Chapter Forty-Seven
After I got it all out to Jules I got angry, we decided to go to Kelly's as customers tonight so that I could enjoy a night out, I ended up telling everyone what happened and Kelly said she could keep him from the bar.
My phone vibrated again and his name popped up, he had been calling none stop so I shut the damn thing off and put it in my purse behind the bar. Jules and I took a few shots, me more than her, before going into the heart of the crowd to dance and when it hit me I forgot all about Aiden for a little bit.
Sure it would be worse tomorrow but right now I didn't care.
I was now single and I wasn't pregnant and I could do whatever I wanted.
On their breaks the boys would come and join us for a little bit and it made it all the more fun. It was nearing midnight when Jules pulled me aside to a quieter place
"I have to get home, JB's with Joe and I don't want to be out to late and I promised him we would go to a movie tomorrow." She gave me a small smile
"It's fine, I'll get a ride home with Kelly or one of the bouncers, or one of the boys." I shrugged
"Alright, I'll see you later then and you're going to be okay." She gave me a tight hug that made me want to cry all over again but I swallowed it and she smiled before heading out. I went to the bar and sat there ready to order another drink or five to help me forget.
"Drinking isn't the answer." Kellan leaned on the bar
"I know." I played with the shot he sat down
"It won't solve anything." He looked at me and I shrugged
"It will tonight." He went to say something and I licked my hand to pour the salt on and shoved a lime in his mouth. I licked the salt, took the shot of tequila and pulled his by the back of the neck towards me so I could bite the lime and when I took it from him our lips grazed and I kissed him.
He smiled and kissed me back a minute before he pulled back
"You my dear are drunk." He kissed my cheek and pulled away from me. Oh what a respectable guy he was, damn it.
Funny part was that I wasn't really that drunk, that was the first shot I've had in hours, since I got here and I only had about five before.
I knew exactly what I was doing.
I went back out and danced with random strangers and let the music and lights wash over me again and like before all thoughts of him just vanished. At last call I went and got water instead and sat at the bar until people started clearing out.
I had sobered up now and I felt like crap, it was just me and my thoughts.
Why did he do it, was I just not good enough for him? Was this the first time or had he been hooking up with her behind my back? I had no idea. Would he tell me the truth if I asked?
I sat there and waited for them to be done
"I'll close up; you boys get her home and then get yourselves home." Kelly smiled at me and came over to give me a big motherly hug; I hadn't even called my mom yet about this because it would feel even more real if I did.
I wasn't ready for that. Sure it was more real that they knew but when my family knew it would be like it was official and that thought killed me more.
"Come on drunky." Kellan pulled me from the stool and I yanked my arm from him
"Just because I'm upset doesn't mean I have no fucking self-control. I've had six shots today, five when I got here and one earlier, I'm not drunk, I'm not an alcoholic and I will not be one, you fucking idiots drink more than that while at work." I said annoyed and Kellan went to open his mouth
"Just leave it dude." Jake came over sensing my annoyance
"Some fucking observant bar tender you are." I didn't remove my eyes from his.
"So Jake, you're taking her home right?" he asked and I rolled my eyes again.
"Yeah, I'll take her home." He agreed
"I'll walk." I was annoyed at them, granted not fully at them, but still.
"You are not walking." Jake said as soon as we got outside and he gripped my arm and pulled me over to his car, of course I struggled but he was pretty damn strong.
"Let me go." I snapped
"You're acting like an irritating child Chelsie, get in the fucking car." He opened my door and shoved me in there.
"I have nowhere to go." I whispered when he got in, my voice broke and it was far from strong and then I felt the tears come. Where was I supposed to live now? I couldn't stay at Kelly's, she had a full house already, I couldn't stay at home with Aiden. I would need to figure something else out.
"You can stay with me until you figure it out." He said softly and I shook my head. He drove towards his place and I remained silent. What would I do? Should I just move back home? Why did I ever think it was a good idea to sleep with my roommate, you didn't do that shit for this reason right here!
We got there and he got me something to sleep in and told me to take his room but I refused to do that, I was in the middle of changing when Jake came out shirtless.
"Do you need anything else?" he asked trying not to star at my bare legs or nearly exposed chest. I quickly pulled on the shirt so I didn't make him uncomfortable and I shrugged
"No." I said and he gave me a sad smile before coming over to give me a hug, I hated hugs, they always made you more emotional.
When he pulled back from the hug he looked down at me and I reached up and kissed him. He stayed kind of frozen and I pulled back and he looked down at me
"We can't do this." he told me and I sighed
"I know." I looked away, I knew why he wouldn't but it didn't exactly help me self-esteem right now after catching my boyfriend cheating on me.
"You're in an emotional place and"
"I know Jake, I know." I said and he tilted my face up to meet his eyes
"You'll regret it." he said
"I know that too." Jake and I established we had no feelings for each other passed friendship
"It will make it all worse." He said softer
"I don't care." I wanted to make stupid decisions today; I didn't care about the consequences. I leaned up and kissed him again and this time he kissed me back and I groaned, we may not like each other passed friendship but if my memory serves me right he was a very talented man.
He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around him, feeling him press against my core and I moaned as his teeth nipped at my skin. He wasn't gentle at all as he pushed me roughly to the wall. I rocked against him and he groaned.
"Take me to bed, now." I said and he walked me over to his room and tossed me down on the bed. We both knew this wasn't a good idea but he pulled my shirt over my head and I pushed his shorts down which left him naked and me with just a bra and underwear
"You sure?" he asked and I nodded
"Yes." I said and he nodded
He pulled my panties down and I tossed my bra to the side before he hovered over me and kissed me again. His body rubbed against mine as he pressed against me and I gasped in pleasure as he bit my neck hard before darting his tongue out to sooth the pain. His hands were everywhere in all the right places which effectively shut my brain off from any other thoughts.
I felt him rub against my entrance and I moaned. His hands tweaked my nipples before he ran his hand between my thighs and pushed two fingers deep inside of me. I gasped as he pushed against my walls, his rhythm teasing until he stopped suddenly.
I made a sound of protest but he smirked as he slid lower down my body making sure his mouth touched as much of my skin as possible until he settled lower between my thighs. He ran his tongue over my entrance and then up to my clit, he sucked and gently bit before his tongue started it's assault and I gripped hard onto his hair. He groaned when I pulled it harder and my hips rocked against him and he sure as hell knew how to please a woman.
And he definitely followed ladies first, making sure I got off at least once before we moved to have sex.
He sucked on my thigh and his tongue made little circles which earned a surprising moan but I needed more, I needed him.
"Shit, I need to be inside you." he whispered in my ear "If we have to stop this time it's going to kill me Chels." There was desperation in his voice he didn't want me to return the favor right now, he wanted to slam his dick inside of me and fuck me like it would be the last time, because it would be; this was a big mistake waiting to happen but we didn't care. I looked at him in a way I hoped was seductive and bit my lip.
"Got a condom?" I asked and his gave me a wicked look as he reached into a drawer. I grabbed it from him and tore the foil and eagerly slid it on, we were done messing around now and we were about to finish what we started nearly a year ago. He pressed his body fully to mine and he looked straight into my eyes as he pressed the tip in.
I bit my lip and groaned as he slid the first inch in painfully slow and then he thrust deep into me and I called out his name; there was no turning back now.
I raised my hips to meet his thrusts and it actually felt pretty fucking amazing and I refused to compare him to anyone else as he pounded into me.
He was amazing, this was amazing and holy shit I needed a release right now or I was going to explode, it didn't matter that he just gave me one, he already had me ready to beg for another. He hit my g-spot what felt like none stop and I was not a quiet lover, I was loud when I was enjoying myself but I hardly think he minds.
His face, it looked like he was in bliss right now as he gripped onto my body, it had been a year since we started this and my memory definitely wasn't mistaken and he was better in bed than I thought he would be.
"So fucking tight." He ground out as he tried to keep a hold on himself. I drug my nails down his back and wrapped my legs around him. I was yelling in pleasure and calling out his name which he seemed to like very much.
"Shit, don't fucking stop!" I yelled and he bit my nipples and I nearly lost it. I slid my hands down and dug my nails into the flesh of his very nice ass to hold his body against mine as I screamed, his name tumbling from my lips.
My hips jerked against him and my channel squeezed him until I couldn't yell or scream anymore and I was left breathless as he thrust quickly and I felt him come into the latex that separated us. There as a look of pure pleasure on his face as he found his release and then he flopped beside me. He pulled the condom off, tied it and tossed it before looking over at me as we panted for breath
"Well that was a mistake" I said to him and he laughed and nodded
"Of fuck yeah it was, but it was damn amazing." He added and I nodded
"I think I almost passed out, I have to admit you're incredible." I said boosting his ego and he smirked
"As were you my little sex kitten." He ran his finger up my thigh and I purred playfully which made him laugh.
"Thanks for that though." I said still blocking out the memory of what had happened less than twenty-four hours ago.
"I would say anytime but that wouldn't be a good idea."
"Probably not." I agreed.
"I guess we got that out of our system then." He said as he pulled me against his side and I nodded
"No awkwardness right?" I asked and he shook his head
"Nope, I care very much about you though and I'm here if you need me and I'm serious about you crashing here. We could have sleep overs every night." He winked dramatically
"Can we paint each other's nails and everything?" I gasped excitedly
"I live for it, can't wait!" He said with so much false excitement I couldn't contain my laughter. He was what I needed, Jules was what I needed and damn it Kellan was what I needed too, they were all going to keep me sane through it all.
He cheated on me, it was his loss right?
Then why does it feel like I'm the one who lost out?
I don't know if that feeling will pass but I know I definitely lost because my heart felt utterly broken. He got up and came back with a tub of ice cream and two spoons.
"Come on my little kitten, talk to me." he said and I rolled my eyes at the nickname before taking a spoon and digging in with him and then he let me talk and cry and fall asleep on him.
The next morning I felt like shit but I didn't regret what I did last night. I needed to move on and while I knew it was too soon I figured I would fake my way through it until it actually happened.
now come on, do you think i would leave you team Jake fans without at least one sex scene between them? it had to happen, at least in my opinion and since i write the book.. i do what i want :p