sososo this isn't an update, as you can probably tell. You can also probably tell that i haven't updated in a while. I don't wanna be those types of writers that every week they post they complain about not posting. Or disappear for a year...which i kinda did but for 3 years :).
Any who's Latley i've been just feeling like complete shit. I'm trying to cut out friends from my life who are toxic. Which I seem to find be half of my friends but in doing so.. I feel so lonely. All my friends that I'm cutting out are really close friends, friends I've been friends with for like 12-4 years.
It feels so shit being the only one putting in effort into the friendship and not getting anything in return. I feel like a second choice, or sometimes like "we have to invite her, its gonna be awkward if she sees our story" friend. It may not seem like such a big deal to you but it is for me.
I've always felt like a shitty human being and now that this is happening, I feel soon horrible about my self. I trusted someone and told them the story, the next day they go and hang out with those same girls. Now I feel like I can't trust anyone, I always end up get g hurt.
I'm such a shitty person, I don't deserve friends. I deserve to be alone and die.
along with all of this. Harry's tour just ended. I'm also on my period. So i'm like on an all time low rn.
I'm half way through the next chapter, but probably won't have it up for a couple of days. I'm sorry for being such a huge disappointment.