A few weeks later -
Amber -
I was in the bathroom doing my make up when Jayceon came in wrapped his arms around my waist. "Now you know you don't need all that," he said rubbing my stomach.
"Aww Baby Thank you But I do need it today I feel blah, plus our little rascal has been kicking up a storm all day," I said as he started rubbing on my butt.
"Mmm how long you gone be out tonight babe?" He asked me.
"Not that long I just want to go support Mark, show my face then I'll be back home cause my feet are killing me,"
"Well soon as you come home I'm gone take care of that," he said giving me the sexist look ever. I pulled him down giving him a long lingering kiss. I took my hand and slid down to his grey sweatpants gripping his manhood.
"You better stop that's how you ended up pregnant now," he said as we both laughed.
His phone ranged and he declined the first time, the second time he answered but he walked out the room. I was getting a little tired of him doing that, he never stepped out to another room to talk on the phone. Who was it? Another bitch?
I don't know why but I felt like asking ass his tonight I was no longer going to keep ignoring it. Hell we were about to get married I didn't want to go in a marriage with trust issues.
"Why do you always do that Jayceon?" I asked as I followed him out to our bedroom.
"Do what?" He asked as he turned around facing me he slid his phone in his pocket.
"Always taking your calls outside you never talk on the phone when I'm around you don't even leave your phone out you used to let me answer it, what's up Jayce?" I asked.
"Man you tripping it ain't even that deep bae I swear it ain't," he said as he plopped down on the bed.
"Then let me see your phone," I said as I climbed in bed and on top of him. To my surprise he didn't fuss or argue he just pulled it out and gave it to me.
"Pass code is you birthday," he said as he leaned back unbothered. I went through his messages and of course it was nothing but messages from me, Kendrick, his boss, Erica. I went through pictures and it was mostly pictures of me and him. I felt stupid accusing him.
"Baby I'm sorry, I was wrong," I said feeling stupid.
"Man it's cool I'm used to it," he said shaking it off. He was about to grab the remote when I took it.
"No baby talk to me, if we're married we need to talk about all the issues at hand,"
"I don't have no issues I'm literally out here grinding everyday, making this money so we can be straight I ain't thinking about no other bitches strictly my family, and you accuse me that shit hurt but I let it go, you don't get you the only woman I want,"
He said shaking his head and shrugging his shoulder
"Babe I'm sorry i promise it's my hormones driving me crazy, I know you're not cheating but me sitting around in this house all day has my mind going nuts," I said as I ran my fingers through my hair.
"You can't blame all that on your hormones Amb you was accusing me before you was pregnant I don't know what you want me to do, all I've been doing literally is working my ass, paying these bills, keeping a roof over our fucking head, all I ask is to come home to a clean house, a back rub every now and then, a hot plate, and support from my woman not this bullshit," he said as he tried to get up but I wouldn't let him.
"So I don't do that?" I asked him he wouldn't look at me he just kept avoiding eye contact
"Really babe?" I asked him.
"Man Amber I don't wanna talk right now, I just wanna be by myself," he said as he grabbed his headphones and his phone. He put them in with his music blasting. A tear fell down my eye as I got up off of him. I went in the bathroom slamming the door. An hour later I finished getting dressed. Tina called me letting me know she was down stairs. Grabbing my jacket and purse I walked passed Jayceon without saying a word.
*****
Jayceon -
Wanting to blow some steam, I went to the gym and did three hours worth of rigorous exercises. The Weeknd's False Alarm blasted in my ears while I did my jumping jacks. Once I was done I took a sip of my water and started doing sit-ups.
Amber was on my mind heavily, she was right if we was married, we didn't need to have any issues. I've done nothing for her to not trust me. I simply go to the club handle business, I take care of my business outside of the club, and I come home. There's been plenty of women who throw themselves at me.
Plenty of times I could of disrespected her and fucked other people but I stayed true. All this accusing me was really pushing me to the edge. As much as I hated to say it, and even though I proposed a few days ago, me and Amber really needed a break. Just to focus on us. Focus on our baby, she's doing her thing with the teaching and I'm looking to expand the club and make some new connections. I don't need all this extra stress on my mind.
I didn't want to break Amber's heart though. I've literally been considering both of our feelings but I think this is what we truly need. After working out I took a shower and changed back in my regular clothes. I stopped by Erica's. I had wanted to see Harlem I hadn't seen him in a week or two.
That was another thing on my mind, I need to sit down and discuss this living situation with Erica. I didn't want my son out in the streets. I had made in my mind that I would draw up some paper work and come to an agreement to give her money each month that would be enough to take care of her and Harlem. To be honest I wanted to file for full custody but I didn't want to do that to her. I didn't want to take him away from her as much as I wanted him to be home with me all the time.
I pulled in her driveway. I parked the car and got out walking up to her door, I rang the doorbell and I could hear Harlem in the back. I saw him look out the window and he instantly smiled, I heard him yell. "It's daddy mommy!" A few moments later Erica opened the door.
"Daddy!" Harlem yelled as he ran to me.
"What's up man?" I said smiling as I picked him up and started tickling him. He laughed uncontrollably as I walked in the house. I kicked off my shoes and sat down on the couch.
"Me missed you daddy and Amber," he pouted.
"I know man I'm sorry daddy you gone come see you everyday I promise,"
"Pinky promise," he said holding up his pinky.
"Pinky promise," I said wrapping my pinky around his.
" you hungry daddy mommy cooked," he smiled.
"Yeah It wasn't much I threw something together you're welcomed to have some if you want?" Erica asked.
"Uh Yeah sure," I said taking off my jacket. Erica went in the kitchen and came back out with a plate of food and a Pepsi.
"Thanks," I said as I started eating. I guess due to me working out so hard I had built up an appetite cause I banged all that food. Me, Harlem and Erica watched a movie together we played a few games up until Harlem fell asleep. I tucked him in bed and kissed his forehead before leaving out his room.
While downstairs I figured this was the perfect time to talk to Erica. "Jayceon I wanna say thank you I know it was you who paid those bills for me I didn't ask you to do that," she said as we sat down.
"I know but as a man I'm not going to see my son or his mother suffer, we not together but that don't mean I can't help you when you need it," I reached in my pocket. .
"Jayceon I'm not asking you for any money," she said interrupting me.
"E I know you not but I wanna make sure y'all straight," I handed her two rolls of cash.
"That's enough money for groceries or whatever y'all need for this month and next month, he need new shoes it's real cold out I'm tired of seeing him in that little ass coat, all I ask is that you take care of our son I know I wasn't around when he was first born and I know when I found out about him I acted like I didn't want him but for these past couple months I've grown to love him and I'd die for him, he's the most important thing to me, so I'm gone make sure he straight," I said before leaving. I got in my car and drove off back to the house. After taking a shower I climbed in bed drifting off to sleep.
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Amber -
"I think we just need some time apart as much as I hate to admit it," I said to Mark.
"Well you gotta do what you gotta do sis, but where you gonna go?" He asked me.
"I miss my mama I think I'm going to visit her," I said as I sipped on my hot tea. Grabbing my phone from my purse I took a deep sigh as I began dialing a number I hadn't dialed in years.