I know, 10 years later...
but I have good reasons for being so late! (Week 1: I was traveling the whole north island, week 2: Prep for my 21st birthday, week 3: family friend staying)
So be nice!
Oh and I found this quote that I think is very fitting for this weeks chappie!!
Comment on the end! What you guys think is gonna happen!!!!
"New lovers are nervous and tender but smash everything, for the heart is an organ of fire." Michael Ondajte - The English Patient
Katary
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I left a little space for Damien when I heard his heavy footsteps walking towards me on the little jetty. I looked down at the rotting wood and saw the names of couples who had sat in this very spot before us, and wondered how many stories would this jetty know about?
Kisses and hugs between friends, lovers, parents and children, arguments and fake pushes, and those game enough to jump in the dirtiest part of the pond. I smiled and pondered about the memories that Damien and I had already shared and of course the unknown memories the both of us would soon be creating.
I waited impatiently for him to sit down and pretty much snapped the bread packet out of his hands.
'You're worse than my seven year old sister you know.'
I poked my tongue at him before breaking some bread up and scattering it all over the pond eagerly waiting for the ducks to swim over.
I heard Damien chuckle beside me before I felt his body inch closer. My heart hitched a little and when I turned to look at him his face was only inches from mine.
His light brown eyes bored into mine and I was mesmerized for a moment over the intensity of which he was looking at me. 'You're so cute Ana.' The whispered words were carried lightly on the breeze before his lips sought out mine. Our kiss was sweet, and I wondered how much further I had to fall before I was in love, it felt I had already reached my limit of happiness already; my heart was bursting at the seams.
Our fingers sought out each others bodies, the electricity building between us. I grasped his shirt as tightly as I could, and I never wanted them to let go. Suddenly I felt the cold air on my lips and opened my eyes to see Damien's face backing up a little.
I pouted and he smiled at me, and I just couldn't help myself, I pounced on him, my whole body now wanting to be as close as it could be to his. The kiss built up in intensity before I felt his hands on my arms and he pushed me away a little.
'Ana, you know we're making out in a kids park, not my bedroom.' The heat flushed to my cheeks so fast, and I quickly scanned the surrounding area to see if there was anyone watching us. Thankfully, the park was empty except for us. It did make me realise how into it I was getting. I really needed to calm down.
'Sorry.' I mumbled and he ruffled my hair a little before stealing the bread packet from my lap and breaking the rest of the bread up. I realised that even though there was no one around, we still had and audience of ducks around us.
'The poor ducks must be traumatised from the show.' I chuckled and Damien smiled.
'They ain't seen nothing yet.'
And suddenly Damien jumped up and started stripping. All I could do was look on in shock. 'What are you doing?' I half yelled slash whispered at him, my eyes drifting down to his toned abs and bulging biceps.
I could feel him staring down at me and I forced my eyes to squint back up at his face.
'Was just gonna have a dip in the pond obviously.'
I tugged at his shorts, 'sit down!' and I heard him chuckle and the next second he was by my side again.
My cheeks were bright red and I could feel the heat off his body forcing its way onto me.
We sat a while longer, with me trying to ogle as much as I could at Damien before he realised it, but I think I failed big time.
'Ana?' I heard him say as I turned my head in the opposite direction.
'What?' and as I turned I saw that huge genuine smile on his face. Pretty sure I just heard my heart crack.
'You're redder than a tomato.' He said. And then he laughed. Loudly.
I slapped him on his bare arm and got up to walk away. I couldn't bear to be in such close proximity with him any longer. My self control was thinner than a piece of wet paper. It was ready to tear at any millisecond and I really couldn't be held responsible for my actions after that. I mean, I... just... didn't know what to do. These overwhelming feelings I had for Damien. I couldn't figure them out. Attraction? Like, love even? How was I supposed to know?
Frack this shit is hard. My pathetic sixteen year old mind cannot comprehend anything that's going on in my life. Especially anything that has to do with Damien. Which, right now, feels like everything.
I could sense his presence behind me and I tried to ignore him while I packed up our little picnic area. I couldn't handle it anymore. I had to leave, I needed time to think.
Now it was Damien's turn to ask me what I was doing. I turned to face him just as he was tugging at the corners of his shirt over his abs. Seeing that action made everything so much worse.
'Do you think you could drop me off at home? I'm not feeling very well.' I lied and his expression instantly changed from joy to confusion. I went back to packing, knowing that if he saw me doing this, he would be a nice guy and agree to take me home.
I felt him walk over and help me as I started folding the blanket up. He walked away with the packed picnic basket and I felt guilty for ruining our date.
I was so excited for this and now I've gone and ruined it for the both of us. I'm such a retard! Why couldn't I have just enjoyed his company, and had fun, eaten a delicious lunch, and who knows what else would've happened?
I couldn't back out now though, you can't just say oh take me home I'm over it and then change your mind. He'll definitely be mad if I done that. I just know that if I was near him any longer, I really wasn't sure what would happen if he kissed me again, that last time was proof of it. Jeez, we're in a park, and I'm macking out on him like it's the last thing I'll ever do!
I chuck the blanket in the back seat and jump in the passenger side of his truck.
I avoided looking at him the whole way back and the tension was making me crazy. I didn't even want to see him in my peripheral vision it was that bad.
We finally pulled up to my house and I had jumped out of the truck before Damien had time to put the truck in neutral. I walked quickly to the door and noticed it was locked. I grabbed the spare key under the shoe and without even saying goodbye I went inside the house, instantly feeling relief of just being at 'home.'
I ran up the stairs craving the feeling of my bed.
Just as I reached the top of the stairs I heard the door slam. I paused for a moment but then I kept walking to my room, praying he wouldn't find me.
I heard his baritone voice call out to me but I silently closed my door and ran to my bed, praying for him to just go away.
I heard the faint clicking of doors and I knew now that he was looking for me, and the end was inevitable.
'Ana?' I heard his hushed whisper at my door.
'Ana, what's wrong? What did I do?' he said as I felt his body weight sink the bed. I kept my back to him and replied, 'nothing, don't worry it's probably just a tummy bug, honestly you didn't do anything.'
It was all me. Me being a crazy lady.
'Seriously Ana, what's up? You were fine just a few minutes ago.'
His hand rested tentatively on my waist and he gave me a reassuring squeeze. It just made things even worse. Why did life never go according to plan? Why did I always have to fuck it up?
I sighed heavily and moved myself so I was lying on my back and gave Damien a little more room on the bed.
'I'm sorry.' Was all I could manage to spit out.
'For what?'
'For being a girl.'
He chuckled and his face lit up. For a moment it made me forget that I was being an idiot and I enjoyed his company. His hand began to wander and cupped my cheek. I was scared to make a noise, to even think. Again, I had trapped under his spell. My body ached under his touch, and the heat emanating from his palm could be felt throughout my whole body.
Suddenly his hand gripped me tighter and pulled me up. I was in shock when Damien kissed me with such fervour I was overcome with surprise and passion. He made me forget about all of the feelings I had before this moment and I could not help but only think of his lips upon mine.
Our bodies slowly moved back down onto the bed as Damien's body pushed itself over mine. The fire I always felt became a huge inferno inside of me as the intensity of our situation increased. Teenage desire overcame me and I couldn't stop myself or stop Damien.