Monday. Does it have to be Monday? I'm definitely looking forward to this day.
I'm in my bus now waiting to reach that amazing building that I'm so excited to be in, school.
As soon as we get to school, I see Daniel waiting for me at the school gate. Awesome.
"Hey Savannah," he smiles, "How are you?"
I attempt a smile, "I'm fine thanks and yourself?"
"I'm good. Are you sure you're okay?"
"Yes, I'm just fantastic."
"I don't buy it. Is it about Alex? What I told you?"
"I don't know, I guess."
"He texted me like you said he would."
"And?" I'm very curious to know actually.
"He wouldn't admit to anything. But fact remains, I know what he has done before. All I'm saying is he has to change if he wants to be with you."
"And you told him that?" He nods.
I sigh," Thanks for everything Daniel. I hope it all works out. How are things between you and Paula?"
He smiles, "Things are great, but we have our moments too you know. The bad moments."
I smile, "Of course. I would be surprised if you didn't."
He laughs, "Yeah exactly. That's like the standard procedure of a relationship."
"Definitely. Anyways Daniel, imma talk to you later. Gotta get to class."
We hug and then I walk to my locker. I get my books and then head to class.
As soon as I reach my class, Jenna (my classmate, well friend I suppose) bombards me with questions.
"What's wrong Savannah? You look so sad today. Why's that?"
I attempt smile after smile but I'm sure it looks fake, "I'm fine, really. Just tired."
She doesn't believe me, but I don't say anything else.
She tries to guilt-trip me into telling her, saying I'm supposed to trust her with my feelings and all that shit.
Anyways, I'm in Physics now. And now physics is done. I thought it just began, but I guess I zoned out. I literally don't know anything that was said by this teacher.
Geography turns out to be the same. My teacher notices this though and let's me have it.
I apologise and try to look like I'm focusing and then the lesson is over.
This day is quite boring and annoying.
Everyone keeps asking me what's wrong and it's getting on my nerves. I don't even know what's wrong really. It's not just because of Alex, I just generally feel.. weird today.
Anyways the day finishes and I go home.
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Tuesday, I wake up feeling the same. Possibly worse?
Anyways, after school I have to go tutor some kids at the primary school. I wish I could ditch that today, but that would be wrong.
..
"But why can't I add the denominators if we add the numerators?" This little boy asks me.
I don't know why, I never questioned why. I can't say that though.
I almost laugh, "Because you would get a really incorrect answer. You have to make the denominators the same and then add the numerators and then you can simplify the fraction."
By the look on his face, I can tell he has no clue as to what I'm on about.
"Okay forget what i said about simplifying. You'll learn that later I guess. But do you understand everything else?"
He shakes his head. I help him with everything else he doesn't understand. And then I give him homework that his mother is supposed to mark.
After the session, I take a taxi home.
I almost text Alex, but then I remember we aren't talking because he needs 'time'.
Such bullshit.
Now I'm angry again. I still don't understand what he needs time for.
Daniel texts me again.
Daniel: Hey. Uhm so my friend, Tasha wants to talk to you. She's Alex's ex.
I start to panic.
Savannah: Why? About what?
Daniel: I don't know. She says she wants to tell you how Alex really is.
Savannah: uhm okay..but not now. I don't wanna hear it right now.
Daniel: Of course. She says you can go to her whenever you're ready to.
Why now? Do I really want to find out.
How Alex really is.
What does that even mean? Doesn't sound good.
So I'm good, really. I don't want to know. Whatever mistakes he made in his past doesn't mean he will repeat them.
He doesn't go around talking to my exes so I shouldn't be doing that. That wouldn't be right.
He will tell me anything that he feels i should know.
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It's Thursday afternoon and you know what? I'm sick of this not talking thing. I wanna talk to him.
So I text him 'Hey'. Hopefully we'll be able to talk . I mean, it's been 4 days. What is this?
An hour later, he ignored the text. Wow.
I text again.
Nana: Are you seriously gonna ignore me the whole time?
He actually answers this time.
Buba: I'm not ignoring you.
Nana: Well you were kinda not talking to me for the past few days.
Buba: I told you, I'm thinking.
Nana: Can we not just let all of this go though? What do you actually want me to do Alex?
He takes a while to type.
After like 5 damn years he answers.
Buba: I don't think you understand how this feels for me. To me, this looks like you went to dig up information about me. It's like you just go around asking people for bad things about me. Whether they are true or not and then it causes problems between us. I don't go around asking random people to give me dirt on you. I have heard so many rumours about you, but I don't believe them for a second. I trust you. I really have feelings for you. Strong feelings. Just because I am taking time to think about all of this does not mean that this is the end of us. It's most definitely not. I just need to think about all of this shit. All the shit you heard about me and all the shit I heard about you. All these rumours aren't ever gonna stop. I just don't want them to come in between us. I really love spending time with you, you make me really happy. So just give me some time and you also should take some time. I'm not gonna take a million years. I just need to figure some shit out. I don't even know how to explain how I feel. I hope you understand and can breathe in and out now.
Hmm..agghh Yeah I suppose. I still don't like it.
Nana: Okay uhm..I'm so sorry about everything though... don't look at it like I was digging up info. I swear I wasn't. But I see your point. Obviously I do not know exactly how you feel but I know that I was wrong. Uhm...I will give you your time, you'll tell me whenever you're ready.
Buba: Thanks nana.
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So about two days have passed now since that conversation with Alex. I really miss him. But I just have to give him what he wants.
So I'm going to this Navy festival with my friend, Amber.
It's pretty lame actually, but everyone is here. Literally everyone from my school, everyone from Alex's school, other schools, varsity kids and parents. Just everyone.
Maybe it's not interesting to me because I've seen all of this before. My dad's in the Navy, he's a Chaplain so. Yeah he prays for people and councils and all that.
So I go to his work place sometimes and so this is all just whatever. I've seen it all.
But it's good to just get some fresh air and a distraction with my girl.
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Sunday. Guess what I'm seeing now. So it's after church and I'm walking out with my sisters and dad, he came to visit and he's leaving later today, and then I look up and see Alex.
My heart is racing. I can't say anything to him because I'm with my dad. He would trip if he knew I have a boyfriend.
Luckily Alex knows this and doesn't say anything.
He just keeps staring at me and smiling and checking me out.
Katelyn, "What's up with that guy looking at you like he got something to say?"
"What? Him? Nah girl. I don't know," my tone sounds pretty damn convincing to me.
That sucks though. I wanted to run into his arms and kiss him. But yet, I had to pretend like I didn't know him.
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Monday. I wake up to a text from ALEX!!!!!! FINALLY!
Buba: Hey nana
Nana: Hey...
Buba: Finally saw your dad..
Nana: Oh yes when I saw you and your friend. He left already. Were you going to the festival?
Buba: Yeah because Saturday we got there late so we missed out.
Nana: Did you have fun?
Buba: No not really.
Nana: Same...but why?
Buba: Just super tired I guess from the previous night. I was in some place and only got home at like 5 a.m.
Nana: Oh my gosh. You party hard hey..
Buba: I wasn't partying, there was no transport home.
Why are we talking like nothing happened? I'm so confused.
Nana: I'm so glad you're okay though. You should get some rest Alex.
I'm surprised you're talking to me today..
Buba: I missed you
Nana: I missed you
Buba: I'm okay now nana I know that I can't not have you in my life.
My heart is jumping out of my body.
Nana: That is good to hear. I feel the same way buba.
Are we okay now?
Buba: Yes we are. I still need to explain the whole thing to you.
Nana: When?
Buba: Whenever you're free.
So we decide to meet up on Thursday. I'm excited to see him. I have missed him a lot.
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