Ok so this maybe based on some of my experiences...And it is going to be...let's just say angsty!
Theme:ever get that empty feeling? Well ever felt it every waking hour? every day?
Warnings: this is not going to be fun and let's just say be ready...And this is like a modern au...thingy?
Keith's POV
I stare at my ceiling feeling numb, but that was nothing new. I look towards my window and see the stars twinkling in the dark midnight sky. Sometimes I wonder how many there are in the night sky. I wait for the sun to rise, my indigo eyes empty and tried.
I look at the alarm clock I just bought last week, the time was currently 4:56 almost time to go to hell or better yet called school. I sigh as I feel my body get tingles up my spine causing me to shiver. That always happens when I am fully alone.
I close my eyes thinking of how I am going to avoid all of the bullies and classmates. I still feel the all consuming numbness as I look at the ceiling again. I stare at it for a few minutes, the numbness consuming my being fully.
I sit up and sigh as I feel my body get heavy and my eyes feel like they are holding a bolder. I stand up and walk to my closet and grab some clothes not caring about what they are.
I strip and put on the clothing, I walk to my bathroom and stare at my reflection wishing I could just erase myself from it. I stare at the mirrow looking at myself, I was pale and looked sick, my eyes had dark bags under them, my body was slumped and looked like a twig that could be broke in a second. I grabbed my toothbrush and toothpaste brushing my teeth.
I finish brushing my teeth and start to comb the mob of hair I have. After I finish that I walk out and walk to the kitchen grabbing my phone and hoodie. I put my hoodie on and walk back to my room. I lay on the bed for a few minutes before looking at my phone, it was 5:21.
I open Instagram and look at all the photos of people smiling and laughing with their friends. I see people at restaurants, parks, or just in their backyard playing with their friends and family. I felt nothing when I looked at their smiles.
I look at the time again and see it is 5:37, I guess it is time to go to hell. I sit up and walk to the front door, opening the door and closing it behind me before locking it. I look up at the sky, the stars where now fading it the golden sunny sky. I inhale the crisp winter air as I start to walk to school, putting my headphones on my head as I walk to school.
I get to the front of the school, the school looming over me as if telling me to get ready for hell. I start walking inside hearing the other students laughing and talking amongst each other. I walk past all of them not caring about them or their conversations. I get to my 1 period the numb feeling getting stronger by the second.
I push open the door walking in as the class gets quiet before whispering insults about me even the people I used to call 'friends'. I sit down at my seat in the back looking at the people I used to call friends. Those people were pidge, lance, hunk, shiro and allura. One day they just stopped talking to me and started glaring at me and talking behind my back but now I don't care, I can't care.
(Ok so I know this is long but ounce we get there you will be glad I gave this a slow burn....)
I look out the window feeling empty. The teacher soon walks in and starts the lesson, like I care about it. I block out the lesson and just look at the baby blue sky.
*timeskip to after his 3 periods it is now lunch*
I walk to the cafeteria, my hands in my hoodie pocket. I open the door hearing people laughing and talking to each other. I let my eyes skim over everyone before they land on the group of people I used to call friends.
They where laughing and smiling. I suddenly didnt feel as hunger as I did. I walk out of the cafeteria hearing people walking behind me but I paid no mind to them because really who cares?
The footsteps got closer so I stopped and looked behind me with a blank look. I see the people I used to call friends glaring at me as if I did something.
"Why are you even alive still Keith?" Shiro growled venom in every word he said. I felt a ping in my heart but I couldn't care.
"I am still alive because that is what a human does, they live..." my voice sounded dull and empty. They glared at me but their glare wavered a bit when they heard my voice.
"Well you are no human you are a freak, a monster!" Lance yelled his words felt like knives being shoved into my heart or what is left of it. I stared at they blankly before walking away.
I started walking to the bathroom with a blank but dead look. I opened the door of the bathroom and closed it behind me. I walked to the mirrow and started thinking about why I felt so numb. I then thought maybe if I make myself feel pain or something I will feel something again!
(This is where I warn you I am going into detail of everything. This is going to be triggering so if you can't handle it then skip it....)
I put my hand in my pocket and pulled out a box cutter. I pushed up the blade and looked at it.
"If I do this I will be able to feel something for ounce I won't feel numb anymore!" My voice sound dull but crazed a little. I rolled my sleeves up and put the blade on my right wrist. I pulled it down hard but fast. I felt a little pain but it soon disappeared when little bubble of blood bubbled up and over my skin. They slowly fell on the floor as I made more of the deep, deep cuts.
Bye the time I was done my arms looked like they where scratched by a lion. Blood was on the ground and covering my arms. My arms felt tingles of pain. I decided to wash them off. I turned to sink on and ran my arms under the cold water, washing away the blood. I felt tingles of pain but I still didn't care.
I pulled my sleeves down and walked out of the bathroom with a blank look as if I don't just cut my arms to shreds. I walked to my next period and didn't even cared about the teacher yelling at me because I was late. I walked past the people I called friends, I felt their glares but I didn't care.
I sat down at my seat and looked out the window again, sighing lightly as I feel the chill go up my spine again.
*timeskip to five days later*
Everyday was just numb! I woke up numb, went to school numb, my 'friends' have been telling me to die and just kill myself, I started thinking maybe I should so today I will do just that!
I wore my best cloths so I look at least decent when I meet god or Satan. I walk into the school and start walking to my class only to be stopped by my 'friends'.
"Where do you think you are going dead weight?" Pidge growled. She glared at me but I just stared blankly back.
"I was going to my first period like a normal student..." I said in a monotone. They glared at me before allura punched me.
"And who do you think you are to talk back to us!!?! You should just die it's. Or like you will be missed!!" She yelled at me as I stood up staring blankly at her.
"I am going to do that in a bit just let me finish my 1st period..." I said my eyes empty and dull. They stared at me shocked as I walked into my first period. I sat down and waited for the period to end.
*tiemskip to after the period*
I started walking to the roof of the school. I open the door to the roof and walk to the edge of the roof. The wind was blowing in my hair and face. I pulled out a note I had in my pocket and take off my shoes. I set my shoes on the ground and set the letter in them. I hear the door slam open so I turned around to see my 'friends' looking at my worried and scared.
"Why do you look worried and scared I am doing what you have been telling me to do all week...." I say my voice so dull. Their eyes water as they look at me.
" KEITH DONT DO IT WE ARE SORRY!!!" They all scream but I turn around and walk closer to the edge. I didn't look back as I take my last step, i fall off the roof the only thing I hear is my name being screamed before it goes black....
Keith.....was....no....more....
*the end but here is what the note said: I guess by the time any one reads this I will be dead...why? Well I had nothing everyone left me my mom and dad left me my only friends left me to this numbness...I couldn't handle being numb a more....so I ended it....I am sorry pidge,lance,hunk,shiro and allura I am sorry for whatever i did to you to make you hate me.....I guess this is goodbye forever... bye guys...
Love
Keith
*the end*
How was that? I think I did good for my first time! You can suggest what you want me to write next and I will sometimes do other character angst!
See you when I update again!
~kendly