Demi's POV
These past 2 days I've been a mess my eyes were puffy from crying and I haven't slept since the day I went to the base Marissa has stayed with me throughout these two days and I'm grateful for that, Jeremy on the other hand he's upset about the whole thing he couldn't stop crying it was hard for us to tell him that his Momma was now in heaven looking down on him it was hard for me to even accept the fact that she's in heaven and that I'll never see my soulmate again. I walk into the bathroom and I died my hair black I thought maybe that would help me cope for a few minutes but nothing worked everything I've tried these past two days didn't help it just made me feel worse I felt numb. When I was done dying my hair I hear Marissa walking into the bathroom and she says
"Hey Dems I'm going to get the girls and bring them here that way we can go together to the memorial are you going to be okay here by yourself.?" she said
"Yeah Mar..I'll be fine just go I'll be ready when you come back." I said
"Demi..." she said in a worried tone
"Yeah Mar.?..." I said my voice was raspy from all the sobbing she walks up to me and she hugs me I began to silently cry on her shoulder something I always did since we were kids growing up she looks into my eyes and says
"No matter what today you have to be strong for Jeremy,For the girls and especially Alex..." she said my lip was quivering I bit it trying hard not to start sobbing again I nod my head and she hugs me one last time before she leaves once I hear the door shut I began sobbing again I fall on my knees and start crying I bury my head onto Alex's Letterman Jacket I hold onto it tight I can still smell her vanilla perfume on it I knew I promised Marissa I wouldn't do it anymore but I need to feel something just to let it all out I get up from the bathroom floor and I grab the box of razors that was there I stare blankly at the piece of cold metal and before I knew it I felt the cold metal rub against my skin and before I knew it I had 4 cuts on my wrists I wiped my eyes and cleaned my wrist once I pulled myself together I decided to get ready once I'm finished I get Jeremy ready once he's finished I hear the doorbell ring I walk downstairs and I open the door and I see Stephanie in her formal military uniform I saw in her eyes that she wanted to cry but she was keeping it in I knew it was hard for her too because she saw Alex die, she looks at me and she says
"Hey Demi how are you.?" she said
"Not doing so good I mean I haven't been myself without her I feel like my heart was ripped out and I-I don't want to do anymore." I said as I felt the tears coming back into my eyes I wiped them away and I said
"I'm sorry I just can't stop crying it's so hard to believe she's really gone.." I said she wraps her arms around me and I held onto her she gently rubs my back and said
"Demi it's okay look don't ever feel like you're alone because you're not I'll be here for you." she said
she looks deep into my eyes as I stare back at hers when I looked into her eyes I realized they were similar to Alex's they were very similar it felt like I was staring into Alex's eyes I see Stephanie lean in closer and our lips are inches apart I slowly pull away and she did the same,I smile a little bit but it soon drops my depression was getting the best of me. As it was time for us to go Stephanie walks me out with the rest of the girls I managed to cover up my wrists with make up just in case, as we drove down the street we make it to the cemetery where Alex, Zac,Riley's and Nick's memorial service was being held as we walked up the hill it was a windy September day it was cold once we finally reached the top I see dozens of men in uniform and I see Alex's dad in his uniform since he was in the service too he sees me and he walks up to me and says
"Sweetheart since you're part of this family I would like to ask you if you can say a few words and be the one to sit in my place next to Nicole as I bring in my...daughter for the last time." he said as his voice started to crack
"I will Criag I'll do it." I said holding back tears
He nods his head and hugs me once we let go he walks towards the other officers as I sit down next to Nicole we hold hands the entire time while my entire family was sitting behind me Wilmer,Jeremy, My mom and dad,Maddie and Dallas and all of Alex's friends including Marissa and Selena were there. I look around and notice there was a huge crowd I see 2 different families under the same white tent's we were in as we stand next to 4 open graves. I hear the music playing in the distance and I see the hearses pull up I see 6 officers go to each hearse to get each coffin out they all brought them in order I see Alex's dad hold onto the gold rail of Alex's coffin he was in the front along with one of the Lieutenants I saw the other day I see him whisper something and he bites his lip and then clenches his jaw he was being strong for his daughter. As they walk up my heart began to sink as I held onto Nicole's hand we were both sobbing as Alex's dad set the coffin down on Alex's grave and he walked towards us sitting next to his wife as the memorial started.
"We are here to honor the lives of these 4 brave young individuals who sacrificed their lives to save the lives of their fellow soldiers I had the pleasure of meeting this group of incredible soldiers when we first started and I remember Officer Johnson coming back with ash all over her face and her entire group coming back looking the same but that day when they showed up looking like dirt they saved 20 people from a burning village and I was proud of them for their bravery I honor these soldiers with the highest honor in the service The Purple Heart and The Silver Cross may these forever show that no matter who you are or where you come from you can make a difference in this world." said Sargent Mason
I see everyone around me and they had tears in their eyes and so did I after Riley, Zac and Nick's parents spoke it was Alex's dad and mom to speak then it was my turn Alex's mom couldn't speak but seeing her sob like that shows how much her daughter meant to her
"My babygirl....my daughter what can I say other than the fact that we'll miss you.. I remember seeing her grow up and playing with my old combat helmets with her Uncle Danny and her saying how much she wanted to be like her daddy and her mommy saving people and helping the world it was always her dream to do that she always said she wanted to marry that perfect someone be happy then she met her beautiful fiance who I know that she's forever going to be apart of this family and Alex I know you can't hear me but you accomplished that dream baby you did it and you did it with the girl you love so much and we're so proud of you.." Alex dad once he finishes I stand up and make my way to the front of her coffin as I walk up to her coffin I see her gravestone and it says
"Alexandra Johnson Born October,14th, 1995- Died September, 19th, 2014 "You'll Always Be Forever In Our Hearts."
I held in my sobs and I stand there next to it I see her picture there on a stand of roses and I feel a slight wind blow to the side and I had a feeling it was her I sighed and my tears fell
"Everyday while Alex was away I would talk to her over the phone and video call her from time to time and I would always see her with a smile on her face she loved helping people no matter what. She's the girl I fell in love with the one that always sang to me when I felt down, the one that would make me smile without her even trying and the one who has half of my heart with her Alex you said this to me before you left when you held our necklaces together and said "No matter what my heart will always beat with yours even if it stops beating my heart will always beat with you." she said to me and now my heart is broken without you here...Baby I miss you so much and I love you no matter what and you say that I saved you but in reality you saved me....you saved me now I stand here saying goodbye and I'll be with you soon baby I love you forever and always goodbye Alex.." I said as I sobbed onto Alex's dad shoulder Stephanie walks over to me and holds onto me tight. I turn around and I see Alex's dad place one of his war medals on top of Alex's casket he walks away and he salutes slowly as the other officers lower the coffins I bury my head in Stephanie's shoulder as I sob harder because the love of my life is being buried right in front of me.
Jennifer's POV
As Demi finished her speech it was time for them to bury my best friend I was crying and so were the other girls but I think the hardest person this hit he most was Demi she kept sobbing and it broke my heart each time I heard her sob, Everyone got up and grabbed a rose the placed it on Alex's casket as it was being lowered to the ground as I was waiting to drop my rose in I look at Stephanie and she drops her rose in and as she's walking away she smirks a little and I see her mouth something
"Why the fuck did she just smirk.? what the fuck is so funny.?" I thought to myself my sadness turned to pure anger as I finally dropped my rose in I whispered into Alex's open grave
"I'll take care of Demi I won't let that bitch get to her Alex I promise." I said when they finally buried the caskets Demi didn't want to leave Alex's side but we had to take her home she wasn't physically able to do it on her own she fought for awhile and she finally gave in I stayed behind for a second to find Stephanie once I finally found her I shoved her to get her attention
"Hey what the fu- oh hey Jennifer what can I help you with.?" she said
"Cut the crap Stephanie don't think I didn't see what you did back there why the fuck did you smirk while walking by my best friends grave.?" I said
"What are you talking about I didn't smirk.?" she said I can tell she was lying
"Either you tell me the truth or the next funeral you'll be at is your own now tell me why the fuck did you smirk.?" I said
"Oh Jen when are you guys going to learn that you can't always get what you want out of life I guess Alex should've known that but look how that turned out." she said I scoff and I slapped her hard in the face
"You little bitch if you ever speak that way about my best friend again I will end you do I make myself clear!" she looks at me and her nose started bleeding then I said
"I don't buy that bullshit story that you told everyone I'm gonna find out the truth and if I find out that you killed my best friend I'm going to be coming after you and make sure you pay for what you did I also don't want you near Demi I don't give a fuck what the reason is you stay the fuck away do you understand.?" I said she doesn't say anything I had her by her collar and I threw her on the ground
"Good now get the hell out of here you piece of shit." I said before I walked back to the car and went home I'm going to find out what the fuck happened to my best friend and show everyone that Stephanie is a fucking traitor.
Demi's POV
I get home and Marissa decided to spend the night again to make sure I was fine when I walked in the house I see a stack of letters there by the doorway I look at them and I see it's all from the U.S army the front half had my name written in pen instead of it being printed and it said "Open Immediately After Receiving In Mail." I ignore it and leave it where it was I put Jeremy to bed and I go to my room I lock the door and I fall on my knees after today I didn't have the urge to live anymore I wanted to die to be with the girl I love I wanted to end it tonight but Marissa was here and I didn't want to do it when they were in the house but I knew one thing for sure that it hurts to much for me to live I knew what I wanted and that was to be with Alex even if that means ending it all.
(Hey you guys sorry for the boring update and I'm updating tonight! sorry for the long wait I had a busy weekend but hope you all liked it and what do you think is going to happen and are you happy Jen slapped Stephanie in the face...well anyway see you guys later night love you all and if you want to know when I'm updating follow me on twitter @Lovatic4life92_ for when I'm updating next and I'll answer some questions and I follow back well night love you all!) p.s the music on the side play it when you read in Demi's POV "I hear the music playing in the distance." love you all night!