I closed the bathroom door behind me.
I saw your towel laying on the floor and grabbed it.
I sniffed your scent and I thought back of us dating last year.
Did you really break me back then?
Flashback
Orlando, Prague, February 2018
''I wanna see you''
I said, making you turn around.
You smiled a little.
I walked closer to you.
''I really wanna see you.''
I carefully took your sunglasses and head off.
Finally the beauty you were hidden got shown.
I stroke over your soft cheek with my cold thumb.
And looked deep into your eyes and you looked deep back.
''You are so gorgeous''
I said.
You smiled and said:
''I love you.''
''I love you more.''
Our lips got closer to each other.
We kissed.
Katy, Prague, February 2018
No one had ever said those words to me.
''I wanna see you.
I really wanna see you.''
Orlando has changed.
Positively changed.
Man, I am so happy he is back in my life.
Our trip to Prague was one of our first getting back together trips.
We had such a great time.
2017 he broke me,
There's no denying that he did.
But is Angela right?
What about 2018.
I shook my head.
I broke myself back then.
Not you.
When we broke up...
Flashback
Katy, July 2018
''Katy can I talk to you?''
You grabbed my hand and lead me to the sofa.
We sat down next to each other.
You were still holding my hand.
I studied your face and saw you fighting against your tears.
I felt what was coming and I am sure I'm not gonna like it.
''You want to break up again, because of the tour? still staying friends?''
You just nodded your head.
''Thanks man, thanks, just before I have to catch my flight.
Great timing.
Goodbye Orlando.
This time forever.''
I slammed you in your face.
I didn't know why.
I just had to.
I didn't even say sorry.
I just left.
I went crazy after that.
Totally mad.
My whole plan fell apart.
After my tour,
I wanted to marry you.
Start a family.
But this dream I had, this plan.
It couldn't become reality anymore.
I was alone again.
Just like after the prismatic world tour
and the California dreams tour
and the Hello Katy tour.
My world tours were the murders of my relationships.
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A/N: I'M SO SORRY IT'S BEEN SO LONG! Testweeks fault, but now I have summervacation, so I hope I get the chance to write a lot! xx Lotte