I'm So Exhausted

By iDontCondoneThis

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#1 in poem #1 in poetrycollection #1 in vent #2 in memory this is just a compilation of my vent poetry-ish (t... More

Rooms
Butterflies
Go To Hell
Crimson
Speak
Self Destruction
Why Can't You?
Dear Nova Aurora Grace Wilson,
At the Brink
Reason
The Boy
Lies
Matches
Angel
Perfect
Him
light up my life
Eyes
Wonderland
Cuts and Burns
Blonde Hair Blue Eyes
Anxiety
Happy
walls covered in you
love
crooked grins
Drinks
strangers again
Yin Yang
Satisfaction guaranteed
Me Vs. You
89,000
hero
More or less
I'm too nice
rose petals
marijuana kisses
Ive been thinking too much
You Were Everything I Was Nothing
To All That I Lose
heart shaped kisses
...
tell your kids about me
we were not meant to finish the story
A letter to the girl who loves him next
No
I hope you miss me like i used to miss you
Jealous
I said no
Im getting lost in space
Sometimes you have to let go of your own happiness
What do you want me to do
this pandemic makes me feel so alone
Heartless
Knees
How did i know when it was love?
Cake
Water
how strange is it to be anything at all
it's just a dream
surrendering
I broke my glasses
strangers with memories
.
Making You Stay
questioning
I watch my phone for a text
snow
I have made peace with my past, just not with myself yet
they were false, but they were made for me and that's the biggest honor
I've been cutting every label off
what happened to us
trying is so trivial , I know we are closing the chapter
How long until we cave in
I've had sex but Ive never made love
different place, different time, I know we could have rewritten these lines
a very short summary
it's all I've ever wanted from you
I miss being a child
I still haven't even told you I loved you
we are too far, but I'm far too committed to you
I'm not quite sure which hurts more
you can choke.
you're grinding me down
I can't stop
The Army Sucks
Maybe

Flowers and Gravestones

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By iDontCondoneThis

I still leave flowers on your gravestone.

It calms me to watch them sway in the breeze.

Just like you calmed me when you were here.

I still leave flowers on your gravestone

Purple, red, and all shades of blue.
Blue was your favorite.

A butterfly once landed on your name carved in stone.
Where you lay

It was free to flutter and he happy

I guess you are too now

I still leave flowers on your gravestone, Joseph.

I still remember how your hair was getting long and i threatened to cut it myself.

I would have cut your hair for you but now all i cut are flowers that remind me of you.

I cut flowers like you and i cut ourselves. They eventually crinkle and rot into a shade of brown.

The color of your hair

I still put flowers on your gravestone.

They eventually die. just like you did.

If you think about it,

Flowers are a lot like people in a way.

Sometimes we loose our color,

We have a stem to clutch to when storms approach

But in a sense we are all drastically different.

We cut ourselves because we don't think we are beautiful but we cut flowers because we think they are...

You were not a flower like the rest of us,

you are a weed growing in my garden.

I can pull you from my garden of memories but your roots will remain.

But weeds are flowers too if you take the time to know them. I guess the tulips and roses didn't care to meet an shunned weed.

I am not an alcoholic
But i always get drunk on the thought of joining you.

I leave weeds on your gravestone, Joseph, because they remind me of you.

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