Contains a little smut
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For weeks the guys had been so lovey-dovey and hugging you every chance they had. While you made dinner, while you were napping on the couch, while you had just left the bathroom. Almost every second of every minute that they had with you, they had either their arm or eyes on you. You knew why. They were afraid of losing you again and didn't want you out of their sight.
But at times, you just wanted to be alone. You had people around you at work, people around you on the bus and people around you at home. The only alone time you got was when you were sitting on the toilet.
"Hey, you've been in there a long time. Are you alright?"
"Yeah," you half-heartedly responded. You didn't even go to the toilet you just stood in there. It's not like you were getting sick of the back massages or the attention-sometimes you just needed to be alone. Some nice music, a bottle of wine and your computer. After flushing and washing your face in the sink they both entered. The tiny bathroom wasn't enough for the three of you but the boys were concerned.
"Doll, are you sure you're okay?" Bucky's brow furrowed.
"Yeah, I think I'm just hungry and tired. I might go to bed early tonight," you kissed their cheeks as you squeezed through the two hunky bodies.
Just as Steve was going to follow you Bucky had stopped him, "don't. I think I know what's going on,"
"What?"
"You remember how I was after I got back?" Steve sighed at Bucky's question. Of course he did; his best friend didn't make it back from the war until he had gone through extensive therapy. Once again, Steve didn't feel like enough., "there's nothing we can do besides give her some space. We'll bunk tonight, give her some alone time," Bucky slapped his buddy's chest.
After a few days of them staying away from you seemed to work okay at first but soon you became paranoid. Steve was performing too well. Whenever you walked into a room he seemed to leave and he hadn't slept in the same bed as you for days. It was killing him but he didn't want you to suffer.
You had been talking more with Bucky, he explained that they'd let you have some alone time but this past week has been even lonelier than when you were actually tied up. You didn't enjoy it at all, you missed them. You missed Steve's surprise hugs from behind and the way Bucky pressed his body so tightly against yours; you missed sitting with them on the sofa just all lying over each other.
You were clinging onto Steve's arm one day and when he decided to leave for work you whimpered, "No," catching yourself acting like a child you frowned, "sorry," that was humiliating. Storming back to Steve's room you felt tears making their way out of your ducts.
"Hey! What's wrong?" Steve turned you gently, you kept your eyes closed trying not to make a fuss.
"Nothing, I'm good," your tears betrayed you by falling down your cheek. Steve felt so guilty, all he wanted to do was cuddle you all day and all night but he's kept his distance because of Bucky's advice. Perhaps Bucky was wrong though.
"Come on...tell me," you couldn't look him in the eye. You knew they were sad and desperate to know what was wrong.
"I just-I don't know. I'm just being emotional-"
"No. Don't. Don't invalidate your feelings," he told you.
"I just haven't felt good for a while. I've been thinking that you guys have gotten tired of me. It sounds stupid I know-I just. I need you to know that I love you," you cupped his cheek, he felt so guilty for being too distant.
"I love you. I know things have been really hard-just awful. And I know I haven't been the best...anything. I just want you to know that I am here for you if you need me. We're still figuring out this whole relationship thing, and each other with that. You're all I want, sweetheart. I don't want to go to work I just wanna stay here and lie in bed with you all day-I really do," he smiled when he noticed you did. Steve tilted your face up towards his and planted a sweet peck on your lips, "I'll see you soon".
"What am I gonna do with myself?" you muttered. Steve smirked at his dirty thoughts and received a slap to the chest, "shut up!"
"I didn't even say anything!"
"I know what you're thinking," you felt the heat rise up your neck. Steve took hold of your hips.
"Oh yeah? What am I thinking?" that playful glint in his eye was enough for you to bring him in for a longer more intimate kiss, your hands travelled down his torso and dipped into his underwear, not yet touching his already hardening shaft, only around it.
"You get any closer and we won't be leaving this room for a while," his husky voice only sent more fire through you.
"Okay, okay," you stepped back, "go to work, I'll be here,"
"Bucky should be finishing his shift soon, he'll be home soon," Steve's eyes travelled down your body, you were only wearing his shirt and some socks, not an exciting sight but to him you might as well have been nothing but a pair of heels, "don't get too crazy without me," he kissed your forehead and left. Rogers had no idea how he was going to make it through 8 hours of Stark annoying him but at least he knew you had some comfort.
Although being without the guys now gives you some alone time. Much needed alone time. You had waited about 20 minutes for Bucky to come home but that nagging feeling of pressure kept building inside of you. Breathing to calm yourself didn't help nor did watching tv. Maybe you could get away with touching yourself just this one time so you scurried off to Bucky's room and put on some music to get you in the mood. Deep breath in, you stripped down and got comfy on the bed.
Your fingers danced around your waist as thought about your boyfriends. All together in Bucky's bed, he'd start it all off by kissing your lips and dragging them down your body while Steve rutted against your ass. Bucky would nip and knead your breasts while Steve would be sucking hickeys on your neck and gripping your ass, slapping it every now and then.
"Ah," you squeaked while your fingers continued circling your entrance, making sure not to think too much about climaxing just yet.
You could imagine their warmth from both sides. Buckys cock would tease your front while Steve would grind against your back, both men grunting just a little bit-wanting nothing more than to be inside of you.
"How should we have her, Stevie?" Bucky's husky voice would ask, separating his lips from yours and turning your head to connect with Steves. His tongue would slip into you as Bucky brushed your clit with his cock making you jump.
"I want her mouth," Steve demanded, his eyes not leaving yours. He would take joy in the sounds you made while between them, bent over and moaning like crazy.
You had to readjust yourself as you become wetter at the crude thoughts, almost reaching the top of the mountain. "Mmm," you let out some much-needed air, "yes Bucky," you whimpered as you imagined his entering you with ease. You could feel yourself getting closer and closer when you pictured Steve in your mouth. Thinking about them at the same time seemed a little naughty but oh so right. "Oh yes," you felt that knot untie itself from within you. Whole body seizing up and that great release of heat. Chest heaving and eyes closed you didn't notice the figure standing at the doorframe. "Shit!" You grabbed the blanket and covered yourself.
"Sorry doll, sorry I'm late I mean," Bucky couldn't keep his eyes off of you. He didn't mean to pry, at first he heard heavy breathing coming from his room and figured you were in pain but he was sure glad to find it was the exact opposite.
"Oh my god-" you closed your eyes in embarrassment, this is so humiliating.
"Don't be embarrassed," Bucky sat by you and brought you in for a hug, you couldn't look at him, "I was pretty thrilled to find you in my room. Were you having fun?" he grinned, you shoved him back as he laughed, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry,"
"I like the smell of your sheets," you admitted after a moment of silence, "that's why I'm in here,"
"Come here," Bucky pulled you in for a kiss. He loved the scent of you, he loved the feel of you; he loved you, "don't eve be embarrassed for wanting us. We certainly aren't for wanting you,"
"Oh, I can definitely feel that," you chuckled. The feel of him already hard beneath you sent your mind back to that fantasy you were having.
"Did you want to help me clean up in the bath?" Buckys index finger trailed up your arm.
"Seeing as I'm already naked," you never finished your sentence. Bucky led you to the bathroom and stripped as the tub was filling. He hopped in first with you coming in to sit in front of him. Your nipples rested just below the water so you didn't get any goosebumps.
Laying against his chest was so relaxing that you drifted off a bit.
"Hey, don't fall asleep. You'll catch a cold,"
"I'm so comfortable. I haven't been this relaxed in...ages,"
"How about we have dinner then dessert and I'll give you a back rub to put you to sleep. I know you need it,"
"I'm so lucky to have you," you mumbled against him. Bucky's heart bloomed, you were so cute in his arms.
"I'm the luckiest," he kissed your forehead.