Camila POV
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I couldn't sleep last night I kept on twisting and turning I checked the time on my phone and noticed I had a text from last night after checking the time it was 9:00 and the funeral started at 10:00. I opened the text
From:Curls ♥_♥
Are you okay babe?
I quickly replied
To: Curls ♥_♥
Yeah I'm fine just dandy :) Don't worry how R U???
I sent it and put my phone down I grabbed my clothes for today which was my undergarments and a black mid thigh lace dress with a brown small belt under my boobs. I grabbed my clothes and made my way to the bathroom I undressed and took a quick shower I shaved and shampood and got out wrapping a plush towel around myself after I dried if I slipped on my undergarments and put on my dress I then slipped on my black wedges the ones that have laces and ty up and slipped in my black blazer. I put my dirty clothes in my purse and went into Sutton's room she was awake and doing her makeup.
" can I borrow some of your makeup and your hair brush"? I asked
" sure" she gave me a small smile
I grabbed her mascara and brushed it on my eyelashes. I then grabbed her comb and brushed my hair down. I borrow her Red lipstick and applied it to my lips I borrowed her eye primer and put it on the black bags under my eyes I grabbed her eyeliner and put it on my bottom lid making my eyes pop out. I thanked her and went back to the guest room I looked through my bag for a black bow and put it on my hair I then grabbed my stuff and headed downstairs My mom was making breakfast
" can I help"? I asked
" no its fine I'm already done but thanks cam" she smiled
" sit down" she smiled
I did what was told and she served me coffee and Pan caliente ( a/ n look it up!!)
I smiled and thanked her soon Brian and Sutton came down we all ate breakfast in silence until it was time to go it was 9:45 we all piled into Brian's black Jeep the ride was quiet we couldn't hear music for a few days because Mexican tradition was that if your mourning you can't listen to music because its a shame to the person who passed.
( a/n its true I'm Mexican American so I know)
When we got to the reseption I saw Mr. Hernandez organizing everything we all got out of the car my second dad greeted me with a hug.
" How long has it been Cam"? he asked
" 4 years" I stated
" its been long I'm glad you made it" he gave me a small smile
I nodded
we helped with the little things that weren't ready like putting the tamales and Pan Dulce in the table and coffee so people can get some.
The priest had gotten here and he was setting up at the alter they were barely setting Mason's body at the alter. As it became 10:00 people starting coming in and giving us condolences I noticed a lot of people from high school. As the priest started the Mass I took my seat first row the boys and my parents and the girls and Lauren's parents were behind me and harry next to me holding my hand I sat by Sutton and Sutton next to Brian.
As the priest finisged the Mass and Sutton, Brian, Alice my other mom, and Gustavo my other dad said there words they asked if I wanted to I noddes and harry gave me a worried glance I smiled and he gave me a reassuring smile as I made my way up.
" Hi I'mCamila going to say a few words I didn't have anything prepared but I'll say it from the heart" I said from the poteum
" Mason was a great person the best friend anyone could ask for he was always there for me even when we lived far away he always made someone's day he had that power over people and he was one of the sweetest people you can meet. I remember back when we were five when we met I had dropped my ice cream cone and he gave me his from that day forward we were inseparable. I remember all the pranks we played tripping Sutton sorry Sut" I gave a small smile remembering as the crowd laughed
" He was a kind person he gave me so much to remember and he thought me things I remember back when I was 16 I was so mad at the world for various things that had happened I hated everything around me and Mason thought me that I shouldn't be mad at the world that things happen for a reason and the world is a great place he also though me how to have confidence in myself. hes one of the reasons im following my dream if it wasn't for him him i wouldn't have what I have now. I just wish we would have Stayed in touch longer and we should have hanged out more before I left that will always be my most biggest regret but hes somewhere better looking over us" I smiled fighting tears
" I also remember the song Mase and I used to sing all the time so this is for you boo" I smiled picking up the.mic and telling the guy at the piano to start playing .
As I sang the wind blew in my face and the rain prickled
When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.
When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.
I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I will never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.
I sang walking next to the coffin it was still open I felt my eyes water at the site.
I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
And I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.
I sang pouring my heart into it I felt a tear roll down my cheek and I put my hand on the closed part of the coffin
The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
The winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.
I sang softly tears Rolling down my cheeks.
I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
I sang softly tears rolling down
To make you feel my love
I put the mic in its place and Brian came along and Huged me I burried.my face in his neck as I cried.
I heard the droplets of water hitting the reception.
" Mason"? I asked as I saw a tall Brown eyed boy dresses in black
" what"? Brian asked
" turn around" I smiled
he did what i told him
" I'm sorry cam that isn't mase its Alex his twin come on I'll introduce you" he pulled my hand
" hey Alex" Brian greeted with a hug
" hey"
" who's this"? Alex asked
" that's mase best friend" Brian introduced
" nice to meet you" he smiled
" same" I croaked cleaning away the tears
"hey" I heard a deep husky voice greet I turned around to harry and the boys dresses in black
" im sorry for your loss" Niall whispered in my ear and hugged me the other boys did the same I nodded.
" were going to head out to the house for the small reunion thing" Brian stated
" will see you there right"? he asked
I nodded he said his goodbyes and left.
They had already burried mason and everyone was eighter gone or leaving. I was on my knees in front of mason's grave I cried and cried harry patting my back and the rain falling on us.After what seemed like hours harry nudged down to my height.
" we have to go Camz were bith soaking wet and its getting cold your going to get sick" he smiled weakly I nodded and he enveloped me in a hug he put Hus arm jver my shoulder as we walked to the range rover management rented us when we got inside harry turned the heat all the way up. I felt tears still rolling down my face I probably looked like a panda right now but I didn't care I was hurting all just because my best friend my practically brother passes I deserve to be sad but he didnt deserve to die he was so positive about life unlike me and he was taken away instead of me.
" where going to your house to get cleaned up then to Mason's right"? harry askes focusing in the road
" yeah"
After a few turns we were in front of my house we weren't exactly poor we owned a big enough house for all four of us maybe a bit bigger because my mother was a lawyer a good one at that.
As I looked through my soaking purse for keys I finally found them I unlocked the door and harry and i walked in we took off our shoes because they were muddy and wet.
" I'm going to take a shower" I stated
" can I join you"? harry asked cheekily
" whatever" I stated and walked upstairs he looked at me with a frown on his face.
When j got to my bedroom I saw all the pictures of mason and I hanging in each wall I tries to ignore them but failed and started to sob I put my iPhone to charge and then I quickly grabbed some clothes and went into the bathroom I took a quick shower not wanting to think it just killed me to think about mason. I quickly changed into a black long sleeved flowy top With a white collar and buttons I quickly buttoned up and slipped on some black thights and slipped on some dark navy high waisted shorts I tucked in the blouse and slipped on black lace up wedges I put on deodorant and perfume and slipped on a black leather jacket with a gray hoodie. I then grabbed my phone and went downstairs harry sat there in new dry black skinny jeans a black t shirt and his normal boots.
" let's go"? he asked
I nodded he followed me out and into the range rover the ride was quiet.
When we got there I knocked and Alex opened the door every time I saw him I just wanted to make myself in a ball in cry.
he greeted us and let us through everyone most family members ally's parents and mostly everyone who attended the funeral was there around the fire pit.
As the boys and girls spotted me they gave me a reassuring smile. Harry took my hand and lead me to them.
Normani was the first one to hug me and I just let her I didn't hug back nor pull away.
" you okay"? Dinah asked concerned
" yeah I'm great" I smiled
I quickly turned on my iphone and went on twitter.
@CamilaCabello97
I love you lots!
xoxo
Muah!¡
I quickly exit out and turned my phone off once again
I miss you mase I can't believe your gone! I promise from now on ill be strong for you boo I will fight whatever life throws at me for you I love you mason!!
" Camila are you listening"? Lou asked
" uh no sorry what's up"? I smiled weakly
" we were saying if you wanted to head out with us"?
" umm I'll just stay a few more minutes then I'll meet you out okay"? I asked
" sure" they nodded they said there condolences and left.
i gave one last look at everything in here and k made my way to my other mom I said my condolences and she hugged me wishing me good luck with life I gave her a smile and walked out.
I saw everyone in the range rover so I made my way inside I sat next to Lauren.
" where are we going"? ally asked Lou
" I know where" I called they looked at me with a confused a relived face
" where"? liam asked
" let's go clubbing" I smiled
" how about not you don't even like drinking " harry accused
" okay can someone just drop me off at home I just want to be alone" I stated looking out the window
" okay" liam agreed he turned on the range rover and we went back to my house I got dropped off and the others said they were going out to diner which they probably weren't they just wanted to be away from me woudnt blame them. As I locked the door I quickly made my way to the wine cabinet my mom barely drank because she was always working so we had a lot I grabbed the wine bottle and wine glass I then took the wine glass and the wine I went to the guitar room were i spent most of my child hood I sat at the black couch I poured myself some wine and drank away my sorrows it tasted awful it tasted weird like rancid or sour after about 5 glasses I didn't taste the diffrence anymore I drank it like water. And i was thinking random thoughts Mason wasn't in my thoughts anymore it as i tried to pour myself more i noticed I had finished the bottle as i stood up to retrieve another I was dizzy and tumbling both side I giggled as I made my way to the trashcan i threw it in the bin still tumbling over my own feet the door bell rang
" coming" I slurred
I fell twice on my way to the door when I opened the door I was face to face with 9 people taring at me in astonishment I laughed.
" come in before you become trolls" I laughed
Lou niall and zayn laughed
Liam looked worried and so did ally
Harry looked pist off
" hey harry babe are you on your period or why are you glaring" I asked
Lou, Niall, and zayn double off in laughter so did Lauren,Normani and Dinah. liam and Ally stiffen laughs.
" anyone wanna get matching tattoos with me???" I asked
" what kind of tattoo are we talking about"? Lou asked
" I don't know yet maybe an Arabic quote"?
" okay lets go will decided when we get there" Lou smiled
" you guys arent going anywhere" harry screamed and i flinched.
" where's the old Camila the one who didn't like to drink"? he asked
" I'll never be that girl again no uhhhh oh oh" I sang
" write that down it was pretty good" I slurred
The boys laughed except for harry
Lauren took her phone out and I guess did what I told her.
" I'm going to go call Nick Jonas ill be back" I called out trying to walk away but falling the boys laughed
" stupid heels" I muttered untieying them.
" I like drunk Camila she's funny" Lou screamed
" me too" I yelled
" we need to talk upstairs now" harry stated I can see his light green eyes a darker color jade.
As i made my way up the stairs i fell each two stairs. So harry picked me up and we went into my room.
" Why did you get drunk"? harry asked
" wait i got drunk"? I asked innocently
" yes now cut the crap and tell me why"! he ordered
before I knew what i was doing I fell on top of harry on the bed and kissed him I can feel him getting hard my hand traveled down his pants and i patted his little man. Harry then stopped the kiss and pushed me down.
" I can't take advantage of you Camila your drunk" he stated
I frowned but i knew he was right
" let's just go to bed" he smiled we layed there my head on his chest and his a wrapped protectively around my waist it felt so right I went to sleep with the beating of harry's Heart.
( a/NDrunk Camila is funny who would have known! Vote & Comment! And do ya thing!)