i looked down at the water in the bathtub, tracing circles across the surface
i felt tears falling down my face falling into the water, creating little waves
i wasn't even crying, it was just tears as a coping mechanism
they just spilled out the corners of my eyes, the only thing my body knew how to do at a time like this
i texted you a quick text just before i slipped in here, just a simple sorry, and i love you, goodbye
i wonder if i can actually do it
just slip under the surface and fade away
i take a short breath before sinking underneath
closing my eyes i just listen to the silence of the water
i listen to the sound of my heart beating against my chest desperately fighting for air
i feel it thumbing against my rib cage, my lungs hurting and my legs becoming numb
i feel the last bits of adrenaline rush trough my veins, fighting for life
but i stay under the water
soon the pain would end i tell myself
soon i'll be at peace again
soon i won't feel again
soon i'll be gone