I look at down at my wrist, checking the time my watch says. I began to tap my foot impatiently whilst sat on the couch waiting for my sister Hyerin to finish getting ready. My heart still pounding in anxiety at the thought of finally being able to see BTS live in concert.
I quickly stood from the couch, a frustrated sigh leaving my mouth and I walk to the bottom of the staircase. "Hyerin, it's 3pm, we've got to leave soon if we want to get there on time. You know how long the waiting line is going to be? If I miss out on a chance to see them I think my heart will physically break... It's my dream!" I shouted at the bottom of the stairs.
"Yes! I'm nearly ready. It's fine, we'll get there! It's a 10 minute car journey. We've got VIP tickets too so we can skip the lines and just go straight to our spots at the front near the stage." Hyerin responded.
"I know, but it starts at 4pm and I want to get there early... I have to give myself at least 20 minutes to mentally prepare myself at the thought they're going to be just inches away from me! And I want to get food" I said, chuckling.
"Jangmi you're always thinking about food. I swear the only thing that occupies your mind is BTS and food."
I mean, she's not wrong. I don't think about anything else.
"Just hurry up please!" I exclaimed impatiently, my stomach still doing flips, knowing I will see them in an hour.
I've dreamt of this moment since I first became part of the fandom. Yoongi became my bias as soon as I laid eyes on him the first time. I thought to myself that he is possibly the most beautiful, perfect human being to ever grace the Earth. His eyes, nose, lips, his gummy smile...
I love how blunt he is, yet so caring towards his other members. He's protective and strong, he doesn't hold back and I love that. He makes me melt every time I see him or hear his voice. I fell in love with a man I'd never met, a man who doesn't know I exist.
I love him as a man, but he loves me as a fan.
This is it! It's finally happening. We're officially on our way to Seoul. The whole car journey I can't keep still. I've never been so excited and nervous for something in my life. Everything is going over in my head, what they're going to wear, what hair colors they're going to have, what songs they're going to sing, if any of them will notice me as I'll be so close. IF I'LL GET TO TOUCH YOONGI'S HAND. Hyerin notices my anticipation and giggles to herself.
"You're like a little girl on Christmas day." She says smiling. I turn to her and smile back, holding my own giggle; knowing she's absolutely right.
Hyerin is older than me by 2 years. It was my 21st Birthday last week, and she bought us BTS concert tickets as a Birthday present; so not only do I get to see my Idols live, but I get to spend an amazing day with her too.
We've always been so close, she's my only sibling and our parents live in the US. They moved last year, and as we're adults we decided to get an apartment together to stay in South Korea. We couldn't imagine leaving our home.
We arrive at the concert hall. Now I'm even more nervous, I can't contain it. I look at my watch and realise it's 3:45pm.
Oh my God. It's nearly time!
Everyone has to be in the hall at their allocated spots by 4pm for when the show officially starts at 4:30pm. I grab Hyerin's hand as we're walking in, my palms sweating with fear and excitement. We approach the attendant and show our VIP tickets.
"Right this way ladies, go down the hall, make a left and follow the signs to the large double doors. In there you will go through security."
Obviously for safety they have to check everyone for any dangerous weapons or items. We do as he said and walk down the hall straight past the hundreds, if not thousands of fans lining up to get into the arena. I felt slightly guilty, but we did get VIP tickets after all...
After being thoroughly checked and scanned, it's now officially time to enter the arena. We walk slowly to the doors. At this point my nervousness has reached it's peak, my heart is beating so hard it feels like it's going to explode out of my chest, my stomach is doing somersaults, my palms soaking wet with sweat.
As the doors slowly swing open, my eyes widen and my jaw drops. It's absolutely huge. There are lights everywhere, thousands of empty spaces, with just a few people scattered near the front.
Hyerin lightly squeezes my hand as a sign to ask if I'm ready. I look at her and nod. I've never been more ready. We walk slowly down to the front, a stupid grin plastered on my face and we take our spots. I check the time to see it's 4pm, and I can see people are starting to come in. Now we wait...
I'm sitting in my seat bouncing my leg, looking at my watch every 10 seconds. The hall is now fully packed, not a single seat empty. Hyerin notices my nervousness and places her hand on my knee. "Jangmi, stop. It's okay, this is going to be the best night of your life. Don't be nervous!" She says, smiling sweetly at me. I couldn't ask for a better sister. I smile back at her "I can't help it. I just never thought I'd get the chance to see them perform live. I can't thank you enough, I love you so much." I hug her. I really do love her, she's given me the best gift anybody could ask for.
Then suddenly, the lights dim down.
The bass blares throughout the hall, and all I can hear is screams of excitement from 10,000 other fans. It took me by surprise and I look around in shock, searching for BTS, waiting for them to come out. Everyone stands up doing the same as me, looking for them. Then, the instrumental for DNA starts playing. I start screaming, hurting my throat as I see them come out to the stage. I'm basically crying at this point and I can only see the top of Jimin's light blonde hair. With my BTS lightstick in hand, I start waving it around like a maniac as V begins the song. IT'S BEGUN.
The concert is nearly finished, and I've enjoyed every single second of it. I look to my right and see Hyerin enjoying it just as much as me. She hides her inner fangirl for Jimin, but we all know she's crazy for him. We're at the beginning of Mic Drop, and Yoongi is rapping his verse. He's SO close to me I think I stopped breathing at one point, and I'm standing still in pure shock. He comes closer to me from the stage and I swear... Wait. DID HE JUST LOOK AT ME?
Our eyes met for a couple seconds, but it felt like an eternity. I'm not going crazy, right? He looked at me. ME. Not anybody else. As I try to calm myself down, Yoongi finishes his verse.
"So heeey, SUE IT"
And looks at me again, this time with a smile on his face. He just smiled at me. He graced me with his gummy smile. I stand there, not moving a muscle, not even blinking, just contemplating what happened. Wondering if I'm actually alive, and this is just heaven. Min Yoongi looked at me, not once, but TWICE.
The boys wrap up the concert, with RM giving his beautiful speech to us all, thanking us for supporting them and telling us he loves us. With that, they bow and walk off stage. Hyerin and I grab our things and leave the hall. I'm still completely speechless from the events that happened. Hyerin pretty much skips out squealing and giggling and I'm walking like a zombie dragging my feet because my brain literally stopped working.
Hyerin rambles on about how amazing it was, and at this point I snapped out of the shock and join her in the excitement. We're walking down the hall, until a man approached us.
"Excuse me, ladies? Hi, I'm an assistant of BTS, and they asked if you would like to join them backstage?"
WHAT?
A/N: Hi! Thank you so much for reading. I wanted to really include vivid detail of how it would feel going to a BTS concert: like the build up and during the concert itself. I've never been personally, but I know I'd melt and probably spontaneously combust.