin. --《I'm right here. I'm not going anywhere, you hear me? I'm right here》
《I'm so sorry, I'm a mess》I sobbed against his chest. His grip around me tightened so he pulled me even closer.
《You're not, little thing. You're the best thing ever happened to me. Without you in my life it all felt so empty, everything was black and white. You brought some color in, you-.. you're the best part of me, you make me a better man》Matt tried to soothe me, his warm voice making its way to my heart.
《I- I just wish I- could lock these thoughts out b-but-》
《It's okay, everything will be okay. Come here》Matt let go of our hug so he could lie down. He then sweetly grabbed my arms and carried me back in his arms. I placed my head on his chest, as he started caressing my hair slowly and in a very sweet way, twirling his fingers through it gently.
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I breathed in and out, mimicking his chest's movement going up and down. He kept whispering sweet nothings into my ear, and in that exact moment I felt lucky. I was lucky to have him into my life, and he probably didn't know the half of it.
《I love you》I blurted out, my voice shaking. --《God, I love you so much Matthew》
《I love you too》he blew a small kiss on my head. I felt his lips curving up into a small as he did so. --《And I genuinely wish we could just stay like this forever》
《Yeah, that'd be nice》I sniffled up with my nose.
《I will never let you go, kobie. And I can't wait to call you my wife》he moved a little under my body and looked up at the ceiling. --《We could buy a nice house with a wide garden, that would make you and Buddy happy, huh》
A small chuckle slipped out of my lips. I drew imaginary circles on his chest and listened carefully to each and every word he spoke.
《We could have as many bedrooms as our children. We could buy matching pajamas for Christmas and sing carols in front of our beautiful tree, next to our cozy fireplace, hot chocolate in our hands》he smiled from cheek to cheek, I almost melted. --《We could have a picnic at the park during Spring time. And go to beach Summer vacations. We could visit Disneyland, and Legoland, and Zoo-s. Lots of Zoo-s. The kids will so love it》
《How many kids?》I joined him with warm cheeks. Did he really want to have children with me?
《I don't know. Three? Five? Doesn't matter as long as they're ours》
I raised my head up and stared at him. --《Are you being serious right now?》
《Why wouldn't I be?》he raised his left eyebrow.
I shook my head and smiled as widely as I could, my cheeks almost hurting. I leaned in and locked my lips with his. The way he kissed me was a little different than how he used to, it was somehow even sweeter.
《I mean.. if you want twelve kids I can do that》he had a shy smile plastered on his gorgeous face.
《Well now, that's a lot of toddlers at once》I laughed, moving back on his chest.
《What about we rent a farm? We could have cows, pigs, some hans, a couple of dogs. Maybe some horses too》
《About that.. how's Gwendolyn?》I teased.
《How do you know about Gwendolyn??》Matt cheerfully laughed, his chest moving under my head.
《Harry told me》I laughed back.
《She's doing great. She's happy, healthy, she loves to dance. I will take you to her first thing when we get to New York, I promise》
《I can't wait》I chuckled,《Will you like.. introduce us? Will she be like "nice to moot you?"》
《She's lovely, she will probably lick your face though. But she's a very friendly cow》
《Ew, that's gross》
《That's mootiful》Matt joked, I brust into laughter and snuggled up into his arms a little more. --《Let's just try to sleep now, okay?》