And that's where we differ
So I have to give her free time even if it hurts
So breathe, mami, it's deserved
You've been put on this earth
To be all you can be, like the reserves
And me? My time in the army, it's served
So I have to allow she, her time to serve
The time's now for her, in time, she'll mature
And maybe we can be we again like we were
Finally, my time's too short to share
And to ask her now, it ain't fair
So yeah, she lost one
Jay-Z x Lost One
Josie
Jace moved his head while I tried to give him his medicine. "No" he yelled moving his head. "Boy, who you yelling at? I asked. I felt a hard tap on my ass I turned around to Ricky holding a stack in his hand. He gave it to me "What is this? I asked. "Gotta make sure you straight" he said. We leave New York tomorrow I was super excited yet sad. "Ricky you've helped enough" I said. "It's 30k put that shit in your savings and don't touch it" he said. "No, I'm okay" I said. "I'm not taking no for an answer...matter fact call Morgan to get him. I gotta talk to you" he said. "Okay" I said. "Morgan" I called. She ran down the steps "Yes" she called. "Here take Jace for me" I said. She picked him up carrying him with her upstairs. "I got you something" he said opening the draw revealing a small gun. I started having flashbacks of the last time he made me hide his gun for him. "Your name is already registered. You already should know how to use it cuz I showed you. I know you gon be around all them crazy white folks. I need you to handle your shit" he said. "How am I gonna take this through the airport? I asked. He laughed "Imma have it sent to you. I just wanted to show it to you" he said. Ricky had a lot of shit with him but I could never say he didn't make sure I was straight I'll always appreciate him for that. I swear when I get my big break I'm going to double that 3ok and give it right back to him and that's a promise. "So what happens if I need a little help? I asked. "You already know I'm pulling up" he said. "Thankyou for everything" I smiled. "Yeah, yeah your welcome" he said. His phone began to ring he answered it walking away. "Yup I want the warehouse cleared by tonight. Send all that shit to the basement of the club" he said. I lifted my brow wondering what was going on. "I'll be there in a minute" he said
"Ight bye" he hung up. I stared at his back muscles. He was shirtless with his gray sweatpants on. I came behind him wrapping my hands around his stomach. "What you want? He asked. "Nothing" I said looking out the window in front of us. I was really out of here who would've thought I would've fell hard for my boss its crazy how things go. He turned around "I gotta get outta here, but you'll be at the club later on? He asked. "Yes" I caressed his face pecking his lips. I felt myself getting emotional all over again. Between Morgan and I we were an emotional wreck and Ricky couldn't take it at all. "You better not" he warned. I sighed laughing "I won't" I said
"Get cute, I'll see you later on big head" he said going upstairs to change.
Dreux
I sat on the bed staring down at my little girl sucking on her pacifier. "You so damn cute, you know that" I said. Mia walked in flossy with her gray tight fitted dress on and her hair wrapped up in a bun. She was on her way to her co-worker's engagement party. Rarely do I see Mia dress up but when she does she goes all in. My mouth was watering looking at her. Our 6 weeks was up and I was ready to get it on and popping. Although I was ready she wasn't which I understood but this dress wasn't helping one bit. "Oooo look at mommy" I said to Dylan. Mia smiled turning around. "You lookin good babe, real good" I got up up to place Dylan in her crib she began crying and hollering. She was spoiled already always getting her way. "Dylan can I please get sometime with your mom" I asked. She plopped on her back touching her hands. I sucked my teeth "A drama queen forreal" I said. Mia laughed walking over to her crib. "It's okay tell daddy I get whatever I want" she smiled picking her up kissing her cheeks. Mia didn't know but I bought her a new Mercedes Benz as her push gift. It would be shipped in a few weeks. She never in her life let me buy her car and now that we're married I had too. "Both of y'all are a trip" I said. "But what's good with you? I bit my lip wrapping my hands around her waist. She hasn't been sick lately she's been in remission for the past weeks and we were so happy about that the only thing I couldn't wait to come back was her sex drive. I just can't help that I'm a freaky nigga. "You looking mighty fine Mrs. Santana" I said. She blushed "Babe" she said shyly. "I still can't believe I still make you shy, how you shy and just popped out our baby? I asked. She laughed putting Dylan back in the crib turning on her lullaby teddy bear. She turned around
"I wouldn't say all of that, you just know what to say out your mouth... that's how you got me back" she said. I came back behind her kissing on her neck "That ain't the only thing that, had you back" I said "I gotta go" she said. "Jessica can wait... daddy can't" I gripped her waist. "Dreux I'm really not horny one bit, I feel like you're pressuring me a tad" She said. "Ah, my bad baby. I didn't know I was doing too much... you just fine. I got lucky" I said. She turned around cupping my face "I love you... thanks for that. Maybe if you're up I'll um give your friend a little attention" she patted my area. "Best believe imma be up" I said. "Ummmhm" she turned around. "Don't show off, and you better not be talking to near nigga" I slapped her ass. "Boy be quiet" she laughed walking down the steps. I turned around to check on Dylan "You little monster... go to sleep" I said
Kamaya
I sat up taking off my necklace. I just dropped my girls off to their dance classes and Rudy to basketball camp. School was out for the summer and I could relax some. I heard my door open I lifted my brow peeking out the door. "Maya" I heard Kasey's voice and was relieved. I definitely needed my key back from him. I really want to start over and set boundaries something I never learned to do. Kasey burst in my room. "You fuckin kissed him? He asked. His voice was at an all-time high and I was nervous. Shit, how did he found out? "How did yo-
"Don't fuckin worry about that" he said. I was in a state of shock. I didn't plan on telling him out of fear. "Did you or did you not kiss him? He asked. "N-No, I didn't he came on to me first and I pushed him off" I explained. "That's some fuckin bullshit. You take me as a joke Maya" he walked near me. "No, can you calm down I didn't do anything" I begged
"I don't believe you. I know how the fuck you feel about that nigga. I know you still love him, you been with that nigga all your life so don't spare my damn feelings" he shouted
"Kasey I didn't" I got teary-eyed I was too pregnant for this. I felt like a damn whale and here he is jumping down my throat. "Was I just some nigga you dealt with to get over him? He asked. "What? No? I tried to hold his hand put he moved it. "Had to be, you never been happy about this pregnancy. I was just your relief or some rebound nigga to get your mind off him. So you wanna get back with him? He asked. l know it felt like that but it wasn't when I met Kasey everything just flowed easily it wasn't about me making Rudy jealous. I wasn't on that; even after all that he's done to me
I began crying "First of all you never seemed happy about the pregnancy. No, I didn't know he was going to come on to me like that. He apologized to me about him cheating-
Kasey balled up his fist "He was apologizing for that and we talked about Khaden and he kissed me and I pushed him off-
"How the fuck.... You don't know when someone is about to kiss you? That means you wanted it to happen, if a nigga is leaning forward you back the fuck up... period" he yelled.
"No I didn't want it to happen the both of us were emotional having a deep conversation, it happened so fast" I explained. Kasey's whole demeanor was tense. He was on the edge and nothing I was saying was working.
He sucked his teeth "Whatever, this shit is beyond me. Just know I'm beating his ass and its on sight when I see him" he turned around. "No, don't do that-
"You're defending him now? He questioned. I never saw him this livid in my life. "No, I just don't want the two of you fighting. Baby please just calm-
"I ain't ya damn baby, we're not together, remember? Maybe this was all in your plans. Break up with me and go back to the same nigga that broke you" he shouted. My heart broke that he was so upset even though he was extremely angry at least I knew he truly loved me. He's so good to me I don't want him to feel like I used him up because I didn't. "Kasey, just calm down I would never do that-
"I don't know Maya, to be honest. I really don't know if you didn't crack under pressure and you're trying to cover this up" he shook his head
"I'm not that damn desperate to be with someone that hurt me," I said
"I don't know what you want these days, you may still want to be with his clown ass," he said
"Kasey you're overreacting I told you. I didn't kiss him. I pushed him off, If I wanted to kiss him. I would've but I didn't. I'm over him... I want you just not right now until I get myself together" I explained
"Ight" he nodded his head
"Where are you going? I asked worriedly
"Where you think I'm going? Watch out" he said. "I don't want you to do anything crazy" I begged him pulling his arm. "Move," he said. I blocked the door "No, you're not leaving until you tell me you believe because had I questioned you about some similar shit you would've done the same thing" I said. "Maya get out of my way," he said fuming. "No it's not that serious, I didn't entertain it-
"It's not that- Maya get out my face," he said. "No, just calm down" I begged. Rudy was crazy as hell and Kasey can have a temper. Rudy has an I don't give a fuck attitude while Kasey is all about respect and values and the two of them combined can cause a damn riot and I needed both of my children's fathers alive. He walked closer we were now eye to eye my heart was beating fast I felt myself getting sick all over again. "Watch out," he said. I sucked my teeth stepping to the side. "Got me fucked up" he slammed the door. I swear Rudy was in for a serious curse out how dare he tries something like that.
Ricky
Today was the last day Lemonade would be open and I couldn't be any happier. My father has no idea about it and seeing what he worked so hard for go down the drain was a sight to see. So much was about to happen in a day it was going to have the whole Miami talking. I couldn't even lie I gained a whole new respect for the dancers. I never paid their asses any mind but Josie reminded me that sometimes you gotta do shit you don't want to do to make ends meet. That's what my whole family was based on. I never considered Josie a dancer because she literally danced for 5 minutes on one day before I stopped her but the fact that she was willing to do that said it all. It took me a minute to get it but I do now and I'll never work for a strip club ever again. So we were all going to turn up one more good time tonight; send Josie off to New York and settle this shit we've been trying to settle once and for all. I went into the market to get some Gatorade. I was about to hit the gym before the night. I grabbed my 8 pack walking to self-checkout I walked over to see Erica at checkout fumbling in her wallet. She looked a bit distressed and I never saw her like that. It actually was a little entertaining to me seeing as though she always had some bad shit to say about me. She slid her card "Ma'am can you try again"
I sighed loudly. She turned around looking at me "Wassup" I said
"Ricky," she said using her other card. The line began to fill up I debated if I should help her annoying ass out or not.
"It's not working," the cashier said lowly. "I know there's money on this card" she sighed. "I got it" I stepped over swiping my card she looked over at me surprised. The cashier aimed the receipt at me but I moved my head towards Erica. "You didn't have to do that," she said grabbing her bags. "But I did so you're welcome" I walked off. "Ricky" she called. "Wassup" I turned around.
"Thankyou," she said. "No problem" I spoke walking to my car. "So what are you about to do seeing as though were leaving tomorrow? She asked. This was very odd, very very odd. "Imma still do me, I still got businesses to take care of," I said. "What made you go to New York with Josie? Don't you have a life or a nigga? I asked. She looked saddened looking away "Adrian has been cheating on me for some time now so that's that," she said
"Damn, that's fucked up" I said. She rolled her eyes 'Whatever niggas are just stupid-
"Look you don't gotta be hard up with me all the time. I aint your nigga, I ain't even ya enemy" I said. "Then I guess we have some things in common," she said. "I can't believe he would do that to me, we've been together for so long. Sometimes I think it may have been because I was babysitting Josie's kids so much but that couldn't be. I always made time for him" she said looking like she was beginning to cry. I actually felt bad for her uptight smartass.
"It ain't really nothing you can do for a nigga that don't wanna be kept," I said. "You'll be ight," I said. "Thanks" she nodded.
"Yeah, I will... I never used my degree for mass communications so imma do that. I'm going to host or be the best reporter there is and he's gonna wish he didn't do me dirty" she said
"He may not," I said truthfully. She looked appalled at what I just said. She walks around like she's that bitch and aint nothing wrong with having confidence but I had to let her know that sometimes niggas just don't care as much as women want them too. The whole flex on your ex-shit is dumb especially when he broke up with your ass. "Wow... okay thanks for the honesty," she said
"I'm just keeping it a buck, that flex on your ex-shit is stupid especially if he didn't want to be with you anymore, all you can do is move forward," I said. She wiped her eyes. I didn't expect for this whole conversation to happen. I was only being nice for the sake that this is Josie's friend. "I should get going this is awkward," she said. "Very much," I agreed. "Pick your head from off the floor" I said walking away
Later that Night
I walked in the locker room to see the dancers overjoyed with their bonuses and gift cards we all got them. They were sad that we were closing after 30 years but we needed out and this was the best way out. "Wow, Ricky you're being nice," Kim said
'Yeah yeah this company and everything revolved around it was stressful" I said
"Well, we gon show the fuck out for our last day its supposed to be a full house. The cars are filling up" London said. "That means we're having a good night" I said fixing my collar. I walked out the locker's room running into Maya. "Hey lil sis" I said giving her a side hug. "Hey," she said in a low tone. "What's wrong? I asked.
"Nothing is Josie here yet. I got her a card" she said looking around. "She's on her way," I said her eyes were puffy and teary I could tell she's been crying. "You and Kasey got into it? I asked. "Yeah, he found out" She sighed. "How did he?
"I have no idea either he overheard my conversation or Rudy bluntly told him. Either way, I didn't know that was going to happen" she explained. "Did he hurt you? I asked. "Of course not, he was just really angry" she frowned. I grew irritated I was tired of these niggas playing my sister like a sucka. In a minute I was going to fight both of them she's pregnant as fuck and both of them are giving her hell.
"Well the both of them are here, its gonna get awkward but I can check those niggas now" I said. "I have some shit to pack but at this point its staying cuz I don't want to be here the whole time" she rolled her eyes. 'I got you imma get your shit" I said. "Thanks, bro" she smiled. "No problem," I said before she walked off. Kasey came out of the elevator. I caught him in his tracks stopping "What's good? He asked.
"Aye don't be talking to my sister crazy if she didn't do it, she didn't do it" I said.
"With all due respect Ricky it aint none of your business. I don't know what to believe and if a nigga slipped his tongue down Josie's throat you'd be ready to fuck someone up" he said. He was right none of that matters anymore but even if I would've saw some shit like that today go down I would've beat somebody's ass. "Just hear her out" I said. Kasey nodded his head walking off.
Kamaya
I was nervous about tonight I would've stayed home but this is Josie's last day and this is the last day of Lemonade being open. I was raised in this club I started out being a bottle girl and this job kept money in my pockets. I wasn't not going to show up the moment felt so surreal. The fact that we were going behind our father's back about this was fucked but at the end of the day. He's more harmful to the family then good and my children need to have their dads in their life as well as their uncles. "You just can't stay put can you? Kasey came over. I was in my feelings about how he acted, the fact that he didn't believe me had me tight but if he thought he would bully me all night he had the game fucked up. "Why would I do that? Lemonade is closing" I said
He shook his head rubbing his hands through his head. "This is some bullshit" he mumbled. "Well you know what, you're not my man anymore so it doesn't fucking matter" I walked off. I went through the crowd watching the dancers dance in rotation. I bumped into Rudy he stood there trying to talk to me. "Kamay-
"Don't say shit to me okay. I'm not with the manipulative shit. You cheated on me and left me for another woman. I finally press forward with another man that does right by me, and because you're in your feelings. You wanna kiss me to test me, and see if I'll fall back into your arms...and now he thinks I don't believe him. What type of shit is that? I asked
"That wasn't my intentions; I just got caught up no one is trying to manipulate you" he said. "Whatever" I walked past him. "I swear after I have this baby I'm going gay" I screamed.
Ricky
I stood outside talking to Dreux "This is it, were almost done this shit" I said. "How did you stall Grant? He asked. I chuckled "Remember that shorty I told you I met at Lenny's party? I asked him. "Yeah" Dreux answered. "Well, she said she was down for whatever. I told her to give Grant the time of his life on this date" I said lighting my cigarette. 'So you pimped her? He shook his head. "Man you going to hell boy" he said. "I aint pimp her I said show him a good time; now whatever she decided to do is on her" I said. "I can't believe this nigga has not even the slightest idea" he laughed. We saw what looked like my Ashton martin pull up. Nah there wasn't any way my navy blue baby Ashton. I only drive on the rarest of occasions was 10ft in front of me. The window rolled down and it was in fact Josie. "Hey boys," she said. I walked up the car on her side. "Who told you could push the whip? I asked. "I did" she said.
'So you think cuz you going to New York tomorrow you get a pass to do whatever you want? I laughed. 'It don't work like that baby girl" I said. 'Well it worked for me today" she tapped on the stirring wheel. I bit my lip "You look sexy driving it though, you get a pass" I said. It went quiet for a second "I know you wanna kiss me" she laughed. I leaned in pecking her lips "Now go park that shit far away" I said. She laughed pulling off. As soon as she pulled off. I saw Payton standing there I guess she saw it all. She looked super hurt about it but I didn't care she was too damn messy and pressed for me. She walked off holding her bag.
30 minutes later
Josie
Paridson Fontaine x Backin it up was on. I never been in a position where I could be free and dance around Ricky. Being around him Dreux, Kasey and them. I felt like they were my big bros watching my every move. So I was going to keep it cool the big turn up is when I get there. Erica and I took a shot at the same time. I swayed my hips a little feeling the music. I couldn't believe they thought about me throwing me a little going away party. I received a few cards on my table and I couldn't wait to open them a little later. "Fuck these niggas" Erica said taking another shot. I finally saw Kamaya walking up to the section. "Hey boo" she said. "Hey girl" I smiled hugging her. "Here you go" she said handing me a pink card. "Thankyou so much" I said
"Good luck baby girl I can't wait to see you on the screen" she said. "You're gonna make me cry" I said. "No you are, I'm already emotional as hell today" she said fanning her eyes. "Its like I didn't like you at first for stupid reason and months later we gotten closer. I feel like you're really my little sister" she said. "Aww Maya... I love you too" I said hugging her. "Okay I'm too pregnant for this, I'm about to clean out this closet. I got hella heels I've been looking for and they been at this damn club the whole time" she said. "Pack your things" I said.
"Well you take care update me-
"Update me I gotta see the baby" I said. "Okay I will" she said before walking off. Ricky wrapped his arm around my waist. "You okay? He asked. "Yeah, I'm fine" I said
Hours later
I stood behind Ricky throwing hundreds on the dancers. I've never done that in my life. Kash Doll -Dancin was playing. I nodded my head singing the words continuously throwing paper. They was making it rain in here. I felt a tap on my shoulder I turned around to see Rafiq. "Hey" I said. "I'm about to head out, it was nice working around you" he said. I gave him a hug. "Thankyou"'I said
"Congratulations" he said. "Thankyou so much see you around" I said. I knew if Ronnie was here he would have been so stoked that I was going to be on TV. Ricky took his bottle of Hennessy to the head placing it down before he grabbed the mic. "Yo" he spoke. The DJ lowered the music "I just wanna say thankyou everybody for continuing to keep this club alive, to the familiar faces that I see all the time thankyou for coming, to the staff, the bartenders, bouncers, bodyguards thankyou for the hardwork and dedication. I also want to thank our dancers for being loyal and bringing down the house every night the sleepless nights I appreciate it" he said.
"And everyone congratulates Josie she's leaving New York tomorrow to be on Project Runway look out for her" he said. Everyone turned around clapping for me. I shyly smiled for the first time ever in this establishment I felt appreciated.
"So let's continue to turn up a little... ya'll know what to do" he said. He walked back over "Aye don't get too turnt little girl cuz your ass is driving my car back home" he said. I think it was a little too late for that I felt a little buzzed. "I'll be back" he said. Erica and I began dancing a little to some Cardi B. "We going to New York, we going to New York" she stuck out her tongue twerking. I laughed "Yes, finally" I said. I heard some loud noises. "No no no"
Kasey and Rudy broke out in a fight at the section. "Nigga you got me fucked me up" Kasey shouted. "Nigga I'm not scared of your scrawny ass, what's up? You've been talking big shit for a minute" Rudy yelled
"Chill Chill Chill" Ricky walked over there. Rudy attempted to swing but missed. Kasey punched him in the face. "Don't fucking play with me better yet don't play with her. You had your chance and you blew it nigga. Don't kiss my girl I don't give a fuck if we together or not" he checked him. Rudy tackled Kasey to the floor punching him in the face. "I'll fucking kill you nigga. I don't give a fuck what you talking about" he said trying to strangle him. Kamaya came from out the locker room from packing her things to see them brawling. "Hey" she screamed walking near but not too close. Kasey got back on top throwing punches. It was one of those moments where no one could break them up they just had to fight it out. "Stop it" Kamaya screamed. The security guard Mike got between them. "Stop this shit right now, handle this shit like two grown men" he said
"That's some disrespectful shit. You know how she feels about you. You know she's in a vulnerable space right know and you wanna take advantage of that because you're never clear with your feelings. I should fuck you up" Kasey said
"Stop talking about me like I'm not here" Kamaya screamed. "I'm a grown woman and I know how I feel" she said going closer. "The shit wasn't suppose to happen, it didn't mean anything but I'm not going to sit here and explain myself to a nigga that been for 4 minutes. Fuck you think you is nigga? Rudy mugged him up and down. Mike removed himself from the middle. Kasey already didn't care for Rudy after what he put Maya through and the fact that he's acting like kissing a woman he's been with for years magically didn't mean anything pissed him off. He rather Rudy just be real and admit he still wants Kamaya and he fucked up
"Kasey nigga" he swung. Josie's mouth dropped to the floor as well as everyone at the damn club. Ricky's mouth was glued to the floor. Ricky had a past of hitting women but to see his sister get accidentally punched in the face felt horrible. He felt weak to his knees. Kamaya's gasped holding her nose as she fumbled a little before Ricky caught her. "Yo what the fuck" he screamed. Kasey and Rudy kept fighting until Kasey stopped. He realized what happened and ran over to her. Kamaya started crying from the pain. Kasey's eyes widened and jaw dropped his heart broke immediately. He watched his mother get beat on by his father and he promised he would never be violent towards his woman and the fact he harmed her by accident had him in shock "Baby-
Rudy ran over as well. "What the fuck? Dreux pushed Kasey hard he was about to punch him before Mike broke them apart. "You think I did that shit on purpose man" Kasey yelled. Rudy was livid he felt guilty he was the reason half of this happened.
"Oh my god" Kamaya cried in pain. Ricky helped her in the office. She sat down blood was dripping from her nose and lips. "Imma fuck him up" he screamed. Ravyen shortly came in with some ice and a towel. "Thankyou Rayven" he took it. Kamaya was embarrassed he knocked the wind out off her. She wasn't even breaking them up when it happened. She knew it was a mistake but the feeling was horrible. He handed her the towel wrapped with ice. She held it over her nose. The door was knocking "KAMAYA I AM SO SORRY" Rudy said. She was an emotional wreck she couldn't stop crying. She stood up "I wanna go home" she begged. "Come here" 'Ricky pulled her into a hug. He sat her on his lap holding her as she cried
"Its too much; I don't want to talk to the both of them" she cried. "Shh, you don't have to, Imma fuck both of them up later... trust me" Ricky said
"Maya, open the door. I am so sorry baby I couldn't control myself. I didn't know you were right there. I'd never in my life put my hands on you, please forgive me" he begged through the closed door. "Kasey go the fuck away right now man" Ricky said disgusted. "It hurts" she cried. "It's okay, imma take you to get it checked out. I got you" he said. She nodded her head trusting him, this was the first time in a while Kamaya felt like her brother loved her.
Later on that Night
"Imma miss you man" Dreux said. Josie frowned "Uhh you're going to make me cry" 'she frowned. "You were the first person to be nice to me. "Mmmm good luck" he picked her up. She hugged him hard "Thanks Dreux" I said
"You know imma be watching" He said. "Yess for that support" I said. "Ight call me when you land. I gotta head home to the kiddies" he said. "Okay, is Kamaya okay? I asked. "Yeah, she's home and resting" he said. "Okay good" I said. I couldn't believe that went down. I felt bad for Kasey you can tell he really loves her and his anger got the best of him tonight. I can't imagine accidentally hitting your pregnant girlfriend. I know he feels like crap but I know Rudy's messy ass feels even worst.
"Stay in touch" he said before getting in his car. "Bye boo" I turned around to see Kimberly one of the only dancers I got along with. She hugged me "Byee" I said
"Congratulations girl you deserve it, you got your whole future ahead of you" she said. "Thankyou and so do you" I said. "Yeah, you're right. I guess its time to go back to beauty school I've been so immune to this club. Making fast money can be addicting" she said.
"Yeah" I chuckled. "I'll be watching it" she said before she walked off. Payton never said a word to me which was fine. I was surprised she didn't start shit but I was happy she took her ass home. "Good luck" London said walking past me. "Thankyou" I stood there holding my flowers. Most of the dancers that had a problem with me were actually wishing me good luck on some fake shit. "You ready? Ricky asked me. "Yeah" I said
"Josieeee" I turned around once I heard a familiar voice. It was Courtney I haven't seen her in a while we fell off not from any drama just life sometimes but I was so happy to see her. We connected instantly "Heyyy" I smiled hugging her. "Congratulations baby" she said. "Thankyou" I smiled.
"Okurtttt gotta get the bread gotta get the shmoneyy" she said. Ricky rolled his eyes getting in the car. "You already know" I said. "Well, Im about to move back to Harlem so we can hang" she said. "Definitely... we have too" I said. "Okay sis, break a leg" she stuck her tongue out. I laughed "Thankyou" I said before getting in his car. I looked at the club one more time before he pulled off. "Wait, don't I have to drive your car back? I asked him
"Don't worry about just hand me my keys miss" he said. I laughed opening my clutch handing it to him. "Thankyou for the little party... I appreciate it" I smiled
"You're welcome, I just thought I'd incorporate that in there" he said. The drive home was very quiet. It was going on 2am and my flight was at 2 in the afternoon. My feelings were hurting its like I formed a family I never had and I feel like we all were going to fall off as soon as I leave.
We walked back in the house to see Jace and Morgan knocked out on the couch. Nesta was washing a few dishes in the sink. I know she hated when we had late outings but this would be the last time she had to watch them. "Thankyou Nesta" I smiled. "Uhh you're going" she said. I frowned as she hugged me. "Good luck, your kids... wonderful very pleasure to work with" she said. "Thank you" I smiled. "Morgan" I called. I wanted her to say bye to Nesta. "Hmm" she answered opening her eyes. "Come say bye to Nesta" I said. She got up "Bye Ms. Nesta" Morgan hugged her. "Thankyou for being nice all the time" she said. Nesta giggled "You're so welcome...bye" she said. "Bye" Morgan sadly waved. I watched her leave "See you next week Nesta" Ricky said before closing the door. "Okay time for bed" I told Morgan. I picked up Jace carrying him over my shoulder. I walked in our packed up room. Morgan got in the bed as I laid Jace beside her. "I'll be back okay" I said.
"Okay" she said. I turned off the light going in Ricky's room. I plopped on his bed. "Untalk me into going" I said.
"Hell no" he said taking off his clothes.
Kamaya
I laid in the bed watching TV with Junior. It was actually Rudy's weekend with the kids and believe it or not I was comfortable with them being around Tamaria. Junior wanted to be home this weekend with me so we were chillin. He was a little livid my nose was swollen and I had a busted lip. the doctor told me nothing was fractured and the swelling would subside in a few days. My face felt like I was hit with a brick. Kasey hits hard as hell and I should've never been the person to experience that. I had back to back calls from Rudy and Kasey and I was tired of the both of them. "Ma, you sure you okay? He asked. Junior was pissed at what happened he's getting older. He feels like Mr. Tough Guy and he wants to check Kasey about earlier.
"I'm okay" I said
"No you're not, you want me to say something cuz I'll say something" he said. "No baby, it was accident a bad accident but this doesn't involve you" I said. My doorbell rung. I removed the covers from off me. I figured it was either Kasey or Rudy. I sighed going down the steps I looked out the peephole to see Kasey. I opened the door. I didn't really know what to say. "Hey, you okay? He asked.
"My face hurts" I said. He shook his head "That hit was for Rudy. Baby I am so sorry I'm beating myself up about it. I would never harm you intentionally. I am so fucking sorry" he said. I felt myself began to cry again but I was going to hold it in. "Baby, please don't cry" he tried grabbing my waist but I flinched. "Don't touch me" I said. He ran his hands through his face. "I was so pissed at what he did. I don't like when guys toy with women's emotions. You've already been through enough and I felt like you were mine and you were just starting to really open up to me and our relationship was growing and then he came out the blue trying to cloud your judgment for the hell of it. Shit really had me tight. But baby you gotta believe me, I'd never lay a finger on you. I love you this shit was a big mistake
"I know you didn't" I sighed. "Can I please come in? He asked. "I don't want you in here alone after what happened" he begged. I didn't want to be rubbed up, hugged up, kissed up by him right now.
"No, I'm not alone. Honestly I'm annoyed by the both of you right now and I don't want neither of you in my face" I said bluntly.
"Kamaya" he said
"Goodnight Kasey, I'll see you at our check up" I said. He nodded his head understanding "Okay... I understand" he said sadly. I closed the door locking it. I wasn't giving in this time not that he expected me to but I was learning I just needed to hold myself sometimes. I rolled my eyes "Ma, you're missing our part" Junior said. "I'm coming" I said going up the steps. We were in the middle of watching Bringing down the house. I laid back on the bed. Junior snuggled beside me. The two of them were all I needed at this moment.
Josie
I felt myself getting emotional all over again. I've been comfortable for along time and now I had go in all over again was nerve wrecking. I was already thinking about if I didn't make it or if I get eliminated the first round. What would I do? Maybe I should just go to fashion school instead and then audition when I'm ready. I can't afford to go out there and not win. "Ricky" I called. "Yeah" he said getting off the phone. "You think I'm making a good decision? I asked. "Uh, yeah" he said.
"Well what if I don't make the final cut. What if I go all the way there and I get eliminated my first go round? Maybe I need to go to fashion school first-
"Josie, please"
"I'm serious
"You're overreacting this was destined for you, what's meant to be will be" he said. I shook my head beginning to cry. "That's not true unfortunate shit happens. I don't want to take Morgan away from the only friends she made and you. I don't know what if I just go to Fashion school of Miami and then audition over and I'll work for you again. I'll do whatever you want" she cried. Ricky didn't want her to go either but he knew she'd be a fool not to go that's like him not taking his scholarship to UCLA for football.
"Josie please I can't take it. Your overreacting you're not even making sense" Ricky said. She would never say something like that. He pulled her into a hug "You trippin, you're thinking way too ahead. You asked for this shit, now you got it and you don't want it. If they didn't think you were capable they wouldn't have picked you and you know that" he said wiping her tears. "I wanna go but I don't wanna go. I wish it was here" she frowned acting like a 5-year-old. "But its not ma, I'm not gon allow you to work for me and be up under me you got shit to do. I got shit to do as well, so prove me the fuck wrong make that bread. I gots to see this" I moved her hips making her smile. "You doubting me? She asked him.
"Nah, but I just gotta see this shit unfold. I was gonna offer to invest in your business and you pay me back but I was like nah Josie is a hustler she gon get it herself
"Aww you're gonna make me cry" she laughed wiping her eyes. "To be tired of me you sure are taking this bad" he joked. She playfully pushed him "I'm not tired of you; its just little things you do that are tired" she said. I bit my lip as she wrapped her hands around my neck. "Shut up and come get this lovin one more time" I said pushing her on the bed. She giggled cupping my face pulling me in for a kiss.
That Morning
"You ready? He asked her. "Yeah" she said pulling down her two suitcases. The rest of her clothes and items she put in storage and she'd ship them to her immediately including her sewing machine her steamer and mannequins. "Oh, I almost forgot" she said pulling out her closet. "I made you this" she said. Ricky looked at it surprised. "You always wanted a jacket with elbow pads" she chuckled. He didn't say anything but it meant a lot to him.
"You made this? He asked. "Yeah try it on" she said taking it off the hanger. He took off his hoodie throwing it on the bed. She smiled helping him put it on. "Wow this is nice" he said looking in the mirror. "I know you pretty much can buy whatever you want, so I thought to make you something" she said.
"Thankyou, how'd you get my size? He asked. She laughed "I took your measurements while you were knocked out" she said. Ricky shook his head "That's crazy, you're sneaky... but I appreciate this... this means alot. Imma definitely wear it" he said.
"You're welcome" she smiled
The car ride there was extremely quiet. Josie was optimistic but heartbroken. Morgan was quiet the whole ride there. Erica was meeting her at the airport they immediately found a small apartment in Harlem. Erica's job was transferable so she'd be starting in two months. After the series is over Josie and Erica promised to go hard on there dreams. "You good? Ricky touched her thigh. "Y-yeah I'm fine" she said looking out the window. They were pulling up at the terminal. "I don't want to go" Morgan said beginning to cry. Josie couldn't take it she hated the feeling. Ricky pulled to the side putting on the hazard lights; he popped the trunk getting out. Josie got out she opened the door unhooking the car seat. Morgan came out wiping her eyes. Ricky closed the trunk handing them their luggage. "This is it" he said. Morgan ran to him hugging him crying. Josie looked away wiping her eyes. "It's okay mama, I'll visit I promise you" he said kissing her cheek. "You be good" he said putting her down. "Okay" she said. "Ight Joselyn" he said. She hugged him tightly "Thankyou for everything" she said. "No, thankyou" he said. He let go pecking her lips then her forehead a few times. She smiled holding in her tears. "You better not" he said
"I know" she wiped her eyes. "Okay... I'm good" she said. "Break a leg" he said.
"See ya old man, I love ya... but you don't have to say it cuz I know you do" she smiled
"Take care" he said
"Take care of yourself Ricky" she said grabbing her things. She was unsure if this would be her last time ever seeing Ricky and she had a gut feeling it was. So she had to tell him that she loved regardless of how he felt. Jace was asleep in his car seat. They began walking Morgan turned around waving. He waved back watching them go inside. He stood there for a minute before getting in the car.
Fun Fact: Jay-z lost ones was about Bey. That inspired this chapter
Awww Josie is gone, its time for her to focus on her dreams.
Kasey omg wtf!!
Y'all think he's going to chase after her or let her be?
Lemonade is almost coming to an end